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Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2015
Underneath it is dark.
Underneath it is warm, but cold
Dark but bright
Heavy but light
Beautiful and hideous
Peaceful and chaotic
Safe but dangerous
What do I do?
I love my home underneath,
But
I
Need
To
Leave.
It’s too dangerous here.
Marisa Lu Makil Mar 2015
It is not fair to
Me that good people die and
That bad people live.
This makes no sense to me. People like Rich Mullins die in car crashes-good people. People who are christians, and who love others, and who plan their whole lives around Christ and what he wants. And then people like Amy Grant-terrible people. People who lie about who they really are, and their love for Jesus, people who make the lives of people like Rich hell.
How is this fair?
I don't think it is.
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2019
//yoo-ni-verss//
Noun:

I. You are a wonder wrapped in a miracle. Every ebony gasp breeds holiness. Every tincture of time that you hold bursts into purple midnights. Every bright escape another release of your cosmic breath.

II. You rule with satin clouds and shining rain. Your every movement shakes time.

III. You know your greatest magic and will forever prove it to those who rest beneath your raven sky. You are power and grace entwined, you hold on your hands an eternity, and you fully know it's wretched destiny.
I'm trying one of these definition poem thingies. How'd I do?
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2023
It's happening again.
Maybe I'm just tired
Maybe still broken
Or maybe I can't seem to get you off my mind
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2015
Poetry
Is not something
To be defined.
"This is what it means"
"This is how they did it"
No.
Poetry is to be interpreted
By oneself
In the silence of ones bedroom
So don't tell me
I can't write poetry.

Poetry is just
Words of meaning.

You decide what it means for you.
Marisa Lu Makil May 2015
Whenever I wander
Away from my Lord
Because I am lonely
Or because I am bored

He brings me back with a kiss on the cheek.
"Come back to me, my darling."
Inspired by something my great uncle said that I thought was beautiful.
Marisa Lu Makil May 2015
And just like a glow stick
You snapped me in half
And all the light poured out.
Now I'm just an empty shell.
Marisa Lu Makil May 2015
I am so busy
Trying to be someone else
I forgot how to be
Myself.
Marisa Lu Makil Jun 2015
Only in the understanding
Mind of a poet can you look at someone
Else's poem
Read about
Their
Pain
And think it beautiful.
I saw someone poem just now. They wrote their pain into it, and it was beautiful. "Sad means happy for deep people"
Marisa Lu Makil Jun 2015
I know things seem dark
But if there's one thing I know:
Things will get better.
Going through some difficult and confusing time right now. All prayers are appreciated.
Marisa Lu Makil Jun 2015
I read through our old
Text messages to remind
Myself
Of the good times
The times when
We talked
And laughed
And called each other affectionate names
The times we still woke up to each other's
Faces on the screens
Of our phones.
Here's to back then.
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2015
Have you ever
Been so deeply
Moved by your love
For another
That you cannot
Hold back the tears?
I have a family member who has always disliked me. I am on a vacation right now with the other side of the family, and it's sunny, and beautiful, and everyone here loves me. I am barely holding my tears in. I am so happy. I don't want today to end.
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2015
He loved me as a stranger
Died for me as a friend
I know we'll meet in Heaven
Where His love never ends.
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2015
Am I the only one
Who loves
When I'm in a car
And it's pouring
Down rain
And you go under a bridge
And everything
Just for a moment is peaceful
And quiet?

I wish it happened more often.
But then it wouldn't be so special.
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2015
Life hurts.
There are good days
And bad days
But if there's one thing I have learned,
It's that it
Always
Gets
Better.
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2015
A song echoes here in my ears
It sings in a place no one hears
It twitters along
And sings bold and strong
It's lullaby calms all my fears.
Why I sing when I work.  :)
Marisa Lu Makil Dec 2015
You didn't mean to say it that way
So why does it hurt so much?
Marisa Lu Makil Dec 2015
"You're not really alone"

But I feel alone
Don't try to fix it
By constantly trying to talk
Just listen
Help me find someone
Who makes me feel not alone.
Marisa Lu Makil Dec 2015
I wish someone would notice
What's wrong
I pray and pray but life just
Goes along
Why can't you hear my restless
Mournful song
Help me
Please
I'm drowning.
I'm drowning in these tears and no one sees.
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2016
Her face and her lips speak deceit
Even her actions are lies.
She is a walking falsehood with fiction in her wake.
To someone we all know.
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2016
Home isn't a place

