My hands are tongue-tied, my mouth
a shutter that ***** open in the wind;
empty words parade their ground but I

think now before I speak.

You watch my movements, tracking each
for the abnormal; waiting for me to mess up
and forget to hide these crimes

you so carefully cultivated.

I jump in the darkness, so you see things
which are not there; shivering screaming
silence, spoken aloud only when

your distance we both share.

Electricity fluctuates
Darkness, light, darkness, light
I will find my way out
But the problem is too complex
For a quick getaway

I see a flash of God
Then the devil
Then God again
Then the devil
It never ends

It's torture
I don't know whether the light is better
Or if the darkness is
To be honest
I just wanna be dead already and be
Buried six feet underground
Where I can hear no noise
From any person at all

Electricity fluctuates
Darkness, light, darkness, light
And what I'm doing now
Is trying to not give a ****

Faces only remind you of
How lonely you are,
You say you've swam too far
Into the sea of your regrets
That I am your lifeboat
But didn't you hear
I sank long, long ago?

You've been searching
For a new home,
One that doesn't creak
Or shudder at night.
But homes are not people
And your voice cracks
As you point out
There's a welcome mat
By the front door
But I never answer
When you knock.

It's been a while since
I started attracting
Strangers with flashlights
To search me like
A haunted place.
I finally realized they
Were the ones that
Needed scaring away.

It's so odd to think,
You once told me
You saw beauty
In clifftops,
And I thought you
Were talking about
The view.

Grass tickling my spine
Sun kissing my face
Wind dancing with my hair
I am a child
Earth is my mother
& I crave the embrace
Of her arms, protecting me
Loving me
In a blanket of water heated by the sun

Down I fall
Into the
Deep
Deep
Deep
Of restlessness.

In vain I shall
Try to encapsulate you!
To bind you with word
Or phrase
And keep thee
Until the end of
Days.

Vainly I will try
To plant you
Deep

Down

Within this
Restorative Earth.


Untended

These thoughts’
They grow.

Blooming spectacularly
Into
Hopes
Dreams
Intentions

So deep
Down
Down
Down
I shall
Fall       
Into this             
Soil,
The root of
It
All.           
          
Passions    
Boil  ­     
Waylaying my spirit         
With
turmoil .
I shall watch you

Grow
Grow
Grow

And I
Shall
Rest
On Your
Blossoms.
The shade
of your
Great leaves
Will
            Cover
                       Me