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Mark Lecuona Aug 2017
Was your child born to hate mine?
We keep living in the past
Why plant it in a new garden
Will it be the same as the last?

Our mistakes must be paid
We have given them the bill
But let their hearts be debt-free
Because hatred can only ****

Don't run away from me
Don't assume I am the same
I want to know your heart
Will you only point at me in blame?

If you must tell me so
Then I will turn the other cheek
I am only human my friend
I am not the perfection you seek
Mark Lecuona Oct 2017
The ocean deep is a quieter place to die
Or next to the stars in the sky
White sands and telescopes say leave us be
Our troubles now so far away
We want more time to love
But now it’s gone

Maybe along side a highway I drove everyday
Cars driving by not knowing what to say
Listening to songs that remind
Of a girl like you
I’ll take your memory with me
It’s how I will stay strong

People are going to keep talking, life goes on
Still I’m surrounded by inspiration
Every ghost, a story to tell
We will share waiting our turn
And when he looks my way
I will admit I did you wrong

Somebody said we weren’t right for each other
Why waste time on one another
But I thought if it didn’t matter
I should wait anyway
And while my love only grew
Still I didn’t know how to belong

But I never did die, the way I walk tells me so
Waves, cars and stars, what do they know?
They will never change like I can
It’s not a funeral but a wedding
The sounds you hear now
Are someone else’s song
Mark Lecuona Oct 2016
It always happens that way but I don’t know why
I try to understand but my past gets in the way
Then one day I don’t think about it even if I notice
I wonder why it took so long to want you to stay

I always find myself but it takes too much time
I don’t have an opinion now until the sun goes down
I finally realized you were just trying to be yourself
You don’t hide from anyone and do it without a sound

I’m trying to catch up
Even though I started before you
Watching you invent a new world
Makes me want to live in it too

I decided dreaming wasn’t real anymore
I don’t want to sleep hoping to get to know you
I’ll just think it through without asking what for

How much older must I be
Before I catch up with you?
Watching you ignore the world
Makes me want to ignore it too

I’m going to take my time now and again
If the clouds are out then it was meant to be
I’m not sure what I’m saving my smile for
Nothing old is new and being new is me

I’m trying to catch up
Even though I started before you
Watching you invent a new world
Makes me want to live in it too
song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Nov 2017
in the dark
a life of its own
is there a way to see you
it’s alright
it’s your own mystery
and you know why

the soft spot in my heart for you
is anywhere you decide to look
you watch me
in the middle of a song
or what the passion I live for
you know it could be about you
but you have be shared
the life I discover
is too narrow a hole to crawl

i can’t seem to decide
the monsters are so familiar
i understand them now
they can’t help themselves
so i ask a simple question
is love worth being eaten alive?
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
I don’t want to live a life about loss
I know what happened to me
But that is something that’ll never be me

I don’t want to be known by my past
I’m not escaping from shame
It’s just my turn to decide what I believe

Tell me why I should live a certain way
Life will never be like it was before
I am tired of thinking about why
Still I wonder what you think
But it’s time for that no more

I just can’t pretend I’m something else
It was you who made me understand
You took so much there's nothing left for me

It’s a new day
A new day and a new way
What’s happened has come and gone
It’s time to find a new light to follow
Away from the things only darkness would say

I finally washed my heart with new blood
Still I feel the sadness of survival
But what time takes tomorrow must never grieve

Tell me why I should live a certain way
Life will never be like it was before
I am tired of thinking about why
Still I wonder what you think
But it’s time for that no more
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Jun 2017
It was so easy
To make a man love her
Or to think she loved him
They could meet on Tuesday
She would then pick the day
At least until the weekend
He would be thinking of flowers by then
And breakfast
It wasn't ******
Being lonely wasn't her idea
Besides men don't ask questions too soon
That was good
She had nothing to say like that
It was better to seem simple minded
It made him feel secure
While she grew apart from him before church
Guilt made it seem as if she tried
Even though she knew it was a lie
She wasn't in charge of civilization anyway
Only the condition of her heart
She thought of her new name for next week
Bronte
Yes that would make him write poetry
What else can a man do with a name like that?
Mark Lecuona Apr 2017
I have not faced the hardships of life
Not starvation or the humiliation of my soul
Only the war of my idealistic love of self
What a disease could not destroy
Was stubborn pride only a candle could tame
As I became a believer in my special place
Where an angel would always remember me
Not as my lover but as my voice in God's ear
But the silence of my pride feels like surrender
And what faith in my angel once was became
The delusion that I was God's favorite son
I felt all the air in between the words I spoke
Like a lone cloud mingling with a blue sky
An univited stranger pointing at his watch
I turned to my angel but I only saw faded ink
It said time ends when you know you are alone
Mark Lecuona Mar 2016
I don't want anyone reading this to develop an assumption about me but I admire the man you know? So I conducted an "interview" to see if I get it.....  Actually the person conducting the interview is not what I would necessarily ask or how I would behave. Instead it is an imaginary person who at times asks questions that reveal his own biases and brainwashed mind.

