i heard what you told me
but i saw your eyes...
then i read what you wrote
and now i wish mine were blind.

maybe one day i'll live among the stars
but for now i'll lay awake thinking...

of a place full of bliss
and free of pain
where my heart was never broken
and my body never beaten.

i was meant to live along the sea
but for now it'll consume my dreams...

of a place where the ocean is clear
and the waves are my lullaby
where the sun shines bright
and my smile never dulls.

one day i'll live among the stars,
until then your eyes will have to do.

you're leaving and i don't know how to feel,
is it selfish for me to think of all i'll gain when you're gone?
or is it my way of trying to be okay with it all.

you're leaving and it *****,
i don't know a world without you in it
and i don't know if i ever want to.

you're leaving and i can't say goodbye,
the words won't seem to leave my lips
like if i just hold them in you won't go

you're leaving and i hope you find peace,
for cancer's a ***** and you've been so strong
but i can't wait for you to find rest.

i've been running for months now
searching for what has been missing,
trying to find my way
to a home that does not exist.

i've been crying for months now
searching for another soul,
one as lonely as i
that can understand my pain

i've been scavenging for months now
searching for a way to survive,
selling the old me
in hopes that the new one will thrive

i've been loving you for months now
not that you'll probably ever know,
for your eyes draw me in
and your lips awaken my soul.