Nica Monet

Nica Monet Mar 2018

I am the moon one side’s shown, the other hidden
I am the stars, scattered decisions with a vision
I am a rollercoaster, unexpectedly spontaneous
I am the rain I fall, hard unconscious
I am the storm, I come back strong and ambitious
I am the sweet song of acoustic, a spectrum of quality
I am the sweet love song, cliche with a personality
I am the sea calm never steady
I am a hummingbird flying here to there
I am the trees that sway, I am a leaf in the air
Yet I am a wolf leader of its pack, never rests
I am the train that leaves and comes back
I am the dedicated worker, never stop till a heart attack
I am a child who passionately believe
I am an old soul, authenticated and wise
I am your hair, unique and stubborn
I am a judge willing to listen and compromise
I am a trampoline once you fall, I bounce you back up
I am a slime molded into anything, still the same
I am a human being, complex and alive
I am a living thing, I break, I live, I matter, I thrive

This poem has many metaphors and each one describes me as a person:)

#human #alive #myself #love #diversity #unique #nature #teen #romanticism #complex

Nica Monet Sep 2017

im stuck; feelings feelings

feelings, they still linger
i can hug her, hold her, or come over
and you, b... you living so far away
it's a way i fed my hunger.

then, i had no clue but now i knew
maybe i fell in love with her because
she reminded me so much of you

in littlest ways i could notice
it's such a mess but i think I'm being honest.
the time she left, you caught me
but i was too caught up in the moment i didn't noticed.
...i missed you
and she was the closest thing to you
that i ever knew

now that you told me that you missed me too
that i've been in your mind nonstop, is that true?
because now i just don't know what to do.

Feelings they still linger
You miss me, i miss you, i miss us
but what can we do, you're living far away.
if only you could be here in a snap of a finger
my feelings for you came rushing in
they never left, they still linger.

to my first.

#feelings #emotions #first #missingyou #love #stuck #messy #her

Nica Monet Sep 2017

lover as known

You carry love deep within your soul
you carry your heart,
still healthy and whole.
and even in those times your hurt,
emotionally numb with no control
A natural gift of love, you still give to all.

In a person's book
you'll be in more than just a chapter
you're one of the main characters,
always known as a lover
such joy that they'll always remember
accompanied by your contagious love and laughter.

the lovers, the dreamers, and me. 9/18/17 12:10 am

#lover #love #heart #soft #nature #life #laughter #myself #dreamers #gift

Nica Monet Sep 2017

internal confliction

Wish i could find the words without saying another bad word
to explain all the voices that my soul and brain have heard
some are a lie that caused me to cry
dealing with my problems, oh i sigh.
Built my walls too high, for no one can enter
that even i can’t reach in and fly in my main center
dealing with my demons, either if i am awake or dreamin’
i shouldn’t have believe them for they were very deceivin’
people think i’m flying through my life without feeling dying
they were all wrong for i have been trying

i see mirror here, mirror there, which one can i look at and stare
they’ve been my enemy lately, that i can’t love myself completely
i look at her, and it’s such a blur
i know it’s just a reflection but my mind sees all imperfection. compliments of perfection doesn’t help me find my direction.

in my eyes i see my true complexion
but i choose to believe my beauty is base on perception.
i still have to learn that i am worth
every living cell on this earth
that outside appearance doesn’t matter
but what’s inside is so much better.

nov. 29, 2016; something i wrote last year:) and i would like to share

#selfrealization #society #problems #appearance #beauty #battle #internal #selflove #deceiving #demons

Nica Monet Sep 2017

i still do

if only you knew
that i love you dearly and true
since then till now, i say
i still do.
it pains me seeing you go
a several days without
saying hello

so i whispered in your ear,
"i missed you"

now yo u know
that i still think of you
but i gotta let you go,
my princess.
my rose

my tender sweet green eyed beauty
she's one hell of a cutie.
-n

i'm glad we're still friends.

#imissher

Nica Monet Sep 2017

how blind was i

the first time i saw you.
my eyes, i couldn't believe em
i had no words and like cards i can't find them
you're the only one in my thoughts, you'd be
occupying my brain, my heart,
what are you doin?
but you don't see what's happening?

You were changing me into something different. To become someone else rather than myself
and in the end,
was i the only one sufferin?

It's not your fault, none of it was.
It's how i let myself get lost in you, how i based my whole world
around you.
But now i realized who i am,
boy, i'm not where i should be.
so i kept telling myself maybe it happens for a reason
or maybe it's just not the right time for you and me.

this was something i wrote back in 2015; so it's not about anyone.
Also this was my entry poem (revised)

#blind #love #breakup #attachment #lost

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