Jesus, why do I carry a hammer and a nail?
     It is easier to judge than to forgive
Jesus, why do I need you to speak for me?
     My father wants you to live
Jesus, why can I not turn the other cheek?
     You only know how to cause pain
Jesus, how should I live my life?
     Providing shelter to the poor is your aim
Jesus, should I become a rich man?
     Whose life do you wish to mimic?
Jesus, am I bound by the old law?
     The laws are the notes; listen to the music
Jesus, why did you have to die on the cross?
     To demonstrate the cruelty in the world
Jesus, why didn't you save yourself?
     So my father's glory would be unfurled
Jesus, why were you not covered in gold?
     Earthly riches separate mankind from one another
Jesus, why did you accept a sinner?
     Have you ever met anything other?
Jesus, why did you stop the stoning?
     To bring your sin into view
Jesus, why did you tell her to sin no more?
     She is no different than you
Jesus, should we punish others for their sins?
     Why does this concern you so?
Jesus, there are so many bad people
     Your own heart is all you really know
Jesus, shouldn't we fight evil?
     Who made them that way?
Jesus, God has blessed our country!
     There are no borders that keep God away
Jesus, we have to **** the enemy
     Blessed are the peacemakers
Jesus, they want to **** us!
     Are you the money changers?
Jesus, how can a country be moral?
     It all starts with you
Jesus, I'm just one person
     There are others waiting too
Jesus, I'm a good person
     Why do you scorn the poor?
Jesus, I work hard for my money
     But what's important, you ignore
Jesus, what's important?
     Loving thy neighbor
Jesus, I do love my neighbor!
     And yet there are so many you abhor
Jesus, I could never be like you
     All I ask is that you try
Jesus, I can't earn my way to heaven
     You must ask or you will die
Jesus, why must I ask?
     Because you have free will
Jesus, give me a sign
     I want to see if you are faithful
Jesus, why do I have to be faithful?
     Because you will not believe your own eyes
Jesus, I promise this time I will
     Mankind only believes the lies
Jesus, why does God love me?
     Do you love your own child?
Jesus, why doesn't he just accept me?
     He does even if you are reviled
Jesus, why does he want my love?
     He is made in your image
Jesus, what does that mean?
     Inside your emotions lives the message
Jesus, isn't life just about science?
     Can you measure love?
Jesus, I only believe what is proven
     Noah only needed a dove
Jesus, everyone thinks you are a myth
     What does your heart say?
Jesus, I am ashamed to bear your name
     Then why do you not turn away?
Jesus, if I believe will there still be pain?
     You were born in pain along with grace
Jesus, did I lose God's grace?
     Your pure heart God did not erase
Jesus, why do I feel so unworthy?
     Because you are finally humbled
Jesus, what is left of me?
     Out of stone love was chiseled
Jesus, I want to go to heaven!
     All who thirst for God will be welcome
Jesus, take me with you!
     *I will lead you to God's kingdom
Mark Lecuona Mar 2016
Every day we don’t speak
Every day you make me think
Another day disappears in the past
What was good
Is what you’re trying to ****

Every day I think the worst
Every day I think I had you first
Another day no longer lasts
What was good
Is no longer your will

It’s a wall that I started
But you finished it so well
I thought I heard a drum
But it was only silence that fell

There’s nothing we didn’t say
Nothing we didn’t feel
Now I feel nothing from you
Only a dream that once was real

Your heart  beats easy no matter what
You accept life as it comes
But I can’t believe how being so far away
Makes me feel life more than when you were near

It’s a wall that I started
But you left it for me to climb
I touched each side asking for mercy
All I see are voices you painted on my mind
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
What can a reflection be to itself
Or a falling leaf apart from its mother?
She did not know the answer
She could only scratch her heart until it bled
Like eyes watching lovers that fall but never set

Pilings choking under rising tides
But not high enough to relieve their burden
A wax candle waiting for the torture of the flame
She could only watch knowing its life was short
Soon to join the memories she could never forget

By her rosary she knew somewhere was a blessing
By her cross she knew she was still saved
The stars that had chosen those who would look
Lit the path as she returned to the night sky
As her heart asked if life was only about regret
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
There is no need to apologize beautiful friend
It’s not for me to judge where you’ve been
I know about the pain that you carry
But why can you not see what we can bury?

You don’t have to tell me your story
It doesn’t matter if it was about loss or glory
I just want to see what time will tell
Will it be about how we climbed or how we fell?

I can see that your heart has been broken
Your eyes are louder than words that are spoken
Now you only think about healing
And living a life without mistakes or feeling

I want to touch your cheek with my breath
So you will think about life and not death
But what is a soft touch from another man
If his heart is not there to hold her hand

The time has passed for a promise
All we can do is try to be honest
We both know about the end of the night
And how sometimes wrong can feel right

All we are is the wind crossing the land
And to go it alone is not always to understand
If it’s me you see planting seeds where you might live
Then don’t be afraid to try one more time to forgive
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
I built this road with the wrong sidewalk
The man who walked on it told me so
He said he couldn’t hear the smooth sounds
Only the bitter tones where bad dreams go

He felt justice all the way to the marrow
Seeing the man made me think about it more
I try to stay out of everybody’s business
But I’m saying the next road won’t be like before

I paved my own road
All I did was lose my way
He knew it when he saw it
But I didn’t know what he was trying to say

