I've cracked codes
Upon many men
But yours was the hardest riddle
Probably an unsolvable riddle
You wouldn't let me into your heart
You were a locked door
I had to give up on you
You gave me sorrow
But then again
Sometimes
Love will bring you pain

You came crashing at me
  the first time I saw you.
You were so perfect
  I didn't know what to do.
My life was ever so poor
  I'll never catch up to you.
Cause loving you felt like
  I was being sent off to the moon.
You were too fragile to be mine,
  too expensive.
But you came to be free to me
  I called it a miracle.
Before you,
The universe was so boring
  but you then said it was just my imagination.
  For the universe is everything but boring
  because exciting fate exists in that universe
  and that's what brought me to you.

What if devil is a fallen angel?
And I was an angel in the past
One with the widest of the whitest wings
Before you've shown your face to me
You were my temptation
I fell under your spell
You've brought me to sin
Something that never felt so good
But never was right
I'll never reach back the gates of heaven
And be forever trapped in this eternal pit
Of your selfish doom

You call it weird
I call it normal
What do you even think about
When you see these things
Do you even bother
To mind my hurt
For the things you call weird
Are the most adorable in this world

Who are you to tell me I'm no good?
***** you
And your classy ways
I'd rather be a pig
Than a trained dog
Be myself
And just let life
Take me far away in this universe of gray

You watch a lot of people on TV
Then judge them on their acting
Some really deserve praising
While some I question how they even became actors
They're so stiff
Their expressions so still
Their voices so monotone
I really question their job
I sometimes think I could do better
But who would agree to that
When I feel embarassed trying to be someone else

I was a cold person
Never bothering anyone
I took everything solemnly
Not letting anything out of order
Everything had to be perfect
Then you came to my life
Told me to get out of my shell
You had to force me to get out
You showed me new things
And took me to great adventures
You showed me not everything has to be perfect
And sometimes
  things should be messy

In a good way.