I'm. Fine.

I find that everyday's dull and grey
And I'm left to rediscover it on my own
I wake up to see the same display that I can't get rid of
I've come to see that one day everything dies
I've come to see that everyone lies
i've come to see that people just survive, and try to love to stay alive
Some just try to stay together and not fall a part
Nothing matters
Everything matters
With so little time
With so little space
Everything matters
And yet
Nothing does
Nothing matters to me but writing
Being mortal, having achievements does matter
Cause after you're dead those are the things you're remembered for
Being immortal, you have all the time in the world
up until the world ends that is (which isn't that far away in my belief)

But I am mortal
I want to be a writer to show people my age and younger that language is beautiful and is still alive
And to keep it alive!!

I may find that one day people will be too far gone and I may be in heaven or hell
*I am forsaken

Little you know of the life that once was
Before the breaking of light. The soft sphere
Of the broken formed from the falling tear
Of your beloved, your forbidden cause.
All of our past came to this halting pause
When in my eyes, we became vain and clear.
Nothing was real! Now take heed in your ear!
I never sought to leave. You were my all
In all. In all I did, I thought of you.
Intended not our love, now gone, to fall
Like it did. And now every lone soul,
Forsaken as mine, welcomes me as one
Who knows the heartbreak’s swiftly passing role.
Alone you left me. Alone you remain.

I pressed my pale face into my hands
While watching my life slip through my tiny fingers.

The spiteful lightning blinds my eyes,
not at all allowing me to see,
exactly whats lays before me.

There is no hope, no chance for me.
I lost my last opportunity.
Everyone yells, and shouts at me,
yet my fate dies, along with dreams.

Not a chance with you,
but this was something I could foresee.
Not any friends to truly talk to,
But open your eyes and see,
You are who I truly need.