and he was like a drug to her
the more she took
the more she got addicted

It started with a whisper
His voice felt like dark red velvet
He had a chaotic mystery on his tongue
And his head was a garden full of secrets
His eyes were maps of places he had been
Places he wanted to take me
As he whispered
I felt my heartstrings pull against my chest
He had wrapped me up in the sweet nothings that he was telling me
And tucked me in with a sweet kiss
And when i looked into his eyes
The maps were gone and there wasn't a road or street light to be found
For his eyes were black
And he was already gone

i watched how he looked at her
how they were together
i saw the love they had for each other
radiating off one another
i looked at the smile smeared upon there faces
they way there hands fit together like puzzle pieces
and i envied her

night time is for sleeping

thats what i thought

until i met you

then nights slowly turned into more time

to miss you

Hello again
Haven't seen you in awhile
Hows the darkness
You look different
Did you miss the light
Are you here to hurt me
Your reminding me again
Please go away
I don't want to see you
Go back to the dark
Why aren't you leaving
Go away
I thought you were gone

I find myself wishing i was a dog
Because what do they worry about?
Making it outside to *** in time?
There always happy
And they just want to love
I find myself wishing i was a dog

once you forget how my lips taste

maybe then you'll regret making me second place

Im not in water but i am drowning

My own skin suffocating me

I can't breath

I tread for hours

I am tired of fighting

Just let me breath

when I'm alone i feel the loneliness start to creep up on me
its like its hiding there waiting to be free
when the kiss of your lips on my skin is gone
it steps out of the darkness into the dawn
with this fear washing over me
your the only thing i want to see
and when your not around to help
il scream and cry
il call for help
its your body that puts my mind at ease
and your arms around me
i miss the squeeze
of the tight embrace you pull around me
the darkness goes back where i cant see
only when your around
do i feel safe
oh how i love your warm embrace
please love me tenderly
and never let me go
i dont know what id do
if you left me alone

The kiss you lay upon my skin
Healed every bruise present from his sins
the scars on my body disappear with your whisper
Your voice left me wondering
Why would he hit her
I regretted letting tears fall as one hit your hand
Right as i was falling
You helped me land
I feel your arms snake around my body
Protecting me from the nightmares
At night when they haunt me
And maybe later i will get over it
But when im alone
I never forget the sound
Of his hit

And I find comfort
At the bottom of a swimming pool

The goose bumps i leave on your skin when i trace circles on your chest is like a song calling out to me
The tears stained on my cheeks get erased with every tender kiss you lay upon me
The spark that ignites between our beating hearts when your presence is upon me is enough to start a wildfire thats not even the strongest gust of rain can put out
The love that radiates off you when the sheets are tangled between our moving bodies gives me a whirlwind of chaotic emotion when we give our whole selves to each other

Its late
My head is an intersection of speeding thoughts running red lights
I have every intention not to talk to you
Not to wake you up in the early hours
But everything is traveling so fast and i wish i could just stop

he says were fine
so why do i feel like were not
my head is spinning
my stomach is in a knot
i have a fear of losing him
a craving for bruising me
should i tell him
or should i wait and see
i pick up a pen
and begin to stain
the patterns on my skin
relieve me of the pain
i long to feel
scars take too long to heal
il continue with my pen
in hopes that my mind
will mend