I could scatter the rocks side to side this time
And make it a little wider for everyone to see
Nothing to divide with only street lights to share
We can be together singing songs about being free

I wondered what’s wrong with acting like that
I didn’t think too much about if it could be true
I just wanted to believe in something greater
But the man said I should sing them for you

I paved another road
This time I found my way
I saw her standing close to me
I turned to thank him but he said some other day
Mark Lecuona Sep 2017
There’s no tracks for me to cross in my neighborhood
So I don’t know which side I’m on
There’s no land for me to plant any seeds upon
I don’t know if I’m a duck or a swan
But I know I’m welcome on any backwoods pond

I could sing about things I never understood
And I could say if I believe it then it must be true
It takes too long for the past to make itself known to you
It’s easier to recite the things I already knew
Maybe something I heard sitting in a wooden pew

I’m the father because he was born next to where I stood
I didn’t say anything because the bus already ran
On the road upon which try to cross but never can
We’re turtles walking slow without a plan
Nobody knows anything so our shell became the holy land

The last time I crossed my heart my promise was good
I wanted say oh baby and let it last long in your ear
But you were interested in flags that you held dear
I agreed but then it’s not always so clear
We had no complaints but then we never did live in fear
Mark Lecuona Sep 2016
Did you honor his death by saying what was given
to his mother is no longer your burden?
The reason he died was not your purpose; it was
not for you and of that you are certain
But was he not someone who set you free by dying
for the idea that you now assert?
He never knew your anger, only that he received
a bullet and his ideals are covered by dirt
You are free to sit while a nation tries to believe in
something, knowing that he did die
Is it because only a certain race can rule the world
or is the harbor torch the reason why?
Reading the entire alphabet forwards and backwards
does not reveal the truth of every tome
Crying every time my grown son leaves does not
mean that I do not have a life of my own
To believe what we know to be true about the past
need not seed tomorrow's foment
And to encourage revolt by those who foster hatred
is only the path of future torment
It is not the destruction of the union that will unite us;
only the bonds of love for what is written
The words of freedom contain no ambiguity but the fire
of hate makes only ash if we don’t listen
It is not the strong to whom we always owe our thanks;
it is the least of us for whom we wish to weep
You say you will no longer salute our symbol of hope,  
but do you pray for his soul to keep?
To those who would read the words and wave the flag is
not a gun pointed at the poor among us
Instead it would be they who would remind that a song
is the moment equality becomes our purpose
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
The dead have been spoken for
But who will remember?
The living must speak for themselves
Will it be violent or tender?

The unborn risk their lives by our choice
In silence they wait
While our minds, a legacy of failure
Play God with their fate

What would make me finally act my age
When youth smiles not upon the wise
Is it to speak to young women without remorse
Or become the stranger who empathized

The shallow lightening flash of narcissism
Strikes close to our children
Which images will they choose for their life
Pleasure or to fight explosions inside the gates of heaven?
This is not about abortion
Mark Lecuona Nov 2014
She tried to deafen love's call
covering her ears to old words,
unable to stop their torment;
but she was an unknowing shell
cast upon his shores and the
changing sounds of what she was
hearing and where she had come
from would not be revealed until she
realized the echos of the ocean that
swept her to him now whispered a
destiny that came from within her soul
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
When you can no longer live in your natural state
As the desert once it has felt the rain
You begin to curse who you are
For dry air and sparseness offer no relief
And while the heat recites a story of certain death
The sand and cactus, as the heart and mind
Parch and wither, forlorn, waiting for its mate
But she no longer believes in possibility
Or you
For as she rained down upon you
You made no pools for her to gather
No rivers for her to roam
Instead she was only to vanish
And die
As you do now
Until the rain answers your prayers
To try again
To effect your very nature
As an oasis would
Where those who live hard lives go
For life
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
I have a headache
And I'm tired
Once I was young
But now I'm unwired

Anymore
Meaning I not

I can accept the truth
Even if it hurts
Maybe that's why I'm tired
But lying makes it worse

Anymore
Meaning it does

You don't mind saying it
It's easy for you  
I have to accept your life
You told me what was true

Anymore
Meaning you are

I took a walk
I could hear the traffic
But I was far away
The trees eased my panic

Anymore
Meaning I was

It's the change
When they don't tell you
You know where you stand
And they do too

Anymore
Meaning I know

Still, I can take it
I'm still the same
If it means to be a man
Then I can't complain

Anymore
Meaning I  won't
Mark Lecuona Aug 2016
He’s got half of what a man ought
Still he climbed up on that horse
Luckily it already knew what to do
Chase that calf no matter its course

He finally knew what they meant
When people look but cannot see
But he didn’t have to ride a horse
To find know who his friends might be

A one-eyed cowboy
Half himself
But now twice another
While faith flowed in his veins
It was grace that gave him back his reins

His wounds were unexpected
At least not while he was wearing his boots
What he thought God took away
Instead he used to lay down new roots

He found his calling was vision
How no man is an island
How it is not so hard if you choose to be
Someone who can live a new life
By the light that despair finally set free

