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Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
If you look at me again
I’m gonna’ have to ask you why
There’s a distance in your gaze
Like the fading mist of the morning sky

If you stay quiet like you do
I’m gonna’ have to ask you why
There’s a silence in your life
Like the end of a sad goodbye

“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the answer to my questions
“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the hint behind the rejections

It’s not true baby
It’s not true
You know I love you
I swear I do
But I can’t love someone like you do

If you believe what you just said
I’m gonna’ have to ask you why
There’s a fear in your voice
Like someone confronting a lie

If you leave me without a reason
I’m gonna’ have to ask you why
There’s a feeling in your words
Like the weariness of an unhappy sigh

“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the answer to my questions
“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the hint behind the rejections

It’s not true baby
It’s not true
You know I love you
I swear I do
But I can’t love someone like you do

If I give you more
Then I won’t be the man you love
If I give you more
Then I will lose what I’m made of
You don’t love me more than I love you
It’s just that I can’t love the way you do

“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the answer to my questions
“I love you more than you love me”
Yeah, there’s the hint behind the rejections

It’s not true baby
It’s not true
You know I love you
I swear I do
But I can’t love someone like you do
Song lyrics....
Mark Lecuona Apr 2016
I walked away
From a time and a place
You moved on
And tried to leave me no trace

But I can’t pretend
It’s your tracks I’m following
I can’t pretend
It’s the past I’m still swallowing

Letting her go
I knew it wouldn’t be easy
Now I know
She’s not the only one who’s crazy
Time said no
The days stopped trying to please me
You said so
I realized how lonely life can be

I came to say
How we learn when it’s too late
You said I’m wrong
I’m just not accepting our fate

I can’t pretend
It’s the past I’m still following
I can’t pretend
It’s your memory I’m still swallowing

Letting you go
I knew it wouldn’t be easy
Now I know
She’s not the only one who’s crazy
Time said no
The days stopped trying to please me
You said so
I realized how lonely I can be
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
Another year is coming to an end
It seems the same as it began
I was dreaming about someone I once loved
But that dream finally came to an end
It’s too easy to live alone
At least it seems that way
I wonder how we can make it work
Worrying about losing again
Maybe it’s better to live apart
It’s not that I can’t settle down
It's easier to live a life feeling free

I can’t spend it anymore
I can’t spend it anymore
I can’t spend time worrying
Worrying about what happened before

Thinking about when you were mine
It’s time to get that out of my mind
I need to see the open road instead
And take the trip not matter what I find

I have to believe in something
I haven’t been around the world
Or even the other side of the tracks
It’s not that the door is locked
It’s just that I won’t open it
Will the confessions I make
Be enough to love you?

I can’t spend it anymore
I can’t spend it anymore
I can’t spend time worrying
Worrying about what happened before
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
To see all of heaven in your hands
and feel the courage of the morning after
hold a newborn baby
and listen to a dying friend’s laughter

Whatever is thus, I am prepared for the inquisition of the soul
I never asked to be born, but I am responsible for my role
The spine of the divide was the shortest distance to the light
I always avoided the blood, but ate the body every night

What beat down upon every decision was the eye of my creator
While he lit temptations fire, I became it’s very nature
I once learned on bridges and dirt roads, then by love that died
Never once was a moment when I knew what was inside

To not forgive someone
to whom you owe so much;
is to accuse without depth
or the right to benefit by their touch

Whatever it became, I once only saw what required no belief
Then rivers without a head or feet, only direction but no relief
Then came with eyes closed, the life built around the mind
And what was my feeling of grace became something I could not find

I belong, though indulgence became empathy and recognition, a mystery
The story you thought was written without regret is forgotten history
To reach each other without shock or judgment is to know both ways
Up or down, left or right, man or woman, right or wrong, insult or praise

To watch the change in love
or the desire for loneliness instead of anger
is to hold a heart that you forgot
and a mind to whom you became a stranger
Mark Lecuona Jan 2015
Give me your feelings
I’ll have them back to you soon
In an altered state
Not what you walked in with
So you must be ready
It may prove something to you
Maybe how little you actually control
Because what I choose to say
Are the things I know that make you care
But not for me
Or for you
Or even us
It will be about someone else
Or something else
Something desperate
Something so overwhelming that you won’t believe
Because nobody can believe what is overwhelming
But it is true
That kind of fear is true
That kind of courage is true
But what good is it to think about these things?
What good is it to listen to a song?
There is nothing left when it’s over
You are the same
Whatever your situation
But deep down inside something changed
You sense it
You know it
But you cannot prove it to anyone
Except to the one who did it to you
Because they wanted to pass it on to you
And they sensed it inside themselves
And to prove it to you
They had to do it to you
And now they know
And now you know
Mark Lecuona Apr 2017
i cannot speak their language, but
it is strong in my heart;
i saw a child
and i knew then that my heart was the same;
to cross the sand or a river is to make a better life;
but is it to change history or to reclaim it?
is there no remedy?
the movement of the people has always been so,
but the one thing we will not do is sin
and expect to be forgiven;
it is our decision and his life;
he did not ask to go,
now he cannot stay;
the river does not know who suffers the most;
still it rises and falls in the hearts of the helpless;
the only culture we have is the one that changes;
that is freedom;
the only love or hate that is honest,
is what i say to their children
for a child, life;
for his father, pride;
i am not the law, instead
i am light,
because i choose light;
but i am also darkness,
because i hide behind the fear of being wrong,
instead of the courage of compassion;
the fight is in our heart and mind;
it is the way we choose to live and die
these people who cross;
why are they here?
we know why;
is there anyone so strong
who would live where they are not wanted?
is there anyone so weak
who would be afraid of their children?
Mark Lecuona Feb 2015
I could stand in front of a pyramid
But I didn't carve the stones
Or die to live inside

I could ask the sun
To make my skin change
But does my mind remain white?

