How much love you gave,
I can't comprehend.
To me and for me,
Your happiness you were willing to give.
As a selfless soul would;
You stood for unconditional love.
You'd drop everything in a heartbeat,
Just to help me rise above.
Rise above my pain,
& Overcome my sorrow.
You did everything for me mom,
I wish our past moments could be borrowed.
You trained me how to interpret fear,
Your grit formed my strong back.
False Evidence Appearing Real;
The acronym is opposite in fact.
You stood up to those;
The few foolish to stand in your way.
These figures turned into your obstacles,
& your mental fortitude made them obey.
To see the big picture,
Is the mission you'd convey.
Interpreting small aspects of life as miracles,
Your belief system made me want to stay.
Stay by your side,
I never wanted to leave.
You reassured me of your vitality;
& This helped me momentarily go away.
Away to form my life,
Constantly looking to you for advice.
Your wisdom gave me strength,
& this I'll never deny.
Last night was the time,
For your moment of truth.
For once I was glad to be woken up,
As your soul passed along through.
Now there’s no you, because you are me too.
We became one last night,
The night your pain dissolved out of the blue.
God has an angel,
He must have needed you so.
He knows my love for you is irreplaceable;
& the hurt will forever show.
The shell shock is real,
& no one can be ready.
I want you to know I love you mom,
& this feeling will remain permanently steady.
I wrote this in the early AM the day after my mom passed.
