My arm is healed now.
Thats a good thing right?
There are no more angry red lines
There is no more itching
There aren't even traces of the scars.
I can wear short sleeves again.  

I swore it was a one time thing.
"Never again, you have my word",
I promised to the loved ones i had shown.

So why do i feel like
I want to paint my skin in red stripes once more?

The smiles hide the screaming
The laughter hides the hurt
The "love" hides the cruel intentions
The gifts hide the truth.

My mask hides me

The insults don't lessen
The arguments don't cease
The swear words are abundant
The yelling never ends.

My panic overtakes me

The tears won't stop flowing
My fingers won't stop twitching
My arm won't stop itching
Help me hide from My Family

I really dont know
How i feel at all, but i
Want to feel loved please.

what would you do
if you breath was stolen
and not in a good way?

what would your last words be
if a gun was against your head
and you couldn't breathe?

what would you say
before the water went into your lungs
and you only had seconds to live?

what would you do
what would you say
if you couldn't breathe anymore?

if the air became poison
and you couldn't breathe
all you could do was watch your family
fall one by one?

Confined to the walls of my room
Bandana around my neck
I try to remember the good things in life
I want to stay out of my own head
Nothing in life is free
Not even the air we breathe
It's tainted with diseases
But we breathe anyway
We endure the screams of alcoholic fathers
We cry ourselves to sleep at night
We convince ourselves that we're alright
And never seek help from others

We are the broken ones
We endure our pain and suffering
We remember the things worth remembering

We are the depressed ones
We see knives as toys
We don't know the difference between light and dark

We are hurt, and some of us can't be saved

The more steps I take the more I lose my breath
I try to run but I can’t escape
It’s getting closer I think it’s too late


It caught  me again

My heart starts pounding
My hands start shaking
Nobody can hear me
Nobody can help me

I can't stop
I can't
I've tried
But it's consumed me
I won't be the same ever again
But it's okay
No one has noticed anything
No one has cared to tell me that I am slowly changing
No one sees my suffering
No one shows indifference to my shyness
I'm all alone
No one will ever understand

Your happy I’m not…
These mental fights I have fought
Break me into shards
I feel like I'm behind bars

Do you love me
I can see your glee
I know its another girl
It hit me and now I’m in a blur

Hello are you there
Its pain I can’t bare
I don’t want to live like this
I’ll never get your loving kiss

The pain in my eyes are seen
The outsiders I see are very mean
I hate the hurt in my head
To be honest I wish I was dead

Hey I’m talking to you
You act like I’m a fool
I will never give up
Even if I look like a lost pup

Crying so much turned to blood
They thickened on my cheek like mud
My white dress stained red
My scene looked dead

I want to harm myself
I don’t want any help
I’m enraged with your hate
But, maybe thats my fate

Cut cut cut slit
Punch punch punch hit
Tie tie tie hang
Load load load bang

Dead