I could hold a book with strange pictures
Or just put it on my shelf
Would it make you think I’m smart?

I could write about things I know
And things I don’t
But I'm still a dilettante

I could stand in your shadow
You will never know who I am
Until I choose to walk away

I could fall for a pretty face
In fact I always do
Until my darkness reminds me of you
Mark Lecuona Feb 2017
I could find somebody new
Maybe somebody prettier than you
I could find a girl any man could love
Yeah, I could do that
But my heart knows it’s not you

I can’t fool myself
I can’t play house
I can’t play pretend
I could if I didn’t care

But I do

That’s why you were my friend
That's why you were my friend

I could find somebody new
Maybe somebody to love more than you
I could find a girl any man would want
Yeah, I could do that
But my heart told me it wouldn’t be true

Dreams never sleep
Neither does saying goodbye
I keep saying it over and over
But my heart’s not just some other guy

I could find somebody new
But my heart knows better
I could find somebody new
But my heart knows better

I could find somebody new

But my only heart
Only knows
What only it
Ever knew
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
I could be mad everyday and maybe I am
But not over the color of your skin
Or why you remember to this very day
I could be mad everyday
But not whether you love a man or a woman
Or whether God made you that way

I could be mad everyday and maybe I will
But not because you crossed the border
Or because my Father came a different way
I could be mad everyday
I know how you hurt on the inside
Because somebody's hate made you feel that way

Sometimes I don’t feel like trying
But I’m not going to let it happen to me
I’m not listening to people who are doing all the lying
They’re not the ones who care why we’re dying

I could be mad everyday and maybe I should be
From trading goats to trading bitcoins
Money has always been the only way
I could be mad everyday
I don’t want to wait for the judge
To avenge us for those who make us pay

We could be mad everyday and maybe we should
Faceless ambitions send our children off to war
Only to be remembered on Memorial day
I could be mad everyday
They squander all our money
And we wonder why nobody makes them pay

Sometimes I don’t feel like trying
But I’m going to smile even though I can’t
I’m listening to the people doing all the lying
But I’m not going to let them make me feel like dying

I could be mad everyday
Because I don’t want to be a fool
They know I’m not playing their game
I’m not stealing or selling them my name

We could be mad everyday and maybe some are
They try to teach us how to hate
But I’m not going to be the one to obey
I could be mad everyday
They think we don’t understand
But we do because we don’t listen to what they say

Sometimes I don’t feel like trying
But tonight I think I will
I want to know how to be your brother
And not the way they want us to treat each other
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Jan 2015
She watched me down the river
The bend arrived too soon
She wanted to cry
But I left alone
I told her nobody got me
And the way I said goodbye
Was the way somebody talks before they die

I knew how to love her
But it would have been an act
And she would have fallen for it
That's why I can't come back
I helped her walk away
I acted crazy enough to save her
How she would describe it mattered
And I made sure she knew what to say
I didn't want her to live with regret
So I took it with me
I wanted to bury it along the shore
Where only a loner knows the way
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
I decided it's better to live with what you hide from me
How can I ask you to be honest when I won't let you?
What you choose to love is not my right to question
And if it's not me it doesn't mean that I won't love you

You probably thought I'd hurt you over rejecting me
But that's not the man that I want to be
I don't mind crying alone
I don't mind if you know
That's the only way to know how I feel

I decided it's better to help you love the right way
I want you to remember me as a person
And not someone who loved but walked away
Because he couldn't make you worship me

You probably thought I'd never leave you alone
I have to be the kind of man who hears what you say
We have to know when to let go
We have to know when to let it show
That's the only way to make you feel safe inside

I decided it's better to be happy for you
If you love another man then that's the right thing to do
I won't force you to tell it too my eyes
The kind of person you are doesn't hurt someone like that

