When I was 7
I was watching Seinfeld with my dad
I asked him where they were
And he answered
New York
The city seemed so huge

When I was 17
I had my first panic attack
I was always watching *** and the city to calm down
New York
seemed huge
and that made me feel less claustrophobic

When I was 27
I went to
New york
The expectations were high
I was so surprised
when I felt suffocated
Cause it didn't seem huge anymore

What do you do when New York feels small?

Everybody tells me to leave
before it gets worse
'What would you do
if our rolls were reversed'

I'd tell you to get out
cause you deserve so much better
'So why do you keep going back
like one of those annoying chain letters'

Well, I'd rather get a little taste of passion
than no flavor at all
And if I want someone on top of me
I have no one else to call

And when I'm dealing with my selfhating mind
I need someone to silence it
I feel so desperately lonely without him
Even though he treats me like ****

Somehow I prefer getting hurt
over being my own best friend
I know I'm better off without him
Yet I'm terrified that it will end

If I sit here with no one near
When the loneliness is my biggest fear
And my cheek is burnt from that shameful tear
I reach for a can of beer

If I don't feel that I can shine
When I sit here looking for a sign
And I can't find anything that will make me feel fine
I reach for a glass of wine

If I want someone to come
When I want to act real dumb
And I want to shut my thoughts up and feel real numb
I reach for a bottle of ***

If I want to cloud up my brain
When I want to stop feeling pain
And I can't see a way to make my feelings drain
I reach for a glass of champagne

If I want to have a ball
When I have no one to call
And I feel that I'm about to fall
I reach for my best friend - alcohol

Meet me at 6 by the table of stone
I've got 24 beers that I can't drink alone
Catch the sunset with me while we share a cigarette
Exchange some loving words that we'll soon forget
Mosquitos and bumblebees all over the place
Wipe off the drunken tears from your face
You've only loved him for a month, you'll get over him soon
You'll be loving someone else by tomorrow afternoon
Enjoy this night with me before we get too old
And all that is left is a story to be told
Ah, sweet youth, you went away too fast
Even though you were ******, we always had a blast
Rest in peace, teenage me, I kind of miss you
But to be honest I'm also glad that we're through

Tonight we're having a big feast
in the great city of sin
I'm about to unleash the beast
Let this party for players begin

The soft, green cloth beneath my fingers
The shiny deck of cards
The joy when the dealer bust still lingers
Wont you please send my regards

The tingling inside when the Ace says hello
The kick when the King joins in
The Queen is also welcome to the show
And the Jack can bring his twin

Race doesn't matter at this gathering
Both blacks and reds look swell
When diamonds and spades are scattering
You can invite hearts and clubs aswell

The bets are getting higher and higher
My wallet is getting thin
I hardly ever get what I desire
Cause the house will always win

At first I thought I had control
But suddenly I was unstable
I had lost my entire bank roll
At the end of the Black Jack table

I hope you accidently **** in front of your date
I hope when you're on a diet you're still gaining weight
I hope your red shirt dyes your white clothes pink
I hope when you're at the bar you always get the wrong drink
I hope you forget the words whenever you hold a speech
I hope there's no spots left when you go to the beach
I hope you run out of matches when you need a smoke
I hope nobody laughs at your funniest jokes
I hope that when you shave you'll quickly get all furry
I hope you miss the train everytime you're in a hurry
I hope your fruits and vegetables gets bad really quick
I hope your one night stand hasn't showered when you choke on his ****

A trailer built by vikings
it can never be
sold
The porch is just
some broken
old
wooden pallets
The walls are green with
mold
Spiders hide under
the cushions
And it's either
too hot or too
cold
But if you are there to
hold
me
I wouldn't wanna be
anywhere else
in the world.