I had a thought today.
About you and me.
And it was that.
I’ve never wanted a little version of me ruining around.
But god do I want a little version of you.
Is it the words whispered
in secret corridors
i love you
are they proclaimed boldly
from roof tops
I LOVE YOU
Or maybe love
sounds like laughter
giggles shared only between two
what if love has no noise
its beauty is similar to a sunset
seen and felt
but never heard
Sometimes it’s not that I want to be alone, it’s that I need to be.
I need to hear nothing but my own thoughts, to hear my body breathing to remind myself that there is blood flowing through these veins.
To be able to sink back into my mind and have a conversation that doesn’t exhaust me because it’s only with myself.
I just need to be me.
I know it’s over,
and it has been for a while.
But I don’t know what to do with all this love I have for you.
It’s just sitting in my chest with no one to call home.
Because the only one it wants,
Healing is a process, embrace it while you can.
I’m not scared I won’t fall in love again,
I’m scared that I won’t love him as much
as I loved you.
Or maybe it will be a different kind of love? I guess I’ll find out one day.
I’ve spent so long being my own woman,
I don’t know how to share myself anymore.
People are so scared to be alone. But what about all of us that are so content being alone we don’t know how not to be?
We all know the pain of love,
or the end of it.
But the pain of a broken friendship,
now that is unmatched.