You probably thought I'd never accept it
I have to quit imagining what you do at night
I know that I loved someone too
I know that I once lied to you
It's time to be strong enough to let you go
Mark Lecuona Aug 2015
How do you know who I am
Or what I stand for
I look ordinary
No dreadlocks
No paintings on my body
No rings piercing my ear
My eyes aren’t weary yet
My skin is white
I am educated
I have a piece of paper
I wear cotton clothes
Black pants
A clean shirt
I look like I am comfortable
That suffering is foreign to me
So what is it that I can say
When my identity is so plain?
But who must declare themselves openly?
Is it the man who has decided he has become all there is to be?
Is it the man who is unsure of the facts of life that he reads?
Is it the man who gives up his ambition to be what does not pay?
Is it the man who tells everyone the streets are where there are real men?
It is him who suffers most who becomes the angry man
It is him who becomes angry that is liberated
It is him who is liberated who can tell the truth
And so what do I tell you?
I am not him
I have no right to be angry
I have no right to be liberated
I have no right to tell the truth
Is that my identity?
No right to speak harshly of oppression
No right to speak harshly of poverty
No right to speak harshly of hunger
And it is true
I am not oppressed
I am not poor
I am not hungry
So I cannot pretend to be any of these things
I cannot pretend to have that connection
Who do I have the nerve to be?
So I spin a tale that I imagine of a life that I know exists
I think about what it would be like to watch an angry man
I think about what it would be like to watch a poor woman
I think about what it would be like to watch a migration
I think about what it would be like if I lost everything
I think about what it would be like to give everything away
Then I know
And I am ashamed
I know I would not survive
And so it is not because I am not poor
It is because I wouldn’t know how to live
Like they are able to live
Without hope
But with life
Without respect
But with pride
Without relevance
But with identity
Because they know who they are
The chosen ones
Who have the right
To smirk at those of us who visit the poor on a field trip
And then go home and forget
Forget them
While they remember us
The soulless ones
Without the knowing of anything
Without the knowing of how to live
Without the knowing of survival
Without the knowing of will
Without the knowing of who we are
Mark Lecuona Apr 2016
I desire peace
but it is knowledge that I prefer
and I will accept pain
if it is truth that I will acquire

I desire love
but it is loyalty standing next to you
and I will be your witness
even if only I know what is true

I desire pleasure
but I will trade honesty for passion
and I will be your friend
instead of you being my possession

I desire beauty
but what I see can wait a little longer
and I will show you patience
instead of pretending to love a stranger
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
It is not the calm of discovery that fuels my expression,
but the fury of shedding the tightly wound cocoon I didn’t ask for,
knowing that I will not have wings once I set myself free;
knowing the climate is not for an indigenous refugee in his own world;
knowing I may be eaten alive the moment I open my eyes;
by predators who neither appreciate my troubles, or
the fact that I am aware of their existence

They didn’t expect to see me so soon; a lamb is supposed to die young,
or at least degenerate into a bitter fool who can only reach for a bottle,
his cigarettes and pictures in some magazine of lipstick masquerading as lips

How can words be so black that you dismiss them though they breathe as you do?

It’s never going to be comfortable to make you feel the way I do;
except possibly the moment you realize you were strapped to a gurney too;  but it’s only because nobody can understand you anymore; why should you care?

The world is moving too fast for the one’s living in the comfort
of their own insults and views of a world they have dimmed
by shooting illuminated silk fabric bags that ask questions nobody
cares to hear anymore because they have already decided that
what a man has on his table is either of his own choosing or what
he deserves

Is change only for malleable children who listen intently to those who have given up?

You gave it away before you knew you had it; they wanted you to think like them; and because you love them you had no choice; but now that you do you find the darkness that clings to you more comforting than crackling bones who do not wish to walk above ground for they have become accustomed to the feeling of not feeling anything because alliteration is not a word for artists but instead the way those who have given up describe vapid, languid submission because it is easier to suffer quietly than to be ridiculed for thinking otherwise

But these things are not relevant if we cannot share them yet we are so far apart; so I must make them hurt; the words must penetrate into your cloth skin because you do not know that it can be removed; and when you feel what I tell you, do not cry or if you must then know that I have already cried and the river of my awakening has not yet crested; there is room for you my friend; listen not for direction or guidance; but instead for purpose and free will

You forgot about that didn’t you?

You can make a new mistake; but it will be your own for who has not almost suffered their own death being born into another world?

The judgments of man are for their own benefit and as soon as they destroy you they will forget you; make them remember and soon they will fear themselves; because they will now know that their own darkness cannot extinguish the darkness that you wish to explore; your darkness; the darkness that may be light in the world that awaits your courageous journey

When will you begin?
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
Sometimes I think I can avoid the problems of life
I act like it’s not going to happen to me
That stuff only happens to other people
I don’t have to pay because I want it for free

If feels like I’m living in a war
There are casualties all around
I get nicked every now and then
But not enough to make a sound

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the bitterness in others
As they breathe between torments

Success seems so random at times
Every day I wake up in the same place
My work has become my life
But still I wear an anonymous face

The extremists are taking over
Most of us have nothing to say
The politicians take us all for granted
They say spend your money and then go away

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the fear in others
As they await life’s judgments

It’s a strange thing watching the news
I see our heroes dying every day
Nothing ever changes
Yet another baby will be led away

The more I think the less I believe
The less I believe the more I see
The more I see the less I need
The less I need the more I am free

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the hopelessness in others
As they accept their punishments

They say what doesn’t **** you makes you stronger
I’m so strong now that I have lost the thrill
I don’t need any more near death experiences
One more and my heart will soon be still

I spend so much time doing nothing
Like waiting at a light or being stuck in traffic
I wish I could gather it all up
And relive the hours I’ll never get back

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the pain in others
As they endure their disappointments

I think about *** all the time
But I want to live alone
I don’t want to explain myself
My mind will always be my own

There is an oasis where we all exist
But sometimes it’s only as we sleep
As soon as it passes you know you missed it
So we wait even as we weep

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the struggles of others
As they can’t make their payments

My daughter couldn’t wait for Christmas
She still believes and was so impatient
I wonder if a woman could love me
Like a child opening a present

I need your love just as you need mine
I know you want me to settle down
I see it in your eyes and hear it in the songs
That float around this lonely town

I don’t have a bad life
I just have bad moments
I see the heartache of others
As she tries to understand my resistance
Mark Lecuona May 2012
I don’t have a white horse
I don’t even know how to ride one
And so we begin the disappointment

How much time is needed
For your heart to decide
If I can provide you the right moment?