A one-eyed cowboy
Half himself
But now twice another
While faith flowed in his veins
It was grace that gave him back his reins
Written for a friend of mine struck down by a bad virus that gave him double-vision and severe fatigue; three months later he's back roping calves even though he has to wear an eye-patch.
Mark Lecuona Dec 2016
I know the color of your eyes
But I do not know them as I desire
I can hear them blinking in the dark
It is the sound only a blind man can hear
Or one who dreams while he is awake
For the soundness of my slumber is not true
Until I know the longing of your gaze upon me
And the sky at the bottom of your tears
While you exclaim to yourself is that all there is
A man who only thinks of his fulfillment
By a woman who life must be his fantasy
But sheath your sword my love
It is not expectation that you must serve
It is not disappointment that you must guard
It is only a meadow that sees the entire mountain
Or a seagull that sees the entire ocean
And to be all that I imagine is all I have
Draw me near and I will forget these things
But until you do I will console myself with a painting
The colors I choose are your arms
The brush that describes them is your heart
In my hands I can make the beat that pleases me
And until I know your eyes like you know mine
I can only stare and hope you know why I act this way
Mark Lecuona Jun 2015
It was one of those days
Like being all out of paper products
Or your last pair of dress socks
Only worse
Much worse
It’s not so much how much you love them
But the realization of how much they loved you
They planned for you
And thought of you
Before you were even born
And a day never passed
That they didn’t love you
Even when you let them down
And cursed their name
And counted the days until you could leave home
And then that day came
And you rejoiced
While all theycould do was cry
And now history has passed
Everything you have ever known
Or read about
Is a part of them
A world that collapsed
A world at war
Nations fighting over holy land
Because they couldn’t share God’s love
And the fight for a man to be treated like a man
And an eagle that landed
All of this happened
And the entire time they loved you
And while you knew they wanted something simple
Such as a phone call
Or even a thank you
You still held them at arm’s length
And now you want them in your arms
To tell them these things
But it’s too late
Too late because it is
A moment has passed
A lifetime has passed
And suddenly you know about life
And each day brings a reason for tears
Because your entire life is now day to day
Because it’s your turn to be the one who loves
And as the leaves turn brown
You look to your children
And hope that while they curse you
And long for freedom
That one day they will know this day
And realize what you meant to them
And what they meant to you
And in the dreams of the future
And remembrance of the past
Today shall mark time
And watch the sun set once again
As the chance to come together
As parent and child
Has lost another day
Mark Lecuona Aug 2017
eyes to the sky in wonder;
that which is without united us within,
if only for a moment to remember;
neither born of blessing or sin,
excepting the forbearance of our differences
by the flight of the shadowed fire fly;
and that it could be done in these troubled times,
no matter it’s haste in passing us by
Mark Lecuona Sep 2015
She wondered if she ever made him feel like that
The way he was lost in concentration
Feeling every moment as if it were his true love
And maybe it was
Because she also knew the feeling
And as she watched his face
She could see nothing else mattered at that moment
It was because he believed in what he held in his hands
It would do whatever he asked
It would feel whatever he felt
And when his life was lost because he forgot how to dream
It would send him into the night where he would remember
If she only knew
She was the reason he played
Mark Lecuona Jul 2015
There is no need for words if they can be drawn

Nothing to add

Red Indian sunsets
Green beautiful eyes
Blue oceans deep

Nothing to subtract

Cyan flickering flames
Yellow honey moons
Magenta universal harmony
Black sky framed stars

