You seem to be infatuated with it.
To you, the picture in your hand
is perfect and infallible.

I'm sorry to inform you,
your picture is faded
and torn around the edges.

It can be hard to see, unless
you pull it from the shadow
then hold it to the light,

but there's imperfection everywhere.
Sun spots and water marks
cover bits of the figure in the frame.

It really isn't worth as much as you thought,

but I hope you'll consider keeping it.
It looks good hung up on your wall.

I'm sorry to disappoint you.

i am not the daughter my father wanted.
i am too apologetic and too aloof.
i am not the daughter my mother wanted.
i am too damaged. i think i always will be.
i am not the granddaughter my grandmother wanted.
i am not girl enough. not even close.
my legs are too hairy and i don’t like boys enough and i’m too blunt.
i am not the best friend my best friend wanted.
i am too self centered and full of excuses and just too much.
i am not ever enough for anyone.
i will never be the person my loved ones want me to be.
i don’t even know who i want to be.
just when i thought i had become a person i could be proud of
i look around at all the people i’ve majorly disappointed,
and i realize that i can’t win.

I've Just Read A Poem ...
About ... " Child Abuse " ...
  
It's Touched Me So Deeply ... !!!
I'm Now Feeling ... " BLUE " ... !!!!
  
It's Filled Me With ... " SADNESS " ...
And ... FILLED ME With MADNESS ... !!!!!
  
How Could Any Person ... ?
Resort To ... Such BADNESS ... !?!
  
It's ... Made Me Reflect ...
On ... Certain Subjects ...
Like Those Who Live Life ...
For ... ALL They Can Get ... !!!!!
  
While Those ...
Who Have ... NOTHING ...
Are Living In ... " Debt " ...
  
Dummies Spend Money ...
To Have .... " Internet " ....
  
But ...

Use It ... UNWISELY ...
Like ... Surfing For *** ...
  
These Heads Are ... INSECTS ...
With ... NO Self Respect ... !!!
  
..... REFLECTION .....
  
Is Something ...
Most People ... " DON'T Do "...
  
Too Many Are SELFISH ... !!!
and ... Don't Have A Clue ... ?!?  
  
About Those ...
Who ... SUFFER ... !!!!!!
With Sickness ... NOT Flu ... !!!!!!!
  
Sickness That ... KILLS ... !!!
While Others ... " Sniff Glue " ...
  
I Listen To People ...
Who Talk of ... " RESPECT " ...
  
These Days I Reflect ...
On This Thing Called ...
  
..... " RESPECT " .....
  
RESPECT ... Must Be Earned ... !!!
Why ... Give It For FREE ... ?!?
  
RESPECT Is NOT Something ...
For .... EVERYBODY .... !!!
  
RESPECT ... Can't Be Given ...
To People ... "BLINDLY" ... !!!
  
RESPECT Goes Together ...
With ... " HUMILITY " ... !!!
  
That Verse NEEDS ... INSPECTION ...
And Some ..... " Thought Collection " .....  
  
I'll ..... Give You A Moment ...
To Take For ... " REFLECTION " ...............................  
  
Kids Are Important ...
For .... " Society " ... !!!!! ...  
They Need To Stand STRONG ...
Like ... " MUHAMMAD ALI  " .... !!!!!
  
How Many of You ... ?
Know of His ... " Poetry " ...
  
How Many of You ... ?
Could EVER ... Achieve ...
His Level of ... " Conscious " ...
or ... Athletic Feats ... !?!
  
I've Heard Some Great Stories ...
MOST ... Would Not Believe ... !!!!
  
The Way He'd Treat People ...
On .... Everyday Streets ...
  
His ... Generous Nature ...
To Strangers He'd Meet ...
  
How Many of Us ... ?
Could Be So ... Complete ... ?!?
  
YES ... !!!!!!
  
He Had His ... " FAULTS " ...
As Do ... Many of We ... !!!!!!!!
  
WE ... As In YOU ...
and WE ... As In ME ...
  
That's Why I Try HARD ...
To Show .... " Humility " ....  
When ... So MANY SUFFER ...
And Are ... NOT So Lucky ... !!!!!
  
I Do Have ... Nice Things ...
But ... DO NOT Believe ...
That Things I Now Own ...
Should DEFINE ... Who I Be ... !!!!
  
It's Hard To Stay ... " grounded " ... !!!
When ALWAYS ... Surrounded ....
By Those Who ... LOVE MONEY ... !!!
More Than Their Own ... Body ... ?!?!?
  
These People Are ... DUMB ... !!!
They Make Me Feel ... NUMB ...
Which Is ....... How I Felt .......
When I Lost My ... " Dear Mum " ... !!!
  
She Died In My Arms ...
I Then ... Felt The Calm ...........................
  
Cos' That's When I Felt ...
Her Love ... Through My Arms ...
  
It Was The Last Time ...
For Her Physical Charm ...
To Touch Me Just Like ...
A Knife Through My Palm ... !!!!!
  
But ... One Thing I Know ...
Is ... We'll ALWAYS KNOW ... !!!
The LOVE That ... We Shared ...
  
FOREVER ... Will Flow .................................................................­.........
  
" I LOVE YOU STILL Mum ... !!!!! "
  
You SHINE Like The Sun ...
In The Heart of ... THIS MAN ...
  
YES Virgil ... Your Son ... !!!
So ... This Is My Message ...
  
It's .......... " MY Invention " .........
  
DON'T Live Your Whole Life ...
For ... SELFISH Pretension ... !!!!!
  
Take Time and ... Be WISE ...
and ... OPEN Your Eyes ...
  
Then You ...
WON'T Be ... SURPRISED ...
By Things You Might Find ...
  
In Your ... Own ...
  
.... " REFLECTION " ....

I want to trust, I want to believe
But I can't shake the feeling that it makes me naive
I hate to be laughed at, I avoid the crowds
My self-deprecation is already too loud
Multiple times my heart's been broken
Yet I still hand it out to others like a token
Of how much I love them and how much I care
But they take it and break it, it doesn't seem fair
Each time it happens, it's a new hole in my heart
What do I do with these feelings that tear me apart
They tell me hiding from others is no way to live
But I'm just trying to protect what little I've left to give