Sometimes I feel like,
your mind could live a life of its own.
Few like yours are left now.
If only I could take your brain from your skull and
draw out the knowledge and the wonder,
squeeze it with mine,
our multi-faceted intelligence meshed together like a badly made clay sculpture.
Like a library of what is.
Then I could keep you forever.

It's just that I needed to know more before you left.

No one catch up to me
I am far too gone

There is no map to place I go
There are no lingering footsteps to where I am

You'd miss me
for a day or two
but then, time fixes it
and I'd be a distant memory

i just think
that if i was gone
then it wouldn't matter
anymore

it wouldn't matter
anymore

anymore

That sweet pang in my heart
when I think of you.

making sandcastles at the beach while being basked by the sun
quickly turned into doors slamming so hard that the room vibrates

laughing until our ribs felt like they would burst
quickly turned into insults that would rot my soul away

jubilantly screaming on rollercoasters and squeezing hands tightly
quickly turned into punches and threats

smiles that shined brightly with purity and joy
quickly turned into tears that i'd find myself drowning in every night

being daddy's little girl
quickly turned into being the one that got away

i used to think
we were the perfect match
but matches are meant
to ignite
and then
            burn out.

As time grew, so did we.
I still think about the words
You've said to me.

The laughs fade to grey,
Smiles to black.
Just thinking of your eyes
Almost brings the time back.

Now that you're gone,
I can say

We were two leaves of the same tree.
Destined to fall.
Never to stay.

I search for my reflection
but it is here no longer.