What is reflected into our eyes is every emotion we feel
And what we feel is not the same as what is written or heard
But what we see is the same as what we feel if we open our eyes
For a brush is the sunset that reveals the night sky without a word
Mark Lecuona Nov 2014
I'm making a pilgrimage
Not for your love
But for your life
I know you
Because I know me
We are the same
You want
You need
I want
I need
What is beautiful
What we feel
What we dream
No matter distance
No matter hope
No matter alone
I see in you
What I see in me
We are the same
Walking apart
Together in spirit
Never forget
Love is understanding
No matter what you say
No matter what you do
I will understand
No matter what
Mark Lecuona Jun 2016
I'm not giving it away
I mean it
You think this is an act?
Day after day
You know me now
It's blowing right through me
The hurricane inside my veins
You may think you are more than I can handle
But I don't recognize rocks or sand
The sun needs me to rise
It needs me to set
That's what you watch for
But I'm always there
There are no more questions
I'm always there
The chair that fell over
The light that won't turn green
The day that won't end
An argument
Ambiguity
Discomfort
These things matter
They do
You do
I do
I want to be everything
Because I see everything
Everything
Both sides
Right
Wrong
Wrong
Right
It's that way
They believe it
I feel it
I tell you now
You don't know them
Unless you give yourself up
Then you are free
Free to be crushed by their world
Crushed because you know now
They are human
They are JUST LIKE YOU
Do you know that?
Do you?
I wonder sometimes
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
Vomiting talk on love, greed and politics
Obsessing about pain, loneliness and metaphysics
The delusionist prophet in his unslumbering mind
Wandering over to you to let you in on a revelatory find
That you may or may not want but will come to know
While you raise the glass to your sweet red lips trying not to show
How bored yet fascinated you are with the next word or forty
Because it’s life before it happens or a coda to some other story
Told in a way that you cannot ignore because it’s the truth that blows
Flooded with the tears that you dried before they stained your pretty clothes
To mask the vacuousness of Saturday night boys who can only look
Acting **** sure in banter they memorized from a dead man's book
No more or less meaningful than anything I’ve ever said or could reveal
Of all things that I believe about life that I can no longer conceal
From my solitary existence where no man can stomach or stand
The constant state of thought rejecting out of hand
Trendy desperation of approval and shrewd thievery
Faith sales, unkindness and notorious celebrity
The things that make me sick with disgust over the human race
As I run through the cavities of another poet's dark place
I see men bragging and living on vicarious pleasure
Accepting ill-gotten gain for an earthly treasure
And emotionally immature desires fueling a mob’s fury
In reckless celebration causing injury
I see the down-hearted unable to find love
Because they are different or unattractive
I see two men born of the same mother
Begging on Christmas day leaning on one another
I see the bitterness I feel towards a woman
The one I thought was the only one
I laugh as I pass the things I once desired
And sneer at the people I once admired
I see adults talk while my child sings
And block my view to rearrange their things
I see a happy ******* her wedding day
But soon to be divorced with nothing to say
I see the only thing that makes people able to cope
Is to drink, smoke and **** while death tightens the rope
I see good people adopt a young boy
And then cancer robbing them of their joy
I see reality TV and a material girl become rich
Because of a *** tape and being a *****
I see a man go to war and learn about the horror
And then speak loudly with truth that causes furor
I see praying, evangelizing and moralizing
By men of sin taking advantage of true believing
I see selfish behavior in search of a feeling
Become useless activity devoid of meaning
But then I touch you and you turn to me
With the look of love that I want to see
And I wonder why I burden you
With the injuries my mind cannot subdue
I continue to kick the apple core in your garden
And curse the snake that made my mind harden
As your desperate beauty dances within my burning soul
Mocking it almost as if superficiality is in control
A lightness that incubates within the flame
Impervious to all its trauma and pain
Waiting for madness to end
And for sanity to begin
Mark Lecuona Oct 2015
The shoes were hanging from the wire
I couldn’t tell if they were thrown in anger
Or maybe in jest
They were too small for me to wear
So I let them hang like a sign of discontent
Or to make a birds nest

He like speed bumps on the poor side of town
The time in between reminded him to take his time
Why couldn’t he do it for himself he wondered
He needed help to think of living instead of the climb

She was too tired to go to the fields anymore
Holding a lantern to her face in the mirror
She thought it would be best
The puzzle was done except for one piece
The doorbell rang and her life began again
There was no time for her heart to rest

She wasn't sure but not so much to keep living alone
She thought about how hard it was to compromise
But his car parked by the curb looked so clean
And when she smiled she saw relief in his eyes
Mark Lecuona Feb 2015
Our prayers guide his hand
Her strength weather worn sand
No matter tempest tide
Or fear harbored beside
It is his will that be done
Because her faith in his son
Will walk this barren land
Where only dust can understand
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
You had a name
And a pretty dress
You wore it well
You wore it to impress
We smiled
And said what we say
It is the dance of strangers
Wondering if this is the day
To be who we are
To prepare our minds
For the journey beyond the superficiality
The imperfect word failed to find
You wanted light
I wanted darkness
And yet when it was my turn
The light was my fearlessness
To tell you that I am everything
Everything you want
The challenge that you need
As you flicker through this moment
To the time and place of a dream
Igniting before your eyes
As my calling became yours
And you finally removed your disguise
As spontaneous prose burst before you
To the laughing mirror you were sent reeling
To confirm what you already knew
Beauty could not stop what I was stealing
Yes you are pretty
So very pretty
But is today the day
To find your soul in the city?
Mark Lecuona Feb 2016
Context is understanding why they did it
Without it emotion is like a shell abandoned by the ocean
Contrast reveals our differences though the water feels the same
Someone noticed my palms
I said how much I sweat depends on the distance between us

A whisper is sweet music like a match that lights easily
But passion is how we know if they are honest
You were once a star that fell from the sky long ago
You finally learned to swim
But the ocean walked away when you weren’t looking

I asked you a question and you asked me why
I said I wanted to touch a white canvas with a brush
But I had to dip the tip into the paint first
You smiled at my hesitance
But someone who lives by the tide is always ready to leave
Mark Lecuona Oct 2015
I sometimes wonder when my mind will catch up
Whoever thought us up had something in mind
I never can tell if I’m learning or just surviving
I just hope I’m a chord somebody is trying to find

The sign said the line for life starts right here
I looked down and it was where I was standing
But is it Rome or my own home, how to know?
Maybe it has something to do with not pretending

I don’t have a ticket but it’s playing in my head
But they can’t tell you if you’re the salt or the water
The ocean is beautiful but you can’t drink from it
Whoever made us won’t say why it’s mixed together

I decided a t-shirt was enough of a statement today
But I had to be sure that how I lived could be worn
The only thing that made sense was either a word
Or a picture of a man dreaming of being reborn

You had to tell me the limits of my capacity
It was as if you told me tomorrow was my last day
I can’t question myself all the time or else what?
That’s the choice, a question or a time to feel okay

I saw a man shrug who could make people happy
He walked away thinking he missed his chance
Everyone else wished they were him for a moment
But whoever made us won’t let us wear his pants