The moment you dreamed of
The instant in time you crave
To relieve you of your lonely torment

Have you ever wondered about the dreams of a man?
And if you are not that dream
How can you expect him to live under your judgment?

I wonder if you will understand
That as we kiss
Time will stop for as long as your lips are in agreement

And when they part to allow further exploration
Will you know my desire has made the journey
Past your own to ask your heart for its consent?

Do you feel the shock of indecision
While you moan feelings of need
And reach wildly as morality makes its inevitable descent?

And now with the roaring fire of complete surrender
Burning in ways you never could contemplate
Will you set before it your dream for its abandonment?

What you could have never known
Was your imagination was steeped in fantasy
Melting, as my touch made all your plans transparent

As the fear of my power rises before you
And the prospect of my allure to others such as yourself
You must decide if I am worth the gamble for your fulfillment
Mark Lecuona Jan 2016
There is so much time spent being a reservoir
A holder of the things they want us to cherish
A tribe defined by what we hold in common
Yet our differences breathe life into our individuality
I don’t know if it is that I need a passenger
Should it be my destiny to explain guide or suggest
When it is that I prefer no past
And no future
Not because of shame or death
But because these things cause discomfort
It is instead a life of calm that I seek
As it is walking with nature or the animals we care for
I can only ask if you want to fall in love
Or if there is a word that would describe me
I hope it is honor
And truth
I don’t know how it is we can agree not to be perfect
We have such a precise expectations for our life
Would it be better not to watch through a moving window
Instead we could be a part of what it is we seek
Or create it for ourselves
If only we knew how
Mark Lecuona Oct 2015
I never really was too sure
Though once I thought I was
I decided to have a look
But found only laws
I could see the light
But didn’t know why
My hair was wet
But my mind was dry
My voice was loud
But knowledge was silent
Inside every wrong word
Were the seeds of violence
Not to naked flesh
But still you bled
I wondered how this could be
That a scar became what I said
I carried it everywhere with me
The only idea I had was guilt
The only smile was knowing it
It was then that doubt was built
I had an opinion once
It was something important
But the man on the corner
Still has a hole in his shoe
The things I can’t see
The life around the corner
A book never opened
Was why I couldn’t warn her
I decided if we’d never met
Your reputation would survive
Because if I say nothing
The truth remains alive
Mark Lecuona Mar 2015
It’s a life of fear living inside the life of my own
I threw everything away except some common decency
I want to do what’s right by my children but it’s so hard
I had to find myself in order to get on the right frequency
My folks always felt the same way
But it was me who didn’t want to care

I decided to open every box I’d packed away
All were labeled wrong except for one labeled right
Since I was the one who decided these things
I needed one to be lit only by the natural light
My folks knew this would happen
But it was me who waited too long

I try to explain the ways of the world but who can say
We decided the best road was to manage our own
I opened their eyes just by asking if everyone is the same
I hoped their hearts were made of blood and not of bone
My folks never tried to burden me
But it was me who ignored what they know

I have to let go of the things that once scared my folks
There’s no chance what they want is for my peace of mind
It’s a feeling I get when I’m alone thinking if I can take it
I shouldn’t care but then it would be my heart I couldn’t find
My folks decided to let me grow up
But it was me who didn’t know how
Mark Lecuona Jun 2015
For every time that I felt sadness and grief
I wondered why you couldn’t get over your own
A lady who walked alone thinking of her lost husband
Said I was destined to bury understanding with my bones

I heard a song that was unfamiliar to me
It was in a language that cried out to those who know
A man who once sang that very song to his children
Wondered if anyone would care about foreign tales of woe

I walked alone watching a young man
He felt the confidence that only ignorance can provide
But he mocked me with his very presence
I knew what I knew but still I felt old on the inside

But then the sun rose once again
And what it was came to me when I was awake
But I could not decide between sorrow or joy
Because the day had not yet come for God’s sake
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
Can you see it on my face?
That last smile you gave me
****
Dread
That’s what I felt
You are so ready to fall completely in love
Maybe you already have
And I’m so ready to turn out the light
Darkness is calling again
And it is all I can hear

     You see the moon
     And think of me
     But what you failed to notice
     Is how the moon is positioned
     Tomorrow there will be an eclipse

To think of life without considering anything or anyone
I need that
It’s not about “me” time
It’s about a “me” life
And you don’t know this about me yet
But what I thought I tamed
Is out of the cage
It’s running wild through your forest
The one where you go to smile and be in love
Now there is something bearing down on you
In slow motion
Because I can’t say the words
I don’t love you like that
Mark Lecuona Jun 2015
How it must feel to know
It’s as if my words aren’t real
My skin is peeling but the blood won’t leave
I’m hiding in the sunshine for something I can’t steal

I keep telling you, but I know, I know
The words fade because you chose the distance
I thought about the hand you always play
It reminded me you’d gamble away your existence

I don’t mind
I don’t mind being strong
Or being so weak
I need love
But I won’t die
If you think our love is wrong

What did you think when I called
Did you like the fact that it was your choice
Or was it that you know this is the only time
That you could really hear love in my voice?

