Persevere.
Patience.
Wait out the storms and sadness.
The darkness and famine.
You may not know
what you desire at this moment,
but the years throughout life
go by slowly.
You will eventually find your calling.

I lock myself
beneath layers of doors and walls
when the pain becomes terrible enough
to cause my heart to shift and tremble
in the very place it feels safe.
I may feel sheltered behind these barriers,
my being may as well.

But I must open myself up,
even though it may feel nearly impossible.
Those who want to help
are only filled with love
and will do anything and everything
to help me when I need them the most.

Those who adore me do not
deserve my abrupt departure.

Some moments
I get these terrible,
terrible thoughts.
Ones that derail my whole mindset
and set me back tenfolds.
I wander aimlessly,
looking for answers
to empty questions and doubts,
only to lose myself
in the chaos that resides
in my own body.
-It's 4am and I can't sleep.

The light may not enter today,
or tomorrow,
but throughout time
young rays will begin to grow
in the darkness of your heart,
and your heart will soften
with the warmth that comes with.

Do not blame yourself
for the lack of faith
when you do your best
to believe.
The feeling of love
will come
at the right moment.

Encased
My hands bound,
Legs tied to the ground.
I am helpless,
And my mind can have its way
With me,
Just as it pleases.

Show me
Your tortuous tendencies,
Or sporadic mercy.
I hope for the latter;
I hope for at least a speck of love this time.

I may very well attempt to escape,
But I have done as much as I can in the past,
And know most actions are futile.

There was a moment where the bindings had loosened.
I found that out when I began to love and be happy for myself,
But would tighten as soon
As I once again lost hope.

I hope to one day escape,
And gain unlimited freedom.

How do you suppose
you can capture your potential
when you speak
as if your goals
are hopeless