I chose you
I had a few choices
But I chose you
I could have chose one of the others
But I chose you
I didn't need you
I wanted you
You hurt me
You have taken me for granted
I've been broken enough
I don't put up with it
I should be treated as a priceless artifact
Not avoided and overlooked
If I'm not what you want then tell me
That way we can both move on
Don't play games
My heart doesn't deserve that
I put my all into us
You decided I wasn't worth yours
I fell back into my old pain relieving habit
But those crimson pearls ease my pain.

Shut the door behind you
Lock it twice just in case
Pull out the futon mattress
Let your hands find their place
Stare at my green passion
Slide your hands up my thighs
Smile as your mouth finds mine
Flick your hair out of your eyes
Press your lips against my own
Tangle your tongue with my breathe
Take your time with me tonight
Enjoy it like you invite death

From Her
By Mauve Marini
I
I used to sit alone in a corner
Thinking things I don’t think anyone would waste time to wonder
Weird as what some people say I was
Half true, believe me, I must

II
I’m a girl you might not want to be with
A girl who chooses to be alone and quiet
Plain and simple
Stuck in this world like needle in a thimble

III
Emotionless face that I have
Best actresses in the movies wish I was one
So the pains and sorrows could be visible
That in my eyes people need not to look deeper

IV
Here comes a ****** dressed in a neat school uniform
He said he knows me quite very well
He sees my agony that’s hiding behind me
My broken heart, he said he can fix it

V
Creepy mind reader he was
Secrets I keep reached his mind in a blast
Who told him I cried over someone?
Oh, it’s me, yes I remembered once

VI
You know what, you should’ve had come a little earlier
So that you could’ve saved me from that night
Where I was drowned in an ocean of lost thoughts
But thank you for bringing back my heart I once lost

VII
I’m not much of a talker yes I know
Nor a Shakespeare in a corner
I could write just right enough
But not as great as what you have thought

VIII
Time doesn’t really stop
It’s the feelings which make everything in a hiatus
Moments that we’re together
Will be kept like a treasure

IX
It’s for years I play hide and seek from love
With the pain I carry which stuck me inside
You must be the ****** my heart was waiting
Carrying the love I was looking

X
You’re the zephyr echoing in my head yesterday
Now a voice singing ever so calmly today
The faceless lover who appears in my dreams every night
Now finally I caught a sight

XI
Denial stage I was before
Now contradicting it no more
Yes, I’m into you
I want to be stuck in forever with you

XII
Love is meaningless
Until someone would come to give its meaning
Love is inevitably twined with pain
Just keep holding on

XIII
It’s you who I wanted
To wait for me while having the best walk of my life
It’s you that I wanted in my life
I love you no matter what

XIV
I don’t trust words
Nor fond of promises
But for you I’m willing to take the risk
No matter what and how it takes

XV
I am no beauty, rich nor smart
But all I can offer is my wonderful heart
The sweeter you’ll treat this
The longer you’ll keep this

XVI
Swear I won’t deny it
Love and pain,
I’m gonna embrace it
Just hold on to it, I won’t let go nor slipped

To send you love is to hope that the praying and the thinking and the fantasizing and the scheming and the wishing upon wish will finally end with a gesture from you.

To send you off is to say goodbye to the kisses and whispers and glances and laughter and crooked smiles that somehow seem to hurt worse than they heal.

To send for help is to cry out after all of the fake smiles and the pretend listening and the day to day charade and the useless chit chat that covers up all the emotions that are too intense to talk about over brunch.

To send assistance is to pick you up and carry you through the fighting and punching and sobbing and confusion even though I have no idea where I’m going either.

To send a signal is to let someone else know there’s another lonely person out there.

The smallest things
Make the biggest differences

Trying to survive this life through the struggles and the pain is like climbing a mountain during a rock slide. With darkness down below.
Dodging and ducking,  can't look up, and won't look down .
One wrong step will send you plunging straight back to the ground.
Exhaustion overcomes your body as you prepare  to quit.
Just about the time you start to let go of the side of that mountain a harsh sense of reality of what waits below hits,
If you give up now and fall to your death, the devil will have defeated you, it is then you  surrender  your soul.
The fall will be at the least of your worries it's what waits for you at the landing,  the devil with his arms wide open waiting for your defeat, standing amongst his evil beings in his kingdom of souls now forgotten, i have heard it called The devil's playground. Filled with evil engulfed in flames of fire, The choice is yours to surrender your soul to the devil or Reach out for  God,  as He will help you climb, Standing at the top of that mountain with his arms open wide. Your faith has brought you to a safe haven as there's nowhere else I would rather be than in the arms of God,  these struggles will soon be over my child, as tomorrow will be a new day, hold strong to your faith and just as I've promised you ,  this too shall pass.