GreyJunebug: Favorites

I long for the heat and the rain and the green
Of the leaves as they blow in an August breeze;
With that smell of fires, and propane, and smoke, and the ocean
And the excitement of children when the fireworks light the sky.

I crave the affection of a carefree attitude,
The utter perfection of love and appreciation.
I want to listen to the sound of the days passing by
And hear my life be completed by each passing moment.

I want to lay in the grass and notice the sky,
Not for the color but for it's incredible height.
I wish I could forever remain in the clouds,
But I will surely shoot back down once September comes around.

May 2014 GreyJunebug

hemlock

May 2014 GreyJunebug

x

hemlock

i know i'll never bloom to be as lovely
as your favourite forest in the springtime,
but i hope that i can offer you something
that keeps you coming back to visit
when you need some time alone.

#love #life #want #spring

May 2014 GreyJunebug

I

May 2014 GreyJunebug

دema flutter

I

I* wept,
till my eyes were dry,
and I could feel no more.

In a statment of ,
complete numbness,
I layed in bed,
in hours,
for days,
s a d.

I wiped,
away the tears.
And my feelings ,
wouldn't stop ,
reminding me.
And those memories,
wouldn't stop,
chasing me.
And I couldn't just,
let go.

#feelings #sad #eyes #tears #bed #days #memories #chasing #stop #me #hours #dry #numb #statment

May 2014 GreyJunebug

Honesty

May 2014 GreyJunebug

Triiniity

Honesty

I'm so sick of honesty
I just want to lie here and be me
Cause the only thing I want to be
Is the thing that makes me happy
And I know that I can't be that thing
But, hell I'll keep trying
This isn't my last scene
I've got another act to go
But you're saying cut and I listen
As I’m about to, you yell no
Like which one is it?
Am I doing what’s right or what isn’t?
What I want or what you’ve written?
Well too late, what’s done is done
But you’re yelling at me for things I’ve not done
I'm a dead-shot with my words
But yours shot me dead you see
Cause I'm not missing you
And you're not missing me

May 2014 GreyJunebug

I met this girl

May 2014 GreyJunebug

Franny

I met this girl

November 28, I met this girl.
She was broken. From the bullies that struck her with their words.

We got to know eachother. I got to know her favorite color, favorite food, favorite song.

Through out the the weeks we talked, I found out how truly broken she was. How words cut like knife, how she had demons inside of her.

I also realized that I was falling for her. I was falling for a broken girl. When I myself was a broken girl.

I fought with my feelings.
I couldn't be. I wouldn't be... Gay.

I found out she liked me too.

It drove me insane. Me liking a girl? Wanting to be with a girl? It was absurd. My mom would never approve.

Months later.
We're 5 months. 5 months of her being mines, and me being hers. 5 months of tears. 5 months of laughs. 5 months of love. 5 months of hate. 5 months of two broken girls trying to fix eachother.

Can we succeed or will more months pass as the little happiness we have left disappear. And our demons strengthen.

I met this girl. She changed everything.

Blah. Idk
She's different....

#love #broken #lost #dissapointment #ugh

May 2014 GreyJunebug

∂ιαnα (part 1)

May 2014 GreyJunebug

sαndяα-αℓєxιs

∂ιαnα (part 1)

She looked twenty-one
But she was only fifteen

Trying to play with the big boys
They turned her into a dope fiend

She fulfilled the term
Being “down for the team”

Thought she had control
Until she ended up on the streets;

Selling her body
Letting strangers get knees deep

How could her parents sleep, knowing their little girl's in the streets
Getting preyed on, like a wolf to a sheep

Her skin so pale and legs so weak
*She prayed to God to die in her dreams

Part 1
(Please read Part 2)

#helpless #life #girl #drugs #weak #young #gone #fast #innocent #streets

May 2014 GreyJunebug

lust

May 2014 GreyJunebug

the existential romanticist

lust

**** you.

#love #lust