How it must feel to go
It’s as if I am no longer real
Your skin crawls with bumps you try to ignore
You heart still knows how it is that I make you feel

I don’t mind
I don’t mind being strong
Or being so weak
I need love
But I won’t die
If you think our love is wrong
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Dec 2016
Everything seems warmer than it used to be
But the world is still cold
Life goes on no matter how hard it can be
I’m feeling the pain of gettin’ old

I wish I could take one last look
But you didn’t tell me about your plans
It was enough to write a book
And I’m left with the pages in my hands

Too many times
Too many days
Too many gone by
Life goes on
I have so many tears
Too many asking why
But it’s too cold for me to cry

You might be thinking it’s easy for me
That I’m able to live without you
There’s more to a heart than a beat
Now I know what you said was true

I know what to think
But I don’t know what to write
I don’t know if I want to read about it
I just know I keep thinking it
You left me like that baby
I’m not gonna’ ask a book to tell me why

Too many times
Too many days
Too many gone by
Life goes on
I have so many tears
Too many asking why
But it’s too cold for me to cry
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona May 2017
I can't stand it anymore
That's a direct quote
Thirty years ago
I know people matter
But Jesus Christ
I know what I mean
Do you?

I decided the trip is no where
No? Where then?
No where other than where you been
Then where is there again
I think that's Hindu
Who am I to argue with reincarnation
I'd like to try again

The answer is publicity
Otherwise you're doing it for yourself
You have to be strong
Anonymity ***** the life out of an ego
That's why I killed mine
Now I'm a rock star
'Cause I said so

I can hear a chord
But it's really a word
That's how you make it matter
It's how you translate it
It's not an interpretation
That's only to keep confusion alive for others
They seem to need it anyway

You can't really hear it in your mind
Still I get goose bumps
That's because I know what to do with loneliness
I can't stand it anymore
That's why I imagine it instead
Mark Lecuona Nov 2014
I'm not afraid of love anymore
Just the loss of freedom
I'm not afraid of pain like before
My heart can live in any season

Winter pain
Spring rain
Summer game
Fall to blame

I don't sleep on rocks
Nor between satin sheets
But where the soul flocks
Is where love meets

Meadow greens
Mountain streams
Snowy Aspen scenes
Natures dreams
Mark Lecuona Feb 2012
You know
Don't you?
You see my picture
A Yuppie
Clean-cut
Straight
Selfish
Greedy
No problems
Just endless opportunities
But why do you think that?
Are you prejudiced?
Well?
Are you?
Is it possible
That maybe
Just maybe
I'm mad too?
That I can relate to you?
Do I have the right
To swear?
To hate?
To be angry?
Or am I too clean?
Yeah
I'm clean
I have my act
I'm boring
At times
I go with the flow
I don't rock the boat
I drink Chardonnay
At the dinner party
As the guests pretend
To be worldly
Because they stood
In Paris
Or Milan
But have they ever stood
In Harlem?
Or East Austin?
At night?
That's worldly
Why?
Because it's real
I haven't stood there
Because I'm scared
But I think about it
All the time
And I wonder
Do I have the right
To be angry?
Can I write a rap poem?
Can I think like them?
Or does my clean
White
Face
Disqualify me?
I want to be mad
Here
Now
Today
And I will be mad
Not because I'm white
Not because I'm not black
But because I know
Yeah
I know
And I hate that I know
And still smile
With my white wine
And my pretend world
Yeah
It doesn't mean ****
Neither does this
Because I don't stand
In the ghetto
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
I don’t understand
****** for power
I don’t understand
Complaint without solution
I don’t understand
Ego without accomplishment
I don’t understand
Action without reason
I don’t understand
Judgment without experience
I don’t understand
Advancement without merit
I don’t understand
Worship without thought
I don’t understand
Belief without proof
I don’t understand
Love without kindness
I don’t understand
Want without need
I don’t understand
Talk without meaning
I don’t understand
Celebrity without talent
I don’t understand
A white lie
I don’t understand
Falsehood without challenge
I don’t understand
Might over right
I don’t understand
Beauty without soul
I don’t understand
Law from faith
I don’t understand
Victory at all costs
I don’t understand
An end by any means
I don't understand
Commerce over spirituality
I don't understand
Greed over giving
I don’t understand
Hurting a child
I don’t understand
Reward for failure
I don’t understand
Too big to fail
I don’t understand
The Virtue of Selfishness
I don’t understand
Too powerful to question
I don’t understand
Arrogance from vicarious pleasure
I don’t understand
Ambition without empathy
I don’t understand
The sale of loyalty
I don’t understand
Money over honor
I don't understand
Ignorance over education
I don't understand
Cheating
I don’t understand
Hate
I don't understand
Why the good die young
I don't understand
Do you?
Mark Lecuona Jan 2015
If we never get back together
Then I'd rather die alone
I know who was the one
What's another year on my own