More often than not

It's a person

And I have to say

I don't know where home is anymore
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2016
I am misplaced
I am a butterfly
In a field of cocoons
I don't belong here.
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2016
Our conversations
Have been reduced to
Common chit chat and
Cordial goodbyes.
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2016
The worst part is
That I don't know
Whether to wait for you
Or let you go
Marisa Lu Makil Mar 2015
I'm so sad



But I don't know why...
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2017
It's so unfair
So incredibly unfair
So unfortunately rediculously, messed-up unfair
That you
Of all people you
Get to live the life
I should have
You get to be happy
You get to be loved
You get to have no worries
When you're the one who left
You left me in pieces
With no one
No one to put me back together
Marisa Lu Makil Jun 2017
It feels like my existence is one prescribed pill dosage to the next.
Marisa Lu Makil Jul 2017
We are all
Like Simon-Peter
Sinking below the waves
And we are so
So close
To safety
If only we take the hand of our
Savior.
Marisa Lu Makil Jul 2017
He does love us
He does hear us
He does know us
He does hear our cry

But He is not held
By the standards
Of what we believe is good
He has His own standards
To which we
Sinners
Creation
Must adhere.

*"He does not afflict willingly, nor grieve the sons of man."
Marisa Lu Makil Jul 2017
They say Time heals all wounds
But it's been years
And look at me
I'm still broken
Marisa Lu Makil Jul 2017
Be near to me
Oh Lord,
I pray,
For I am sore downtrodden
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2017
My day is no longer
One moment to the next
One hour to the next
One smile to the next

Instead it is
One dosage to the next
One pill to the next
One health issues to the next

And for all of the effort
I put into remembering
My pills
I'm not living anymore
I am only existing
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2017
I Hopeless sinner
Have been made
A *Hopeful saint
Marisa Lu Makil Oct 2017
Everyone is happy
To accommodate you
When you are young
"She has some problems"
"She'll grow out of it"

But they don't tell you
When you're older
You have to figure it out on your own
On your own
Marisa Lu Makil Oct 2017
All I need
Is someone
Who understands
Why I ask if they hate me.
Marisa Lu Makil Mar 2015
I am so lonely.
I just want someone to ask if I'm okay.
I'm not,
But I wish someone would ask.
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2017
My stretch marks
Are my battle scars
Maps of my bravery
And stories of my victories
There is nothing more beautiful
To me
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2017
I've always thought
Of someone saying
"I miss you"
As
"You are missing
From my life"
And I think that's
Pretty
****
Beautiful
Marisa Lu Makil Nov 2017
Let yourself be humbled
Not abused
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2018
Jesus keep me safe tonight
And stay my wandering soul
Marisa Lu Makil Jun 2018
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words can break
My heart
I had a really long, exhausting day. It ended well, but I can't sleep, and I don't expect I will tonight #insomniac
Marisa Lu Makil Jul 2018
The days
Used to drag
And all I wanted
Was for the day
To come
But now
The days pass too fast
And I dread
The future that
Lies ahead
I think my depression is coming back.
Marisa Lu Makil Aug 2018
Even the waves break on the sand
Marisa Lu Makil Sep 2018
And she looked in the mirror
And whispered
"I don't know you"
Marisa Lu Makil Oct 2018
One thing I promise
Something echoing in me:
Things WILL get better
Marisa Lu Makil Dec 2018
If only
There were a painkiller
For heartbreak
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2019
May our eyes never become so clouded by the world that we can no longer see the beauty of creation
Marisa Lu Makil Mar 2019
Why isn't it okay that I'm afraid?
Finding new health issues that I have, and I feel 100% uncomfortable talking about it, and people keep saying "overcome your fear" and "You can't stop being afraid if you don't talk about it" I just want it to be okay for me to stay afraid.
Marisa Lu Makil May 2019
I never understood it
This need
To draw blood
From your own wrists
Or to take a step
Off the cliff
Or let yourself
Slowly slip
Under the water
But now I see
I would do
**** near anything
To feel something other than this
I'm too cowardly to harm myself, but I've come a lot closer in the last month.
Marisa Lu Makil May 2019
I just want someone to care about me
As much as I care about them
Feeling really lonely today.
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