I don't expect to understand
I don't like expectation
I understand I don't expect to get such information.

Sometimes I wonder

Why hopes dashed
Why dreams died
Why we cried ourselves to sleep at night

Then I ask my self

*"Why did you expect too much?"

Revine me and I'll revine you
Repost me and I'll repost you
Like me and I'll like you
Follow me and I'll follow you

We always expect to get something
Instead of just do the right thing
For others
For us.

The things
we expect from each other
are the things we want to find in ourselves
the solace we find
we wish it was an internal process
the pain that we do not expect
do not predict
is the aching sensation inside us all

I wish to know nothing
So that I don't feel something that is aching
It's a surprise, an unexpected one
And while hearing that voices like doom, I wish I could run.

The joke is on me, I know
Because I let this tiny thing in my heart to grow
I give meanings with those little acts
Not thinking that one day, it will fade away.

I do my very best to hide
I smile, I act like there is nothing wrong
In short, I'm trying to be strong
But in everything I do, all I feel is a shade from you.

Those text messages, chats and undetermined sweetness
Those unusual looks when the sparks fly between our eyes
Those time when you are sitting next to me
I realize that all I think before is fantasy.

It's a bit painful to stay away
Ghost from you keep on waving and saying Hey
This story is only about to start
But suddenly it was finish already.