The things that hold tight the most can’t be seen
The light forms at the line between heaven and earth
We can choose which way to go while darkness decides
The only path to take is the one that challenges your worth

Every promise I ever made  was important in the end
I never told anyone things like I would except if they did
We can believe in nothing and rearrange furniture at will
But breaking a promise became a life from which you hid
Mark Lecuona Oct 2017
The water laps without memory
upon sand that once bled
He feel to his knees once there in prayer
and now again to recall what God said
Even the breeze fell silent to the witness
of the bells, echoing what we once read

A reluctant hero, the same as a tourist
this land was not his land,
But the hearts that once beat in sorrow
recognize his outstretched hand
The moon spoke without being asked
“Their grieving washed away with the sand”

When dreams become nightmares
and glory ages into regret
we watch as he stretches his uniform
over a heavy heart covered in sweat
He knew the tears of a soldier fall hard
upon folded flags unable to forget
Mark Lecuona Apr 2017
To grow a rose garden by the drum beat of its thorns
Is to lure their hearts not by the scent of a flower
But instead by a dream that will be awakened by a flood
For the hearts upon which you play will be punctured
And the blood that flows will forever mark your life
What you thought was love was instead oppression
What you thought was life was instead death
For the way of the sword is not the way of the dove

Una Paloma Revolucionaria

Para crecer un jardín de rosas por el ritmo de tambor de sus espinas
Es atraer sus corazones no por el olor de una flor
Pero en lugar de un sueño que será despertado por una inundación
Porque los corazones sobre los que juegas serán pinchados
Y la sangre que fluye siempre marcará tu vida
Lo que pensabas era amor era opresión
Lo que pensabas era vida era en lugar de la muerte
Porque el camino de la espada no es el camino de la paloma
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
Do you believe we are brain dead
Shallow Suburbanites with no street cred
Incapable of an original thought
Because we have all been bought?
While you with all of your spare time
Are able to protest in rhyme
Tempting our flock
And moving the hands on the clock
Do you think we are cold and callous
Living out here in our “palace”
Unfeeling and uncaring
Never thinking or sharing
Our supposed ill-gotten wealth
Acquired with sinister stealth
To be used to acquire more
While others face a locked door
But it is us that make it easy for you
Because it is all you think to do
Your mind is free to choose
With no constraints, you cannot lose
Your heroes are on the road
Howling about their load
Riding further with vocal riffs
Pretending you have many gifts
Experimenting with freedom of thought
Glorifying yourselves all for naught
Living with nothing to lose or gain
You are able to explore your brain
But how easy it must be for you
With no one to answer to
No small child to care about
You just existed without any doubt
About your pioneering ways of living
But it was about taking not giving
As you smugly changed our world
Our morals to be forever hurled
Into a corner to be abused
Painted as something of a ruse
To deprive you of your extremism
Or able to live in your Nihilism
While you bellow and memorize
The words of others more wise
So you take and take
And then regurgitate
Their thoughts with a twist
Trying to give us a gist
Of your genius in poetry
But you only master sophistry
As you speak in starts and stops
Attempting to fool us flops
By orchestrating obfuscation
You captured the eye of the nation
You live in self-congratulatory mode
While forever referring back to the road
A trip of useless hedonistic eruption
Masquerading as true revelation
And what did you reveal?
Something that you should conceal
A high-brow conceit steeped in intellectual
Pretension ultimately altogether ineffectual
In changing the world in your image
Playing God with words you scrimmage
With the minds of lost children
Left disillusioned and barren
Because they bought into your delusions
Not knowing you saw them as intrusions
Into your bubble of pretended insight
So you turned their day into night
They ran to the West Coast
But found nothing but a ghost
Of an enlightened age
With few people quite sage
But they were not fed or awakened
Only left on the street forsaken
While you accept the plaudits
Of other frauds matching wits
With one another for what?
Just so they could mentally strut
All about the place
Pretending to care just in case
They were called on their addictions
So they fought against contradictions
In the way they actually lived their life
And the caring they projected about strife
We who must care for our offspring
With no time for free living
Exist wondering about your fame
When it seems it was so much a game
About how much you could consume
And make us to be the loon
Because you knew of the conspiracy
While we believed any theory
Of a loving God and benevolent big brother
Because we are stupid, incapable of reading the weather
Of changing times and mores
You keep us down with your stories
Of not being controlled
By those who you say stole
The truth from all of us
And threw us under the bus
Well, we are not impressed
So you can remain undressed
As the Emperor who sees only himself
And believes in his own wealth
Of mind and enlightenment
Publishing only excrement
Useless to the poor
What else do you have in store?
We await, breath baited
Your words of how you hated
Society and its norms
Your people and their scorns
Will once again attack
The suburban brat pack
So we work each day
And in the morning pray
That our efforts are not useless
To those who do not live like us
With our many blessings
We give our offerings
Freely and with joy
Each girl and boy
To transfer that which God gave
Because that is how we are taught to behave*


