I hope you're happy. Today, or tomorrow, most days or even just some. I hope you feel happy always but I know life can be cruel. So on days that you don't, I hope you feel loved. I hope you know you're loved. I hope you remember the things That make you happy. And remind yourself how much you are loved on days you are not. But if you can't be happy, And if you can't remember when you were. Please know I'm right there with you. You'll never be alone. And don't you ever forget Even whe you don't feel happy Know you are loved. You are loved. You are loved. <3
Why do I break everything I touch?
It's almost as if my fingers are razor blades But that's not even the worst part. The worst part is the words that come out of my mouth After my heart feels like it's been torn into shreds by your blades. And baby even that, that's not even the worst part. The worst part is I cant even tell If my thoughts are real If my feelings are rational Baby please help me because sometimes I get lost in my own mind Theres demons that live up there and they take over sometimes. It's hard for me to know, To tell the difference Between a feeling that deserves to be felt And a feeling that shouldn't really be there. I've spent the better part of my life being told that what I feel isnt real. I've spent the last 4 years questioning myself, And quite frankly my whole life. Desperately trying to figure out Whether I deserve to feel this way Or somehow I've asked for this. Did I create this darkness myself? Does my mind somehow convince me that everything and everyone In this world Is only going to hurt me? Is it my fault if it does? I wish I had the wisdom And the rational Between reality And insanity Baby please believe me when I tell you "I didnt ask to be this way ! I want a way out I want an escape. I don't want to feel this way tonight, tomorrow, or ever again!" I've tried to explain Theres no quick fix to this. Theres trauma. There's questions unanswered. Memories blocked out to help Avoid the pain. But a person can only handle this constant "I hate you." "I love you." "Don't leave me." For so long Before they ***** too. Have I weighed you down too With this awful demon. While trying to fight off my own?
Can anyone on here understand this mess I just wrote? This disorder makes me feel so alone
I am burnout
Have nothing to talk about Each minute my mind racing with doubt But nothing seems to come out of my mouth Today, I don’t have anything Not a single idea I could bring My heart is so numb there’s not even a sting Maybe it’s better off to be just stopping I know I don’t have enough talent But this is the only way I can vent To help my soul slowly mend, Writing became my only friend I wish I had more words to say But my head is still swimming in gray I need my mind to fly away Because maybe then, my body will decide to stay
Force people To see in you, What they can not see Effortlessly.. Because at the end of it all,we choose to see what we want to see in everyone.
I'm not stable enough for love
I'm not kind enough for love I'm not worthy enough for love I'm not ready for love Lord please save me I don't feel human I don't have strength I don't belong I don't want to live I'm nothing but depressed A lost case A piece of work A damaged ex Will I ever turn my life around? And see the world differently? Like it's meant to be Like I have a destiny Like anyone wants me To be here