It was every late night,
Every rising sun,
Every memory of you're love
Every second, every outcome
I felt empty but you filled my soul
I felt alone, but you offered a hand to hold.

The perfect surprise, the unexpected happy ending
The promises that were kept
A person worth forever friending

*I write this to you even though I'm sad and know you're in the sky
I miss you every day...I still wish I could of just said one last goodbye.

I'm now in a position,
To embark on a journey that terrifies me, leaving me sleepless without a dream
Making the blood pressure rise
Allowing my mind to start to believe..
As we grow older, wishing on promised luck and wanting to achieve
Formulating our individuality, searching for ignorance to please,
Paying amends to our regretful past, mistaking our wants from our needs.
All while only healing our flaws, when the wounds start to bleed.
I can't aim to please,
No, not anymore..
How can I want to be rich, when internally I'm morally poor
With goals I talk about, when I never played enough to score
With my eyes on the rearview mirror, when there is so much more to look forward...to.
A story we all have, hard times we've all been through
It's how you write you're ending,
The outcome of your book only can  come from you.
**"Never erase, never stop writing your story, never give up on what you do."

Flashing lights...in a darken space where the ferns barely get enough light to grow, where the chill from earth's cold places a frozen morning dew underneath the clouds below
As I aspire to be like the great ones, like William Yates & Edgar Allan Poe
I know...better yet I understand
That you need to see through the eyes of humanity as you walk a mile in the shoes of another man.
Enter a woman's heart and feel her struggle, witness her fight, of the constant stereotype! As she is belittled for having more to cover up while enduring men's selfish acts of disrespect, somehow all being politically incorrect.
We must please in order to appease the guilty conscious that follows our pain's stricken past. The harpoon that killed mermaids, the blood of karma that ever lasts.
The idea of peace, the mindset of tranquility, the idea of belief, the Hard work, god given abilities...the power to withstand evils wrath...ignorance doesn't grow on trees, grow your roots with purity, and your leaves will grow strong and forever last.

Aye wassup man, how you been?
I know I haven't come and visit in a long time
I guess I've been caught up in this crazy world of mine
Might as well share a piece of mind
Mom and dad are doing just fine
JJ finally staying outta trouble and no longer in the acts of crime
While jannette pregnant &
Lil ray ray about soon turn nine
**** I ain't fine
I gotta lotta stress that leaks outta my cracked skull
My vivid imagination starting to become slighty dull
I can't hold on to this life, it's hard for me to handle the horns of the bull

Seems since you've left tragedy took your place
Mixed emotions with every woman
Smiles replaced by a dying face
Lost in translation, can't seem to put my words in the right place
Cussing out of anger and applyin pressure to prey, just to see how much pressure they could take!
I'm a monster, I'm pretending to heal the burns of my devilish flames
I'm done with the idea of change
I promise ya *** I'd always stay the same!
It's not you who I blame!
I just am a savage lion who stuck in a cage
Placed in an internal rage!

I just want you to come home
The needles took my bestfriend
While temptation wouldn't leave him alone!
6 years and now I'm grown..still questions linger in my mind "could I have stopped him!?" Living in a world full of the unknown
Taking a risk by writing this and finally speaking my honest truth
Thinking of the sight of you letting the gun shot barrel loose
Close my eyes, put the headphones on and put my sarrows in a world sound of rhythmic mute.
I told you imma write my story and make us a star
I'll allow the world to know you, read my pain...lift the book from my heart and see my open scars.
Prayers as I look up to the stars.

This dark sky got me thinking & wishing for you
This candle burning slow represents all we've been through
The numbness of this colddd feeling
Longgg healing
I'm not sure if I'll be alright
I can't stand the fact your heart for me doesn't beat the same
Remember like it was yesterday when you beautifully recited your name..
My eyes have gotten soo heavy
I just waaaasn't ready
This pain's just weighing me down.

My mind's in the fire,
I can feel the memories burn
I should of listened when she said "heartbreaks the only way you'll learn"
I hope these words find you..
I hope one day you understand..
I should've loved all your flaws
(Piano) I should've
(Light piano) risked it all, jumped into your love...(piano) should've been a better man. (Piano ending) (tears on the page) (ohh) a better man.

Talk to me baby*
You said you adored my confidence, but now I'm a bit to cocky
I'm just knockin out the bad qualities
So no one can stop me
Keep talkin babe
Tell me you don't want me and I'll write you a song called "pretty lil liar"
As you look into my eyes and see all that you admire
As I lay it down and give ya all you desire.
Keep talking baby..
Girl, This ain't no comfort inn
Let your arms travel through this Persian rug as the fur warms ya skin
Yes, yes, Babe!
Oh lawd girl, bust it one more time and bring it back
And make sure you don't fall in love
I don't have the time for that
I'm chasing money and a dream
Ain't no questioning that
I can feel my time coming
Progress the essence, ain't no questioning that.
I know you want it babe
Keep whispering sweet nothings all through my ear as you sit on my lap
This liquor numbs the *******, as the crown places all my kings on the map.
(And I'll die for my team!)
It's easy to find a bad girl, my question is "where all the good ones at?"
End of conversation. (I Walk away)
#GCK
A.$.O.F||

Her colors I start to blend, painting a woman's masterpiece
Her heart pumps honesty, while her soul condones peace.
A couple more paint strokes to form her ambitious eyes
To create her sincere integrity, to mold her intelligent mind
Sculpting her genuine smile,
adding detail to an aura so kind.

Women, are a beautiful master piece
That can't be rushed, it must be worked on over time.
*& when I get one... I will paint her forever. I will never stop helping her create her design, I will mix her love with my passion...I will make this precious masterpiece truly mine.