Car rides, blowing smoke, ignorance is bliss, so is smoking dope.
Keep watch, tuck below. Take a ****, you said you'd be right back and i'm still holding this **** in since we last spoke.
City lights, plane flights. Breathe some air, keep chill.
Take a chill pill just relax, keep still here's some lax.
This town overdosed, kids missing found dead. Vision blurry, getting red.
Pay attention to the Feds.
Their just fiends, they're not your friends.
This life I know
This life I was drug into
Gotta watch yourself, gotta watch your back.
They do it for the high, they do it for the cash.
Quick to getting your cards stolen for a free stash.
Steady steady, think outside the box.
They will yank you, yes they're called the cops.
Take it easy. Do what they say.
Or you'll be in handcuffs, wishing you were praying.
Prison is where the dogs go. Jail is where the ****** go.
Guns in the Trunk, gloves on my hands.
Leave no evidence, I'm not punk.
Those around you, will impact your reputation,
Those around you may impact your temptation.
Bring my bag, bring a change of clothes.
Put these on, you're tagging along.
The faces and cases of all the **** and it's users.
You might run into one while with your folks.
Or you might be running from your family to find a ****.
Don't poke, edits aren't good.
Easy to catch a case,
hard to come up on a empty parking space
It will remain forever, never let you free

Judged by my personal appearance,
like really, "you never gave me a chance,"
Others too quick to giving me a label
certainly not a good idea, I'm unstable.
Now see, do I look that intimidating?
or are you like the rest, hating.

Done some things, I refuse to repeat,
not a legit reason, for you to mistreat.
Don't judge me by my personal use,
take a trip in my shoes, learn about my root
You see my scars, plugs and tattoos,
all I see is i'm missing my shoes.

You'll get a name, whether you're doing good or bad,
especially those who didn't have a dad
No matter what, they will talk behind your back
while your boyfriend is buying a sack
Let those mice, run their trap
I count down the numbers, subtract.

Open your mouth to spread those rumors,
used to it, all started when I was a junior
Keep putting your nose where it doesn't belong,
you'll consistently talk **** life long
Sorry, I don't reach your standards,
placing your life in a hazard.

I could careless about what you say,
hoping my next UA will be delayed,
attempting to bring my esteem down,
when truly behing your words is a frown,
Grinning, not caring because I have the power,
head high, looking out my invisible tower.

Met this ***** when I was eleven,
I'm sure I've told you his name is Devon.
Face to face when he was telling me off,
back when all the teachers told me to stop.
Ever since middle school we've been pals,
leaving school smelling quite foul.
Living right down the road from one another,
both of us watching out younger brothers,
In the morning we met at the bus stop,
with the ***** he's about to pop.
Some fools that never learned to treat me right,
holding his phone, recording his fist fight.
Never left his side, never left his side
We got caught up in some relationships,
each & every mistake, brought upon a guilt trip
Pouring out our issues, all became up in smoke
***** after *****, *** after ***
Dropping him off to sleep with your girl bro,
Check if Devon is on your wife's cell phone,
your sheets might smell like my best friends cologne
My disease, makes my heart skip a beat,
talking to you bring me to my feet.
It is funny to think back at that time,
because now were sharing a crystal line,
We have been through so much together
Imagining our lives in the future
You're special, you're strong, loving and kind,
no matter who's there you'll speak your mind.
Think of all the times you've spent without me,
while i'm staring down at my tattooed feet.
Words could never describe how I feel,
maybe you do, I kept it forever real.
Forever finding the right words to tell,
I was the one who catch you when you fell...
There's no such thing as a sunny moment,
due to all the clouds that we have token.
Plenty of things have gone so wrong,
at least we have been through it all alone.
When you pushed me in the Walmart cart,
certainly nothing could drive us apart.
When you call, I will be at your side
especially for all the times we've cried.

Lately I have a downy Frown
Letters read have clearly Degraded
Supposed was Angrily written
Hot Hands, here's a Mitten
Stand up Fast, Lookin a tad Dizzy
Stay on your Toes, Keep Bizzy.
you can say it out LOUD.
But I know you still think about it
When you're all Alone.
Thoughts rummage-in
Cool Down, Hurry the Air is getting Thick
Everybody looking Sick.
Follow the Trace, keep Quiet.
If you're not, we will find you silent.
Hide your Face, it's too Late now.
The Wolves Too are on The Prowl