You never made me feel strange
You knew how to sit next to me
I never had to explain it
You just did it naturally

Yeah I'd rather die alone
Than try to pretend
No one else is you
You're my only friend

The moon lives only at night
But the earth thinks of her all day
It seems our life apart
Is just like natures way

We're not going to tempt fate
We're going to get out of it's way
Whenever it decides what to do
We'll know if the past will become today

Yeah I'd rather die alone
Than try to pretend
Nobody else will do
You're my only friend
Mark Lecuona Nov 2016
Go ahead and have that long cry
It will feel good emptying your heart
You may not believe how that could be
But crying like that says how you once loved me

It’s gotta’ be the slowest heartbreak ever
It wasn’t just the waters risin’
It’s how long they took to recede
It was an old and a new horizon

If I had the nerve
I’d sing a song without any fear
I just want to make my voice crack
It’s always the loser the audience wants to hear

I didn’t have to walk to the ocean with you
It was something we always lived with
It was my fault mostly
Watching you cry reminds me it’s not a myth

You’re still caring enough to leave that way
Being sad instead of mad is the way to go
It makes me think of forgiving somebody
You inspired my heart enough to make it so

If I had the nerve
I’d stand outside and serenade your door
That used to be the way to open your heart
Now it’s somebody you don’t want to see no more
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Jan 2017
If I knew I was dying
I know what I would say to you
There would be no promises
Only words I know to be true

I could think of life after death
Or of dying after living
Which one would mean more
If it was to you the eulogy was giving?

Sometimes it seems so close
But only when I think of you
We gave each other a chance
Now you're on to someone new

I remember every kiss
Now it's something I can't find
Did you give them all away
Or did you just leave them behind?

If I knew I was dying
I would know what to say
I would be so honest
And you would live for today
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
I took her to my home
Still I forgot her name
She was a problem child
But I wanted to play her game

If I never see the sun
I won’t be losing again
Because the parting light
Means the heartache begins

I never know which drink
Is the one before too many
But I know why the sun shines
On a room that is empty

You made every mistake
That a woman can make
I know all your flaws
But whose heart is gonna’ break?

If I never see the sun
I won’t be losing again
Because the parting light
Means the heartache begins

I wonder if a woman
Can feel a man while she sleeps
My eyes won’t leave her alone
She doesn’t know I’m playing for keeps
Song lyrics...
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
How I walk
How I walk
Believe in faith
Believe in fear
Will the fields guide me
Will the forest shelter me
If I walk in faith

Where I walk
Where I walk
Closer to the land
Closer to the sea
I won’t lose myself
I won’t lose my children
If I walk in faith

Walk in faith
Walk in faith
When it is cold
When it is hard
Come to me
Come to me
I believe in you
Believe in me

How I live
How I live
The way I was taught
The way I was loved
My life may change
My past will not
If I walk in faith

How I love
How I love
My neighbor
My savior
Will I know them
Will I know you
If I walk in faith

Walk in faith
Walk in faith
When it is cold
When it is hard
Come to me
Come to me
I believe in you
Believe in me
Mark Lecuona Jan 2015
If only we were in love
We’d be planning our day
We’d be excited about flowers
And romance our special way

If only we were in love
We’d know just what to do
But it wouldn’t be just one day
It would be all the others too

If only we were in love
If only we were in love
If only is all we can think of
Because if only
Is only what lonely people think of

If only we were in love
We wouldn’t have to wonder
Our eyes would burn like embers
From the spell we are under

If only we were in love
Every day would tell our story
We would believe in tomorrow
We’d know when to say I’m sorry

If only we were in love
If only we were in love
If only is all we can think of
Because if only
Is only what lonely people think of
Mark Lecuona Mar 2016
Believing only if it saves himself
That is how a man must learn

To find a gentle heart
He looks to others
For his is too heavy to bear
And too troubled to forgive

Not believing in the pain in others
But only in themselves
Believing that another man should not be afraid
While harboring their own fears in the dark
Not believing a man has a breaking point
But knowing they are near to their own

Dreaming then becoming
Surviving then regretting
But should you remember or forget
Having been controlled by everyone
It was their dream after all this time
And not your own

But that a glacier would never melt
Or that a mountain never explode again
The life we live is not long enough for truth
Only for hope and faith

Once they spoke in the dark
Their faces shining by flickering candle light
Still they knew their purpose
And it was not to question the light
But instead to live by it

From so long ago we have read
Was it revealed to man by God
But what have I known of this

Was it because they were so close to living like animals?

