He was my happiness also my pain,
He was the hell in my heaven,
He was the demon in my sanity,
But I'd lie if I'll tell you I didn't like it.

He was the nightmare I want to have every night.
He was the darkness I will always choose over the light.
He was the devil I want to hug so tight.
Loving him was wrong? No, it feels so right.

Last night got no sleep
Just rolling in my sheets
The mind is shouting
And heart is pounding
In my dreams you're always there
But why with that other girl
Scared of sleeping
As well as waking
Oh what will I do?
If in sleeping and waking
Scenario is just the same.

I always felt
that I was not
capable of being
wanted.
I didn't believe
that I was enough
for anyone.
I have always felt
worthless, rejected,
and that I couldn't
be loved.

Worse than a nightmare;
Worse than death;
It is being alive with so much pain inside.

believed that she was rare
only to realize
she's one of a kind