lins - Hello Poetry

lins Feb 2018

a mystery to me
he is full of intrigue
what is his passion
what is his truth

what is his dream
what makes him beam
I want to know him
there’s so much to learn

I only know his name
boy does that seem lame
one of these days
I’ll introduce myself

but for now I’ll just think
running my pen out of ink
writing about my curiosity
about the boy that is a mystery

#boy #crush #mystery #curious #shy

lins Feb 2018

fraud

you say that I’m a liar
you think I never cared
you smile like nothing ever happened
you regret everything we shared

never confronting the problem
only hiding from reality
delusions you built in your head
destroying our sanctuary

but then it was never safe
your danger lingered daily
finally ruining everything
imploding because you are flaky

you run your mouth
and think I should care
but the truth is I don’t agree
and you are just a nightmare

I have learned to deny
every smile on your lips
because you mislead me
with all of your ***** tricks

you say that I’m the liar
but I know what’s right from wrong
I just want you to know
you’ve been the liar all along

#friends #fake #angry #lies #liar

lins Feb 2018

"LYTM"

staring at the ceiling fan
as I lay on this couch
now too short for my growing legs
I hear your call from the kitchen

always cheery and welcoming
I think back on all the days
spent listening to you cooking away
endearing how you can be so loud

there have been many late nights
spent relaxing in this living room
watching ****** reality tv
that mom never let me watch at home

your familiar touch reaches over the couch
and softly brushes the top of my head
flowery perfume follows the gesture
and I glance up to meet your eyes

I don’t think you realize
how much I love your smile
how much you have impacted my life
or how much you mean to me

your eyes reflect the life you’ve lived
your attitude parallels your youth
only showing your age
through your weathered hands

your home smells of coffee
and antique furniture
in the most comforting way
and I never want to leave

this is my second home
made perfect by your love
unconditional and pure
supporting me always

my sweet grandmother
you never cease to amaze me
with your unending generosity
and kindness from deep within

as I walk out your door today
I know I’ll always return
you smile as you hug me goodbye
and whisper in my ear
the phrase from you we always hear

“Love You The Most”

for my mimi

#family #grandma #love #familiar #home #safe

lins Feb 2018

a hazy second

something happened this evening
I haven’t thought this way for a while
I almost reached out to grab you
just after seeing your bright smile

my stupid heart wanted you near
to pull you closer to me
in the darkened parked car
a moment to be carefree

I couldn’t take my eyes
off of your crooked mouth
thinking about another kiss
not being able to go another second without

I could almost feel your
lips engulfing mine
all the while your hands
trailing up and down my spine

it would’ve ******* up everything
had I reached across the car
ruining a working friendship
busting a large reservoir

but to grip the front
of your black t-shirt
and have your lips
as a sweet dessert

for a brief moment
I thought I might do it
but the time escaped me
and the feeling quickly quit

something happened this evening
glad I didn’t do anything rash
your smile just snuck up on me
and made my heart startle then crash

All of this went through my head in the span of 3 seconds then I jumped back into reality and realized who I was thinking about.

#moments #friend #kiss #second #desire

lins Feb 2018

seamstress

All this time, we were weaving together
every thread of our lives
We had no idea that the bond
had become so strong
that when you pulled away

I was left unraveled

You are gone and I can’t
make you come fix me
I’ll have to stitch myself
back together again
Next time I won’t let
anyone pull me apart

the way you did

been holding onto this one for a while now. couldn't figure out if it was finished

#together #apart #split #friends #broken #trust #fix

lins Feb 2018

thinking about you

I think about calling you up
to hear your voice, low and soothing
hear your boisterous laugh
echo through the phone

I think about seeing you again
to smell your cologne
as your arms fully wrap
around my small shoulders

I think about your smile
as you tell me another story
your joy shines through
your smile is contagious

I think about the future
all of the possibilities
together, you and me
living life with each other

I think about your lips
what it would be like
to feel them on mine
for the very first time

I think about your hand
reaching out to grip mine
to connect us as we walk
a warm comfort on a chilly day

I think about you now
wishing I could talk to you
hoping you miss me too
wondering if I’m ever on your mind

the problem is I only ever "think" I never "do"

#thinking #relationship #future #want #desire #unsure

lins Jan 2018

my try is different i guess

repeat it over and over
“try”

what you don’t realize is that
I am trying
it may not look like it
but that’s cause I don’t know how

my trying is not good enough
but it’s all I got
so I guess I’m the only one
to blame for how I feel

I’m not good enough
I can’t do this
I’ve never been able to do this
only now has it become necessary
for survival

“you have to try Linsey”
oh ya thank you that helps
it just pushes it further
that I am trying but
I’m just failing

give me something
to hold onto
I need a crutch
even though it’s “unhealthy”

I think this,
this being alone all the time
through no fault but my own
is becoming my biggest enemy
becoming my death

yikes

#alone #lonely #friends #honesty #insecure