when i am away
the butterflies go too
the best parts disappear
and i steal them back from you

when i am away
my mind goes back to bed
but my body is still moving
just walking without a head

when i am away
i go through neon doors
mindless and wandering about
and nothing i'm looking for

when i am away
is when you like me least
but trying to fight is pointless
when you lack a sword to **** a Beast

the city was asleep
while i was awake
among myself but beside others

the milky moon watched
as i listened in
to the sound of a nearby open mic

i looked to the inky sky
only to find myself
feeling nothing but the absence of light

i felt myself waiting
and searching
for something seemingly impossible and inevitable

the streetlights blinded me
and i soaked
in my own exhaustion and loneliness fueled by the night

i told you i loved you
in a violet sea
under a setting sky

a magnificent orange
kissed your cheeks
before i could do it myself

we were intertwined
and the youthful night
lied before us

covered in our own colors
our love was even more handsome
and stirred between us

we were blind to the others
and halfway drowned in burnt sienna
when the sun had gone

we filled the empty night
painting the earth
with the color of our love

maybe if the walls are decorated
they will make me less sad
maybe when i decorate them
my mind will be focused

maybe if i draw on post-its
with shaky hands
it will make everything less jumbled
and i can breathe when i hang them
why can't i breathe?

maybe if i stay in here
and slowly suffocate
i won't have to grow up
and worry any more

maybe if i don't eat
i can be pretty and light
and i can be loved
and i can have worth

maybe when it's over
my colors will change
and i won't be crazy

my mind becomes jmulebd
and it's hurting to eat

my mind is a p uz zl e
that i can't complete

my mind feels so e m p t y
and this one's on me

my colors are different
and they live in my mind
i spent so long unaware
that these colors are mine

sometimes they are sad
and sometimes bring pain
but they cannot change
and that makes me insane

i wish they would go
and let me have peace
but i am my colors
and my colors are me

when the line was there to comfort,
and i heard you breath a sigh,
i never even had to worry
because i knew we would be fine.

when we spent the day in bed
and talked about our lives,
we became less than two
and i watched the fading lines.

when they told us it was melodrama
and i felt our lips entwine,
everything had disappeared
in this little room of mine.

when you were on the other side
and i was left alone,
i never could stop needing you
because you were my home.