The stars above gave a twinkly show
on that night my heart found you
pointing the way, my heart should go
to find a love so rare and true.

The passing clouds changed their play
allowing the stars dance to show,
calling out, to the moon to come
and shine his beautiful glow.

Seeing the love, the moon joined in
sending beams of silvery light,
guiding your heart, straight to mine
on that warm summers night.

All the magic, within the night air
created a beautiful loving song,
one that will play, forevermore
until all time and space is gone.*
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Your smile struck my heart like lightning.
Your eyes that shines like the moon in my darkest nights.
Your voice that makes my heart skips a beat.

You're like a flower that blooms graciously even its fall or winter.
I've fallen for you so deeply that I couldn't help myself not to think about you restlessly.

I fancy you. But all I can do is to stare at you.

Small bumps on the road,
the orange light from the street lamps glow
like a midnight sun
and I fell in love with the girl beside me,
sleepy and lovely
with a scar underneath her chin -
a childhood souvenir because
she could never stay still;
her hair free and wild
like her.

And I'm looking at her,
feeling the cold wind on my face
though I've never felt this warm.

Stupid and spirited,
I know I will give her name as the answer
when years from now a child asks me
about my youth.

Old man Bukowski said:
The flesh covers the bones
and they put a mind in there
and sometimes a soul..
I believe God
poured and poured
all the glorious things on her
and gave her a hand-made heart of gold.

And maybe this isn't going to end well
and well, all of this is forbidden,
like the apple
but still sweet
so never mind the toothache
or the possible heartbreak.

Like a gunshot in the temple.
I wish.

A spike
It's like a large spike
Ripping through my brain tissue.
It slowly twists farther.
And farther.
And farther.
Unending excruciating pain.
As it twists
More spikes sprout and stretch.
They stretch farther and farther
As the spike continues to drill
In my head.
It goes on for hours.

My vision slowly begins to blur
And darken.
My body begins to shake.
My bones creak.
My legs give out.
My eyes close.
I don't remember anything else...

Feeling something that was once happiness
is now nothing but a memory.
Wretched with grief and anxiety,
Pain in my chest swallows me whole.

Caverns of black and purple,
my heart lies deep within
expelling inks in tones of red,
yet my body feels no lighter still.

I close my eyes, there's darkness there.
But there's darkness everywhere.

Water pours over head,
steam fills up the room.
Crossed legs upon the floor,
tears fall down my face.
difference to water is between my sobs,
the salt lays thick on my tongue.

Fatigued in life, not just my breath
each day begins to drag.
Challenge myself to leave it still,
because harming helps no one.

I cannot hold you here.

I cannot hold you here
in this cage that I built around myself.

I cannot trap you in here with me.

This is my prison,
This is my torture chamber,
I cannot hold you here against your will,
I cannot keep inflicting pain on you like this.

I keep dragging you in,
locking the door,

"Stay with me, love,"

No.

I cannot keep doing this.

If I truly love you,
I need to learn to break out of this cage,
instead of locking you in with me.

I need to let you live your own life,
and stop trapping you in mine.

If I truly love you,
I must set us both free.