last christmas I gave you my heart.
this christmas I forgot you existed

its the last walk through memory lane
i have memories of you, of us
but no matter how hard i try to stalk those memories back
my memory doesn't seem to last forever

When I saw you with her
I realized that you forgot about me...
We never were anything
But a distant echo in the wind...

Ghosts inside
of the machine..
Is it memory or dream?
Having been there,
having seen something
in that space
that is never as it seems,
just somewhere in between.
Somewhere, somehow
it all exists and yet
does not.
Sometime, somehow
we got caught up in the dream
And forgot about the Now.

And I'm here, here
Lost in self conflicting thoughts
Here,
Like you wanted me to be
Though your fears have gone
They became a part of me too

You forgot them
but you left them with me
Here,
in my quivering heart
I will keep them out of love
but they grasp me painfully

Here, here with me.

As you can see,
I've never been a prodigy.
Always unimpressive, apparently.
Stressing is an everyday thing.
But you wouldn't care,
You're just so unaware.
Depression has me ensnared,
But you couldn't handle my despair.
So keep your eyes closed.
And I'll do the same.
The things I think about are completely insane,
I wish the good times would never change.
But this isn't my dreamland.
It's a place where I don't want to stand.
Depression is the ocean,
Anxiety is the sand,
And I'm somewhere floating in between it all.