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 Jul 2017 joel hansen
skyler
in a parallel universe
you never broke me
and you still speak of me
with love on your tongue

in a parallel universe
your eyes still drip with desire
begging for me to come closer
rather than never even looking my way

in a parallel universe
you still love me
as much
as i still love you

in a parallel universe
is where my heart lives
and maybe that's why i'm not over you
because in some world i still hold your heart

and in all worlds you still hold mine

s.s
 Jul 2017 joel hansen
Old Stoney
When I was younger
I used to dream
Of being older
And being so free
Now that I'm older
I started to dream
Of when I was younger
And when I was free
I traveled to a city where the buildings kissed the clouds and the streets were so loud I couldn't even think
but in the midst of all of the beautiful chaos I still managed to think of you
we weren't even talking at the time and I thought of you
I thought of how you'd admire the city with your excited eyes and squeeze my hand every time something caught your interest
I thought of how we'd walk the streets and parks for hours and just talk about every little thing
I thought of how we'd lie awake at 4am whispering sweet sleepy words
I thought of how I wished you were mine
I was in the middle of such a beautiful city
everything was so new to me
and all I wanted to do
was share it with you
-m.a
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 Jul 2017 joel hansen
RisingUp
1...2...3...4
I don't want to be underweight anymore.
My intention was never to go this far you see
But overactive self criticism got the best of me.
Determined to gain life back.
But sometimes put off track
by the illusion of control from my perfectionist mind
I sometimes find myself in a bind
My mind at war
What for?
The voice is not a choice
But recovery is
Constantly resisting the urge to restrict
So I will no longer look sick
Life is tough.
Life is rough.
But if a group of small people can change how I see
I can learn to accept just being me.
 Jul 2017 joel hansen
lex
I don't know
how I feel.

It's hard
to put a label
on what
I don't know.

So, I'll remain here
sitting
contemplating
and
crying

all over you.
 Jul 2017 joel hansen
Crimsyy
Your name tastes sour
in my mouth,
I should be breathing you in,
but I want to spit you out,
cause I'm just an afterthought,
an occasional roundabout.

You surround me
but never close enough,
we keep arguing in circles
and I've had too much

Sick of nursing
this brick in my chest,
wonder why I haven't left yet,
sick of feeding
the doubts in my head,
I think you'll be my next regret.

You let snowflakes
fall on my tongue,
am I supposed to
think that's sweet,
when your love is built
on nothing concrete
and you seem to be
a one end street?

You seem to be one for the road,
but you still haunt my sleep
and so while I toss
and turn for you,
your mind is devoid of me.
I don't know
what kind of ****
I'm going through
how could someone
make me feel so lonely
I don't know
why this stuff
made me a stone faced
I don't know
you were actually mine
or not
I don't know
why you called me today
to spread salt on my wounds
or to nurture them
I thought
I forgot you
left you
much behind myself
but today
you made me realise
my mistake
yes you were
a mistake
worst one
or a beautiful one
I've ever did
I just don't know
I don't know why
you cried on line today
do I still matter to you
you are misusing
my sentiments

congrats
you made me on my knees today
again
I wanted to say, cry, shout
louder than my senses
that LEAVE ME
but I couldn't

maybe I still love you
or maybe I don't

now I'm
standing on a boundary
Which divides a valley
and a long dug well

I don't know
Which side to jump
or to walk on this boundary only....
maybe I still love you
or maybe I don't.......
 Jul 2017 joel hansen
Rand
Dear depression
I'm writing to let you know
That I don't have anything else to give
You took away all my hope

What more do you want of me
The few breaths that I take?
They're not even for me I swear
I just don't want them to break
The ones who still care about me
Somehow you weren't able to push them away
I guess they're stronger than I'll ever be
But I don't want you to make them ache

Hurt me bruise me take my soul
But let my body here
For them , not me , I'm miserable at my best
But I can't let them live in fear

Dear depression
Please subside
We can live together
Just don't make me die
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