But what is deeper or greater in belief
What a man receives for life
Or dreams to save him from himself?
Mark Lecuona Feb 2015
You once talked so much
You were beautiful
The face of love
And all the boys wanted you

You had a husband once
He loved you for a while
Then he stopped thinking of you
Even when the song was slow

Still you decided love is worth the pain
Even though you love the sun instead of the rain
You wouldn’t let him buy you a drink
But you told him you’d change your life
If only love was true
If only love was true

What did he say
That you hadn’t heard before
But this time you wanted to play
Giving in is a game you wanted to lose

Did he get your attention?
He sounded so different
But you needed another month
To know if it was real

You decided love is worth the pain
Even though you love the sun instead of the rain
You wouldn’t let him spend the night
But you told him you’d change your life
If only love was true
If only love was true

The things he described were you
Was it a lucky guess or was it him too?
You admired his taste in women
Because you admired yourself

Though the rope was getting tight
You had will power no man could understand
But you were weaker than he knew
It was always up to you

You decided love is worth the pain
Even though you love the sun instead of the rain
You wouldn’t let him kiss you in the car
But you told him you’d change your life
If only love was true
If only love was true

You watched him drive away
But you didn’t know he liked it
You didn’t give yourself away
His pride smiled in the mirror

You wondered what was next
You gambled that rejection was a turn-on
And even though you were right
Would his courage overcome the doubt?

You decided love is worth the pain
Even though you love the sun instead of the rain
You wouldn’t let him know how you felt
But you told him you’d change your life
If only love was true
If only love was true
Song lyrics
Mark Lecuona Jun 2015
Would if your past was lost,
would it be a desert; barren
hot and void, but cold at night;
would it be painful regret for
a life no longer recorded or
would it still be the life you
knew to be true?

If if was all gone; all that you
recorded of what you felt;
would you still know to treat
a bearded man on a chopper
the same as a clean shaven
man in an expensive suit?

It’s who we are that matters;
I can’t pretend I’m not one
of you; it’s only how I relate
and what I’ve learned is not
about art, but instead, it was
life itself

What I could say is only in a
way that reminds you; it’s a
way to break the silence if
only for a moment; what I
lost is how I said it but not
how I meant it

There is no story of running
underneath planes as they
departed; there is no story
of swimming beneath a
churning prop; it is only the
life that someone lost that
we endure because we know
who is next

Is there no callousness that
can be welcomed for those
who must live with death
and violence; what we spoke
or painted is for those who
try to live the right way while
we watch those who must
die in a world which we
cannot comprehend
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
what if this
wait until then
what it means
think about it
how I feel
it depends
why I do it
it's my right
when will I do it
when I'm ready
if I meant it
I always do
where I am
I'm still traveling
what about my plans
they never turn out
if I believe in God
why should I tell you?
if I love someone
don't you?
if I'm happy
it no longer matters
if I'm angry
aren't you?
if I love people
I love my children
what about that
I can't solve it
how to be
don't hurt anybody
have I hurt anybody
everyone I know
Mark Lecuona Sep 2016
If you do not love the world
Can you love the father who left you behind?
For he brought you here
Along with your mother
So to what purpose was your birth?

If you do not love the world
But love the father who once was your own
It is to love miracles
And life everlasting
Inside the heart you pray God finds worth
Mark Lecuona Jun 2017
If you
If you would
Listen to me
Then I
Then I would say
It’s you that I see
But I want
I want to hear you say
You want the same things as me
I was
I was not right
The first time
The first time we tried
I held you tight
Then I ran
I ran into the night
And you said
I didn’t want the same things as you
I thought
I thought it was you
And it was
And it was true
But then
But then you flew
And I
And I saw a light
But a shadow proved we were never right
Mark Lecuona Aug 2017
I could see the forest;
I was standing far away;
but you only feel the lost
fawn stumbling; the path,
washed over by leaves;
a baby bird, fallen; not
to be found; a startled bear,
searching for her cub;
surprising a fearful hiker;
a random path, cut by
rain without permission;
the shadows, so jealous
of the sunlight; allowing,
if only for a moment, it’s
life; losing the colors of
its past, without memory
or sentiment; sentiment;
only to give birth just in
time for another fire; yes,
you only could think it as
just that old thing; it was
only a sundress; worn so
many times before; but it
was the magic of the rain
forest; the teeming life
within, with the spirit and
the glory of a your soul;
you can't decide if you're
it's mother or it's lover;
but the gaps between each
strand of your hair; filled
by my hands, like the
sunlight begging the dark
shadows for forgiveness;
while my eyes search
your heart for the path
the breeze carves each
day, wet with the dew
shaken from the leaves
that wish they were you
Mark Lecuona Jan 2015
I was about ready to ask you out
I'm tired of watching you walk away
You always keep your eyes to yourself
I wondered if it was me or just your way

I finally asked one of your friends
And he let me in on the deal
He said you have a boyfriend
A girl like you is hard to steal

That’s alright baby
I can wait
You’re worth all my time alone
I'll wait until you make him your ex
But I’m telling you now
I got next

Every girl has a guy hanging around
They like to keep their options open
You just have to show her you’re for real
Even if your heart is next to be broken

That’s alright baby
I can wait
You’re worth all my time alone
I'll wait until you make him your ex
But I’m telling you now
I got next
Some lyrics for a country song....
Mark Lecuona Jun 2017
I don't know if he loves you more
I don't know how he makes you feel
I just know I saw tears in your eyes
From happiness that could not laugh

There was nothing left for you to give
You were everything a woman could be
And now you are gone away with him
How can it be true that there is more?

