I have never liked the term

      "sloppy seconds"
                  
                  I believe that we renew ourselves with each love

Getting inked soon
To remember you.
A stain on my skin
Because the one on my heart
Was wiped clean
When you left.

Narcolepsy* hard and heavy watch me fall asleep
            Lulled to bed in a cunning thread of the tangled web we weave
    I dream in pristine colors, windows of my mind anew
No fingerprints or ***** looks or evidence of you

         I find comfort in forever wherever it may be
        I may have left my home but it will always stay with me
                 The smell of all the smoke with the sound of all the rain
   On constant playback every second deep within my brain

        I found that time is all that matters and everything else faded
        I spent years and years learning how to forget everything I hated
    I've only gotten older and have nothing left to show
              Except a ringing alarm clock and blood on my pillow

     Narcolepsy** hard and heavy watch me as I sleep
     Another pill, another high, another date to keep
      If I shall die before I wake, I hope that I'm with you
    Then it won't matter where I go, cause you will see me through

I want to tell him
that I’m scared,
that I’ve been here before.
And that the last time I felt potential like this it imploded;
I imploded.
But I don’t want to taint it,
You see I’m still hopeful
That maybe this time
Won’t end up laced with maybes,
Or what ifs,
Or open wounds pouring blood onto paper.
That maybe this time,
just won’t end.

I’ve not quite worked out whether I think it’s beautiful,
Or stupid -
The human capacity,
And pliancy,
And longing,
For love.

Stubbed toe
But you have your foot
Too busy to eat lunch
But fridge full of food
Stuck in traffic
But you own a car
Tired from no sleep
But you have a bed
Take a moment to see
All you have in this life
Give to those to don't ask
Love yourself and those around

Constantly in pursuit,
Evil at it's root,
Others follow suit,
Because E Pluribus Unum

Blinded by the signs,
Polluted in their minds,
Stacked up in their binds
To gloat for what they've done.

The chase for evermore,
Terrified of being poor,
Striving for the highest score,
Without having any fun.

Consumed by absolute greed,
Green is the color they bleed,
It's all they want, crave, and need.
In their death, it's the smoking gun...

Nightmares creeping in my head
Revealing memories of the past
And all I see is your snarling lips
Your slimy hands on my body and hips
You say "I love you"
But this was not love
All you did was take and take
Until you shattered my soul
Like the drop of a glass on a hard floor
Love does not bestow misery
And threats with dark marks
Love..wouldn't have taken the
Unborn life I could've had
Nightmares creeping in
And there's nothing I can do
Nothing stops them
Nothing stopped you