why can't I be perfect?
why must I be flawed?
all I wish is to be exactly like you
people tell me to be myself
but to be myself is not enough
I am weak
I am nothing
I am hopeless
I cannot be myself
to be myself will end in tragedy
sadness
grief
I look up to you
I aspire to be you
but then my mind gets twisted
I become
jealous
envious
bitter
hateful
why must you be so perfect?
why must you be the "better" one?
why must you be so flawless?
why can't it be me?
what is so wrong with me?
i hate it so much

one minute you are normal
the next minute who are you?
i feel trapped
blood mixed with water
tear by tear
it is known now
who shall be the one
for it can’t be me
it has always been you

you tighten your hold
have you forgotten?
the memories
the smiles
the laughter
it is unknown to us now
who are we?
we will not be the same
strangers or friends
enemies or allies
i will stand up
but i can’t
weak and pathetic
i have to leave
but i can’t
lonely and lost
i should go
but i can’t
i want to leave
but *i can’t