When we kissed you drew me near
The blood in your hands was mine
Not from a heart that was breaking
But the flesh where you buried your past

You never did belong to me my love
But desire was in the palm of my hand
Our exhaustion was all that was true
I won't ask, I know you remember
Mark Lecuona Mar 2012
I really do
It burns the fields
Of happiness
In another's
Accomplishments
It floods
The gates
Of admiration
With tears
Because
I didn't do it
I hate my ego
The menace
To society
And friendship
There is not enough light
To share
As its shadow
Swallows
Your pride
Whole
Because
My ego
Can only exist
Alone
Without you
Without your genius
Without my respect
For you
Because my ego
Only recognizes one thing
Itself
Mark Lecuona May 2012
I have a garden in my head
Of emotions that need to be pruned
There’s a memory for everything
But I need to make more room

I got to tell you something
And it’s about my life
It’s changed like I never knew
But it’s something  I like

I don’t have the dread
And I know what to do
I get up every day
With what I’ve been through

A doctor told me some news
But I shrugged it out of view
I’m not supposed to worry
Maybe God will see me through

I wonder about him a lot
And what he thinks of me
Everybody has their opinion
About their own personal deity

I was walking in the mall
And a pretty girl tried to sell me
She said, “Take it, take it!”
But I told her, “Nothings free”

It wasn’t so much that I said no
But that I didn’t lose my train of thought
When a smile shines so bright
Sometimes you can easily be bought

How can I wander amongst the minstrels
And the ladies in waiting to capture my heart
When I no longer live in their world
And cannot play the expected part?

There’s something I got to tell you
I’m tired of being miscast
The person you thought you knew
Hs become a stranger to his past

If you want to talk
Then let me know
But don’t bring your desire
Because I let mine go
Mark Lecuona Mar 2017
I have lived
For I gave all of myself
Though I was discarded
I have lived
For I gave all of myself
But was soon parted
I have lived
For I gave all of myself
Now I find myself alone
I have lived
For I gave all of myself
But to whom am I known?
Mark Lecuona Apr 2015
I know you wonder
how it is that I forget you;
but that is not true

I remember every flower
though they have been picked
and pressed between the pages
of an old book

I remember birds that once flew,
between wind-stained trees
though they are gone now,
replaced by others too soon to leave

I have only forgotten how to live,
for what I do now is wait,
for another spring morning
the same as last year
and the year before
because I know my memories will bloom

As will you

Though I have not fallen apart
it is not a sign that I do not love you;
it is that strength of being alone
that sustains us

I will light the fire once again
and in the candles light
I will see you and know
that what burns in me
also burns in you
and that neither of us
can extinguish the other

Even if we must live apart
Mark Lecuona Nov 2015
Some people think if they survived
Then they’re alright
They take their blessings with them
And play a game of pretend

My hands are still *****
I know things aren’t right
Unfinished business is still a choice
I need to decide on a loud or silent voice

I won’t drag the past into a new life
It will remain only in my sight
With a soiled memory is how you left
And being wrong is what I must accept
Mark Lecuona May 2012
The days are long
But the years are fast
As is time and motion
What once was decades
Can now be measured in days
Days to live
What is the point of slumber
When you can hear him sing in your sleep?

Is this the end?

I think I saw the hands move
And the ticking
The god-forsaken ticking
I hear it in my sleep
I hear it as I set my sail
And even over the ocean’s roar

I think I saw the earth move
And Atlas groaning
The god-forsaken groaning
I hear it in my sleep
I hear it on the city streets
And I wonder what am I in for?

I think I saw the moon move
And Selene crying
The god-forsaken crying
I hear it in my sleep
I hear it as I walk alone at night
And it is hard to ignore

I think I saw the sun move
And Helios chariot
The god-forsaken chariot
I hear it in my sleep
I hear it as I turn my head
It carries me past the poor

The days are long
But the years are fast
As is time and motion
What once was decades
Is now measured in days
Days to live
What is the point of slumber
When you hear him sing in your sleep?

Is this the end?
Mark Lecuona Mar 2015
I hope we're not rushing the same things
   Because I took my watch off
I hope we are climbing the same things
   Because I only see the summit
I hope we see the same things
   Because it's a clear night sky
I hope we forget the same things
   Because pain will invite itself tomorrow
I hope we believe the same things
   Because I don't want to convince you
I hope we feel the same things
   Because that's what I want to share
I hope we remember the same things
   Because that's why I'm smiling
I hope we want the same things
   Because I only want to be with you
Mark Lecuona Aug 2016
Someone asked if I was feeling blue
I said I hope so
Especially
If it means I'm a clear spring sky
A deep ocean sea
Staring into your eyes
Then yes
I am

Someone asked if I was sad
I said I hope so
Especially
If it means I am thinking of life
A day the way it ought to be
Of you
Then yes
I am

Someone asked if I was sorry
I said I hope so
Especially
If it means I am forgiven
A feeling of humility
About you
Then yes
I am
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