When the thought of a simple call
To the bank,
Or the doctor,
Leaves you in tears.

When working up the courage to call
Your best friend you just texted,
Or the pizza place down the road,
Leaves you with acrobatic elephants in your stomach.

When getting up on time
To go to class,
Or your job interview,
Leaves you nauseous.

When you sit there ten minutes later thinking
Why does this happen every time?
Or why can't I be normal?
Leaves you feeling like a failure.

Just say "hello"
Nope, that'll leave you wanting to *****.
Smile to them
Nope, that'll leave you shaking and sweating.
Give a wave
Nope, that'll leave you on the floor rocking back and forth.

At the end of the day
When all you can think about
Is how you were so terrified you couldn't move,
Or that you just want it to end and go away,
But knowing that it'll just keep happening

When all they can say to you is:
Just do it already.
Why do you have to make things so difficult?
Get over it!
Can't you ever act normal?
As you learn to hate yourself just a bit more
Each and every day.
As you slowly fall back
Into a downward spiral of depression.

She was really creative

just like me

But the sparkle in her eyes was hard to see

It was obvious she wanted to follow her dreams

But she told me, dear life is not what it seems

How am I supposed to become this star?

I am not you, I can only go so far.

I put my head in my hands because I felt her despair

as an afterthought I didn’t want my actions to give her a scare

I changed my stance,

I gave her a glass and I told her

LOOK, this is as FULL as YOU

You are filled with a vital substance too!

I came from nothing, did you know that?

No you didn’t because I do not disclose the facts.

The BIGGEST fact is what I will tell you now,

is that YOU are ME,

we are one somehow.

You are the voice that told me no

but something stronger told me

GO

You are right this life is not always what it seems

which is what propelled me to chase and capture my dreams!

You've had to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders your whole life. It's always been up to you to fix things, to make everything right, and correct others mistakes. You've had to put up with so much. You've always put others first instead of  taking care of your self. You do your best to be a good person. You try your hardest not to lose faith but it's so hard.  You wonder why God would put you through so much, or why he would allow bad things to happen to you. Well, I know how you feel. I have been through all of this, and wondered the same thing. It didn't make any sense to me? If God wants us to be happy, why does he let these bad things happen? I beleve it's because although God wants us to be happy, he also wants us to be humble.  We will never fully understand why he does what he does. But i do understand that from suffering comes humility.  Humility teaches us to be humble. All of the bad things that have happened in my life, have taught me to never take a single breath for granted. To always cherish what God has given me. I have learned to see the good that evolves from the bad. I believe that God has a plan for all of us. A specific road that he wants us to be on, and sometimes when something bad happens, it's God leading us back to that road. Maybe whatever it was, was leading you astray. I have learned to thank God for my bad days as well as my good. Because I know that without the bad days, I could never truly appreciate the good ones.  Never give up hope. Never lose faith. God doesn't give us more than we can handle.

I have hit rock bottom on many occasions,
But he always lifts me back up.
As bad as things may get,
I will never lose my faith.
You can take away everything from me,
But you can not take my faith.
Faith to me means trust.
No matter what happens, no matter how bad things may be, I will forever trust that God has a plan for me. Everything happens for a reason.