I measured what you could do with me,
what I thought you could do,
and I was right,
for most of it was true.
I practiced my math,
made a's and a's and b's,
I calculated your words,
tried sifting through their meaning,
I typed them up,
but my heart was just dreaming.
I practiced my grammar,
to tell you how I felt,
but you had already left.
I do my math now,
but I make c's and c's and f's.

love will never be forever, feelings are just like the weather, January to December, do you want to be a member? Lonely hearts club,* **do you want to be with, somebody like me, oh?

She was here.
She told me how she'd always love me.
It was clear
I was the man in her life.
Why didn't she stay?

I opened up my heart to sorrow,
Not knowing there was no tomorrow.

She was gone
Before I knew.
It hit me hard,
Knocked out my lights,
Quicker than a heartbeat,
Faster than the speed of a lie.

She was here.
I knew she'd have my back always.
It was clear
I would always have her back.
Then, she went away.

She left no way for me to follow.
It happened fast - bitter pill to swallow.

She was gone
Before I knew.
It hit me hard,
Knocked out my lights,
Quicker than a heartbeat,
Faster than the speed of a lie.

It would be better,
If I could only say she had been untrue,
But at the time, I don't even think she knew,
That standing beside me was the one thing she could never do.

All at once my heart was hallow,
Echos of love, my heart is fallow.

She was gone
Before I knew.
It hit me hard,
Knocked out my lights,
Quicker than a heartbeat,
Faster than the speed of a lie.

Tonight is the night
That my soul is freed
From this contaminated,
Cursed body of mine.
Tonight is the night
That I end the suffering
End the endless, miserable
Nights that I've condemned
Myself to.
Tonight is the night
That the last breath is taken.

Paano ko kalilimutan ang taong hindi naging akin?
Mayroon bang off-switch na pwede kong pindutin?
Gusto kong sabihin sa sarili ko "tama na! huwag ka na umasa!"
Pero bakit nasa larawan mo pa rin ang aking mga mata?

Paano ko kalilimutan ang matang hindi ako tinignan?
Mga matang mapupungay at kaysarap pagmasdan
Kung pwede lang pumikit, tapos pagkadilat ay wala ka na
Para tumigil na ako sa walang humpay na pagluha.

Paano ko kalilimutan ang mga ngiting ubod ng tamis
na iginuhit ng mga labi **** tila seda sa nipis?
Gusto kong isigaw kung gaano kita iniibig!
Ngunit kung sarado ang tainga mo, paano mo ako maririnig?

Marahil sasabihin mo, OA na ang tama ko
hindi ko pa kilala, pero ang drama ko ay ganito
Kasalanan ko bang umasa na ang mga daan namin ay magtatagpo
lalo na kung alam kong andyan lang siya sa kabilang kanto?

Paano ko tatalikdan ang pusong hindi naangkin?
May bukas pa ba na nakalaan para sa atin?
Kailangan ko na bang itigil ang kahibangan kong ito?
Natatakot ako sa sagot, dahil madudurog lang ako.

When we are sick
Our body suddenly appears as a conscience
Creating unease and pain
A burden uncontrollable yet much
thought about
The realization of its materiality
And the existence of the physical becomes more clearer
The mind and body separates into a two winged subject
As both separate and intimate existence
One that depends on the other and vice versa
This new rythmic thoughts go on.
A body, a presence is felt for the first time.