Copyright 2010. All Rights Reserve. Mark Lecuona
Kind of a rant from a wannabe hippy about being put down because I live in a suburb.....
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
The sheep walk the fields
Unaware of their impending doom
Rustled by a barking dog
Swept along like dust on a broom
Slowly walking in a dreamy haze
The sun provides a moment's respite
Happiness masks tomorrow’s uncertainty
Oblivious they know not to be desperate
A banquet at their feet
Digesting their way through life
Swirling, ritualistic endeavors
Instinctive, unthinking actions are rife
Dancing on a precious patch
Herded, prodded, shoved
Head down for the moment
Do they know they are unloved?
A symbol of inevitability
I watch with idle curiosity
What is the point of this?
Other than to inspire verbosity?
Are we worthy of their death?
Or their aimless existence?
As I walk away to another duty
The answers are whispered in the distance…
Mark Lecuona Dec 2015
Are you alone?
The last one left
In your family?
Or maybe
The only one
Not invited?
Is everyone happy
Except you?
How will you explain
The whys
To a daughter
Trapped
Inside too many goodbyes
How will you explain
Your absence
To a son
Caught
In your inability
To be a presence
In his life
But do you cry
Or become angry?
Who can you blame
For the misery
And the burning flame?
What of a lonely man
Buried in memories
Of a happy past
That will not bring comfort
Today
Memories that await
To torment
Refusing to relent
As the answers
To a burning heart
Point to the idea
Of departing
This cruel world
To **** the pain
And join his family
In heaven
What do we say
To these people?
How can we make them happy?
How can we make them see?
That they are not alone
And that their tears
Form a torrent
With our own
To wash the pain
Away
To bring us closer
To see that others
Suffer as we do
And that we
Are the answer
And they
Answer for us
Yet we remain
Unable
To join as one
So we cry alone
And hope
For hope
And a future
With a child
Or a memory
Or a loved one
Or a stranger
Who sees in us
The fear and despair
That lives
Inside of them
Fear and despair
That only another human
Can understand
Tell me your troubles
Don't make me happy this Christmas
Make me sad
Because of your need
To tell me
To unburden yourself
Yes... make me sad
Burden me
So I can unburden you
So I can make you happy
Knowing that you can cry
And validate your worth
As a human being
And not an unfeeling
And uncaring
Soul
Make me sad
We will be sad together
And then we will be happy
And then we will become
What we are
Love
Because
We can give
And receive
Blessings
Together
And
We will remember
Mark Lecuona Jul 2015
What if I thought things that would shock you?
What if I wanted to do things you never thought of?
Could I tell you?
What if you thought things that would shock me?
What if you wanted to do things I never thought of?
Could you tell me?
Will we ever know?
What if we spent our whole life thinking past each other?
What if a smile was really a frown?
What if a frown was really a smile?
Go ahead
Be yourself
I’m not afraid of you
Don’t be afraid of me
Don’t play a part
Play your life
If you are someone else
Then be someone else
I’m ready to be who I am
Can we be different?
Can we still be together?
Don’t say what if
Don’t say I wish
Just be what if
Just be I wish
I’m one inch from your face
Am I making you uncomfortable?
Then do something about it
I just want to know
Are you an actor?
If you want to dream
Then dream
If you want to cry
Then cry
If you want me
Then come get me
Mark Lecuona Mar 2016
How many of us know where we’re going?
We only know where we’ve been
And where we hope to begin again

One time there was a love of the life
But that was when I was young
There was nothing to feel but strong

Days are nights with the light turned on
I can walk straight if I can see
But I can’t sleep if you’re not next to me

Some folks make it in spite of themselves
Something finally reached them
They don’t put anything above their friend

We think it gets easier the longer we’re alone
We are shadows of our own making
But my dreams know I’m the one who’s faking

Nights are days with the light turned off
I can’t walk straight if I can’t see
But I can if you’re sleeping next to me

You might say it’s not too late for tomorrow
Are you ever late if it’s not your time?
But tomorrow won’t wait in yesterday’s line

I wanted to burn like a wildfire in your forest
You didn’t understand so you held me back
You thought I would make your green leaves black

A dream knows about day and night
It tells me the way things ought to be
But how can I see without you next to me?
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
What I would think to say
To be true
Like someone you once knew
But no longer love
Is the same as a stranger might say
To someone like you
Beautiful
But distant too
Hoping we will remain friends
After we meet
Instead of the way of the stars
A part of every dream
But never touching
Never knowing
Only looking
Longing
Alone
In the midst of disappointment
Where hopeful strangers once walked
Only to be reminded that it happens that way
And though while caution knows best
Our hearts will this time not set again, until
The fear of heartbreak no longer speaks to us in the night
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
Am I a river?
I was
But now I am a lake
Because of the dam
The dam of life
The dam I hate
The dam I cannot defeat
I see my stream
But I cannot rise above the dam
So I sit
And I wait
And I exist
But I do not live
But as I am slowly released
Part of me has become you
For I too am a stream
Yet you want a river
And now I look for a river too
Mark Lecuona Oct 2016
I don’t know why I should change my clothes
You can’t reject me no matter how you say it
Swimming in the deep end is still living my life
You live under water but you can’t walk on it
I once believed that you could
But sailing across too many horizons taught me well

I’m not telling you what to do with me
You can’t know with someone who prefers to row
The waters of my birth remain close to me now
I have found my place and it is better that you know
If only that you could
But watching me sail away is the story only I can tell

