It's a shame you don't feel the same.
That's all I have to say.


-- Eleanor

Maybe she was looking for somebody to warm
her up all the time and God, when it got
too dark outdoors you cried kerosene and set
fire to yourself just to provide her safety and security.
And maybe it's true that everything
comes in a paradoxical form and that's
why even though you were born from
a warm womb, your soul was so icy cold
she burnt her fingertips just touching it
and probably mistook it for the heat she
had always been longing for. I know that it's ironic,
I know that your dreams lay somewhere
beside her perfect body and shiny hair
but your reality is four suicide
attempts and cutting your wrists open
over some permanent tattoo where
her love was supposed to be skinned.


-- Eleanor

People fall in love
To feel alive.

But you,
You were my early death.


-- Eleanor

Wherever I walk
always there is an absence
walking beside me..

A girl sat in class
and took notes automatically/mechanically
while her imagination travelled
to a remote chalet where a dog
lived alone.
It didn't have a name or parent
and no one judged it.
It didn't even question its freedom.

Anyway, the girl went back home
and did her homework.
She was locked inside a cage
with a lot of other people who wouldn't notice.

The girl grows older and dies.
I hope she's finally free.


-- Eleanor

Losing lovers,
Losing friends,
Losing everything I am.

How do I exist independently?


F.Z.**N

'Cause if you love someone
You love everything about them.


F.Z.**N

Why is it
That the biggest hearts
Are emptied the fastest?

And the brightest souls
Are blackened
The quickest?

There was a certain depth
To my love for you,
And an artificiality
To everything else.


F.Z.**N