You think trying would get you a good outcome,
but **** no my efforts are meaningless.
Fed up with the accusations and verbal abuse.
Just pick and choose if it's me or really you. Tired of the fighting, expired of the lying.
Get a grip, and don't let loose.
You'll come to fall with no feet to land on, you'll hide and clap in applause.  
Stop all the negatory, you just hold me back. Too quick to be the one to attack.
I lost defense, and you're just too senseless.
Make some ****** sense of yourself and I'll make some cents for myself.
You're the back door rug that keeps making me trip,
if I just  stood up maybe I could dip.
Yes I used lie.
Yes I used to make you unhappy.
Kept coming back and wouldn't cut me slack.
Realization and consideration got me to change my act.
Accept the facts of my mistakes.
Don't bring it up but you don't know how to shut the **** up.
You hang onto the past, but I hang onto you. The truth of your father is unspeakable,
I'm sorry he did that, it's unbelievable.
You could leave us alone so I could slit his throat.
That's besides the fact of me trying to show you.
That I care and I always try to show support. Don't you dare put your hands on me or expect a letter from court.
Cut me short when I speak, on the outside your weak.
Inside you're so beautiful, I wouldn't trade you for diamonds.
The truth here is to be told, I'm so serious about our relationship,
don't hesitate and I try to get you to work before your late.
I launder your clothes, and fold all the fabrics.
I stay and wait for you at home
When you could be gone at the casino.
Blow up some bucks, I could careless for these jealous *****.
I'm not your property, but I can say your mine.
I won the lottery, it was everything no one else could give me.
The little things like coming to see me every night, the miles, the highs and the lows.
Not giving up makes me not give up.
I gave up the truth, and I nearly puked speaking of it.
I love you Mon Amour, you're everything I could ask for.
You make me sore for your love, I can't sugarcoat it either.

Have you ever thought that  you would need me ?
You have been  not just for the company,
But for the decency to call me your accessory
You need someone to have a shoulder to cry on
Oor just needed someone to be little to a lower degree
Later they became a **** to ride on
I love your presence when you make me feel pleasure
Especially when we make love to a greater measure.
On the other hand you hid away your emotions
Folded away away and written away angrily.
I expected we found it
You said "I know what you're about."
depending on whether I should be Sappy or proud
Turned the page remained,  you're just a Dope ***.
No way in this world is that true,
I felt my self turn unglued

What do you do when the kid wont put his hands up?
After robbing liquor store with some friends, quantity of four.
The police gunned them down,
hesitation, dropped them to the floor.
Parents were notified, so they
So they were aware of the crimes.
Crimes that were committed,
was learned from the peers they surrendered with.
Became the center of media,
hugs from those trying to sweeten it all with stevia.
The town surrounds the family,
knowing they'll be at the same ****.
Everyone paired, slightly scared.
The truth is they never payed no 'ttention or cared.
Your closest friend will push you under a bus,
through thick and thin there was trust.
Soon you'll get under through it all.
   Acting out.
Getting laid and Breaking the Law.
Beginning the new ways of how that life works.
I heard they tend to use spoons,
   instead of forks.
Addicts push away the plates,
  they hate pork.
Ignore what your mom says, cork
What'll you say when she's gone
When your outside mowing the lawn

Sitting in the dark, alone in my room
Demons behind me keeping me warm.
Depressed as I am, keeps me distracted,
reminding me of the last I reacted
As I write this, they are acknowledge,
they have answers to all my questions.
One day its god, next its the devil
possible one day i'll meet a angel.
I used to say, i guess i still do
satan will say hi and ill pay his revenue
Maybe i love him, maybe im addicted
always revealed himself when I was in the system.
Its hard to cope, difficult to sleep
especially always high on the tweak
all i can think of, when i lay down
"You can be my queen and wear my crown"
there when you were, there when you weren't
my room is a constant energy current
i knew it got bad, when you were all i think about,
wake up from a bad dream not able to shout.
caught myself, giving into your spell
when you spoke to me on my cell
crazy as i was, was i as crazy?
The thought of you touching my body.
You scared me away, whispered in my ear
"I am here"
afraid that you spoke, when you crepped up
finally realized i was ******* stuck
displaying my heart, with my drawings
ran out of my room you had me crying....
i attract the men, all of the spirits
none of them could ever have my soul ticket
you took control, five days awake,
i was just unintentionally told to obey
I'm the victim, you're the criminal,
i was the one you got too physical,
sleepin', and beaten while i'm dead,
everything you've done has been left unsaid.
eyes would open, to the pressure on my chest
In my own home, I felt like the guest.
I allowed you, took up all the time
maybe you we were something in my past life.
I never chose life, I always chose drugs
always washing blood off in the tub.
you tormented, mentally scared and abused
the morning after every night, always bruised.
getting the chills, writing this poem,
i look over and there you were standing at my open door.

Highway chasin', lotto cashin
Stashin' out the vehicles to the homies
Girl cheating but I still answer the call
I can block her but she can't stand me
I just relapsed, coincidentally my phone tapped.
Take a seat on his lap, making him proud; clap clap
Paper chasin', police statin',
Mom fainting in the living room
we fight, awake she says im loved
She the key to m heart
When the Glass Shatters, It never Matters
'Cept when you need a fix tomorrow
Looking through the blinds of homes,
forgetting the items you 'tole.
Story be told, I'm made of gold.
Uncut, Original
Lucky, Nonfictional
We busted from the frictions
No rubbers, but I stutter when I lie