An old sailor learns how to love a memory
What he once held close has become who he is
Never fear the strength of one who weeps freely
You asked yourself for such a heart and here it is
If only that your heart could
But the sails I raised because of you finally fell
Mark Lecuona Mar 2017
if it is in the desert where my soul must learn
to give
then I will live off of the sand as my thin skin
turns red
if my judgment be made by the house in which
I live
then I will suffer along with those who have
no bed
if I cannot convince anyone of this then listen as
I look
through a golden lattice at a sitar drowning in
our hate
how far must I travel to find the inner truth that
time took
while a conch on the desert or the beach sings
my fate
Mark Lecuona Feb 2016
The dream was a deeper feeling of emotion
There was nothing to hold it back
No notions of manhood
Or sanity
Or walls to build
Or stones to carry
Only bare feet
And faith in our differences
As shapes of anger and longing float by
But as he looked upon them they changed
And he realized that they did not want to him to know
So instead of looking
He felt their presence
And the room suddenly was full of light
Not because his eyes were filled with the sunrise
But because his soul was awake
Every emotion he had ever felt gathered before him
And none would look upon him
For they could not ask of him what they could not give
And when he finally stood up
He took his time
There was no reason for haste
Or impatience
His life would now forever know
That a dream was the way inhibitions yield to truth
And that emotion is the only way to love
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
I saw the stars,
and thought foolishly once again

I asked for so many things;
things I thought were out of reach,
but near to them

I finally realized,
they were asking me all along;
for they were as distant to me
as I to them;
and the things we needed;
from each other
were the things you can find;
from a friend
Mark Lecuona Sep 2015
I knew she would laugh at my vague sonnet
I spoke too often for anyone to respect my intent
I had wondered if anyone could live contentedly
Knowing the past grants no privilege for our life
But she was smart enough to ignore idealism
A home cannot be built between water and sand

I wondered what form of pain humanizes us the most
The most gifted among us smile often enough to please
The space they own between each personal shock is wide
The rest of us are consumed with meaning and culture
But crowded sidewalks are angered by my indifference
While her heart felt the the things that a crowd ignores

She knew everyone is one instant away from loneliness
It’s the realization that all we are is what we have done
Who we are is nothing that anyone can speak of
We both looked through a lens refracting the noise
But I only knew how to bend light to please myself
And as she looked away once again I wondered why

By now she found the light of truth killed shadows
It was time to decide whether to let it wash over her
To face away from the sun was to become a prism
She realized each color was every possibility for life
Because the light that remains is for those who can dream
And a shadow is light that refuses to love someone else
Mark Lecuona Dec 2015
I’m standing on the waters of my birth
reaching for the end of the skies that only my eyes can see
there are so many paths connecting the stars
and my love for you will travel each one
until I find the one you left inside of me

I’m standing on a carpet left behind
by those who rode it so their God could set them free
there are so many paths connecting our souls
and my love for you will travel each one
until I find the one I can finally believe

I’m standing on a sidewalk still life
painted with blood cast by a memory’s shadowed marquee
there are so many paths connecting our hearts
and my love for you will travel each one
until I find the one that will not let me be

I am standing on a dream of my own
returning from the escape from which only I can leave
there are so many paths connecting our life
and my love for you will travel each one
until I find the one that will no longer grieve
Mark Lecuona May 2012
Is it you
Or your shadow?

Who does the talking?
I can’t seem to find either one of you

It never follows
It never speaks
Except to the weak

What did you do to it?
Or what has it done to you?
Do you know?

I stare at the sun for truth
And watch for its shadow for relief
But the sun has no shadow for me
Only a fleeting glimpse of what I will never be
But for what the sun will not allow
I will find with the turn of a cheek

How strange
To explain a lost shadow
There are no words to tell
Except a woman without a shadow
Is a man without a woman in his life

I stare at the moon for love
And watch your face for relief
But your face has no love for me
Only a fleeting glimpse of what could be
But for what the moon will allow
I lose with the turn of your cheek

In a confused state of an indelicate world
With normality turned upside down
And all wrong which finally feels right
I stare back at the sun to see where I’ve been

A voice is heard from the sky that has always known me
Since the day I first noticed its presence it has waited for this moment
Was it spoken today or a thousand years ago?
What message is so important to travel such a distance
Only to arrive in the light eclipsed by the shadow of doubt?

The shadow knows as it reveals itself only to the weak
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
It's just down there
Underneath it all
Not getting much notice
Feeling pretty small

It wears itself well
Holding under the strain
Looking for a bit of polish
Trying to avoid the rain

Living in a closet
Crowded, lonely and dark
Hoping to be picked today
Maybe for a walk in the park

It doesn't know its worth
It thinks it's just a shoe
But it protects every little step
On my journey to you
Mark Lecuona May 2017
Yeah well
You're gonna have to look for it
This ain't Shakespeare
It's not proper
But it reacts quickly
And hard
Without style
Just effectiveness
The art is in the reality
Class rides up front
Life in the back
Except this is your stop
The driver stays
You get off
You play country club
We don't play
You use a cork
We take a shot
You sip
We gulp
You speak King's English
We speak the street
You'll understand
You'll know
The ******* is on your side
That's what God told me
It's true
He said you never could thread a needle
You always asked the maid to do it
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