My heart breaks and rips as I convey the deep feelings I have for you on paper
The love letters that I write seem to be meaningless seeing as though this love is one sided
My stomach is sick and my cheeks are stained red from these moments of anguish where I let you go
Our relationship doesn't make me happy, it only makes me angry and sad, dissatisfied and unfulfilled
We barely speak, we barely connect, our relationship is impossible to maintain due to a lack of sacrifices being made
You seem uninterested and treat me as if I'm an afterthought in your mind, while you consume my every moment
Continuing down this path will only breakdown my heart further into the space of emptiness that it seems to be
These love letters are tear stained as the droplets fall with every written word, I wanted it so badly to be real
I miss you every second and I long for you passionately, wanting to know you and be with you all the days through
But we will never be because what I see in front of me is someone who cannot love me the way that I love them
I'm sick of crying over you, I'm sick of expending all my energy on you, because by the end of the day, I am only depleted of my love, lacking affection and attention from you
I have not written this honestly and from the heart in a while. This piece is exactly my emotions as I feel them. No filtering whatsoever.
© Emily 2014