By Arcassin Burnham

It was necessary watching you go and leaving my life,
I ain't never gonna fall again,
I could have been like a human answering machine
For all of your problems,
But I'm not your guinea pig,

Cutie pie, cutie pie,
Why do you keep stressing me?

Cutie pie ,cutie pie,
Why do you not answer me?

I was so determine,
To keep us alive,
Don't ever come back to me,
Back to me,
Don't come back to me.

Love is nothing but a sacrifice
Who so offers get rejoice
You beat me physically hollow
But I am bound to just follow
You can abuse me to the extent
I totally agree to this vent
You can burn me on violent fire
But my love my soul my sire
If you leave me, I will ruin
You can throw me in a dust bin
Put me just through any strife
**** me with a blunt sharp knife
For me do show some concern
For God sake do not take U turn


Col Muhammad Khalid Khan
Copyright 2016 Golden Glow

My biggest fear
Not spiders, not the dark, not  any clown
But to see your body,fully gowned
Your makeup done with your hair down
You're with a guy who is into you but I'm not around
The thought of this just makes me frown
You with someone that isn't me, 404: Heart Not Found
I'll swim in alcohol and in my despair I'll drown
The music plays but my thoughts are the loudest sound
I hate this place and I hate this town
Leave me to be eaten by the hounds

If you don't think anyone understands you, open your ******* mouth
Because someone needs to unknot your thoughts
You can't

2nd place is what I always seem to come,
far away from being last but I never get to be first.
I shouldn't be complaining it probably sounds dumb,
But you should know the feeling so you can be alert.

They will start by making promises and keeping them.
Then they make excuses    " sorry I forgot ***"
It only happens a couple of times at first,
Then a long break in between,
Suddenly waking up wondering why I'm crying in my dreams.

How can I try to be everywhere and feel lost?
Dedicated to love while suffering its cost.
At the end of the day when sunlight fades to grey you keep lying to yourself saying "love will pave the way" when excuses are all they have left to say.

"I cant"

"I don't feel well"

"I'm tired"

"I need to be on my own for a spell"

Why do I come in 2nd place?
Shoved to the back of the line while I wait.
Mr. Cellophane,
walk right by while I wait.
Mr. Cellophane,
see through me to empty space.

Don't crumble me up and put me in the trash,
all I wanted was the promises you promised me at last.
No excuses,
keep the promises you made in the past and stop leaving the person who loves you to last.

You have time money and energy for everyone else.
I am sorry but you keep putting me behind everyone else.
How can I love when I barely feel love myself?
I'm trying to find fun and adventure for our health.

How come you always come first and no body else?

This man in the mirror, who is he?
I stare and stare, but I don’t see me,
I don’t see happiness, joy, success,
I see a failure, a wreck, a mess!

This feeble being, this waste of space,
He looks familiar, we share a face,
How dare he try to look like me,
This can’t be right, just let me be!

This reflection I see, is this who I am?
A worthless being?  A total sham?
Has my life boiled down to this?
A failure staring into the abyss?

I must stay focused, I must stay strong,
This coward in the mirror, just doesn’t belong,
But he just stares back, eyes filled with hate,
As if his will, he wishes to sate.

This man I see, the enemy within,
His role it seems, send me to ruin,
I can’t back down, I must fight back,
To get this worthless life back on track.

I must show strength, I’ll stand and fight,
To find my way in this darkest night,
This face is mine, let the battle begin,
This reflection I see, this bitter man, I’ll start with him!

© Cinco Espiritus Creation

don't worry for me
i will be fine, as always
problems dissipate