I expected you to hold me!
I expected you to ask me,what happened!
No I didn't have that same answer.
I wanted to say everything!
I wanted to pour my heart out!
I wanted to say everything.
I wanted to say every single thing.
I wanted you to hug me,
I didn't want you to be on your phone.
I cried on your lap,because you make me feel like home.
Your positive vibes make me feel better.
They make me feel good and good.

Shut up!
I do not feel anything nasty, seeing you laugh!
Awful?
Are you kidding me?
No.
Never.
Not even a single time.
Not even for the moment,you blink your beautiful eyes!
I love seeing you laugh.
Obviously it is my favorite.
I always love your  smiling face.
It comes in front of my eyes,whenever I am happy.
And when I am sad?
Yes my dear!
Yes!
That smiling face of yours heals me the best that time.
I always love you.
I love you and your laughter.
That smile on your face is priceless to me.
It is that precious gem ,
that I would love to preserve ,
For the rest of my life!
It is probably the best thing I see in my day and it simply makes my day.
And it makes me whole!
It makes me whole.

Everyone started hating her.
They started hating her for her loud laugh.
They started hating her for her intentions to crave love.
They started hating her for being so rude!
They started hating her for her irritating moods.
They started hating her for her wrong decisions.
They started hating her for her carelessness.
And They started ignoring her for her weird stories. They started ignoring her for who she was.
And She became queit.
Queit,as she was judged from the outside.
All she could do that time was to wonder, why?
Why they judged her for something she did and not for something that made her do that!
It was her turn to hate then!
So she started hating herself.
So she Hated  her being.
Hated herself for every breath she took.
Hated herself for every wrong decision she took and for every wrong person she chose.
She hated herself for lying on the floor and crying day and night.
And then,after days,she decided to stop hating herself.
And so she left!
"Not every ending is a happy ending".

Do you know?
Do you?
Nothing in this world would ever fascinate me,
more than that, relieving smile!
No cigarette, no whiskey can give me that hangover, that your smell gives to me!
You have no ******* idea,
how much that small hugs heals me to the core!
Do you even know, I am addicted to your kind words!
I am addicted to you!
Do you know?
Your eyes are that beautiful ocean,
I would love to drown into!
Your hands have always took me to that wonderland.
You are heaven to my soul.
You are all it asks for, day and night!
Do you have any idea?
How wildly it craves you?
How badly it wants you!
Every minute, every second!
Every time I look at you, I realize,
I can always cherish this face.
As it fills me with a power!
The power of self destruction!
Whenever I think of you, it amazes me,to my last bit!
What in this world would I not do for you my world?
What not?
A single thought of you tears me apart and somehow fixes me back!
As I know, this energy in you is something I always crave!
Even in my dreams!
Have you ever realized?
Have you?
I always feel safe and good when you are around!
I love teasing you.
I love doing it and I would love to continue it for the rest of my life!
You get it?
Do you?
Do you get it,when I tell you I am always there at your side.
Do you know, I am always there for you?
For my thoughts are limited to you!
They do not allow me to go beyond this!
Do you even realize?
Do you?
What it takes off me, when I tell them that you my boy!
You!
You are my ten on ten.
You are my ten on ten!

You are fat,they say!
Really?
Is that something relevant to describe me?
Is that amount of fat on my body relevant to describe me and my being?
Is that fat on my body going to determine my future?
Whom I have to be with?
To whom I can talk to?
What I am capable of?
What I can do and what not?
Who is going to like me and who not?
What I have to do with myself and what not?
Really?
Is that fat on my body going to determine how beautiful I am?
Really?
I thought beauty is in the heart!
I thought it is determined by the amount of love we give to others!
I thought it is the soul that is beautiful!
I am fat,am I beautiful?
Tell me,am I?
Yes.
Yes.I am ,because this flesh on my body is not at all going to determine what kind of a person I am.
Maybe I am much more interesting and wonderful than I look.
Obviously beauty is important and attractive,
But is that my hollow body that makes me beautiful?
Is my beautiful heart not enough?
Is it not telling you I am beautiful?
Am I beautiful?
Yes,I am beautiful.
I am beautiful.