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Sep 2020 · 618
shades
d Sep 2020
every colour of the rainbow reminds me of you
my love
I cant get you out of my head
violet oh violet
that dark night sky
the stars you made me see
the love you made me feel
blue as I am
when all hope was lost
the misery and helplessness
that great anguish
red why red
rage, eruptions
fury as such
like we never knew we could possess
white pure white
how heavens seem
angels and God
gave me what I needed
my peace at last
I can't get you out of my head
and you tell me how much you love it
Sep 2020 · 232
Scared
d Sep 2020
Growing up, I was the heartbreaker. I knew what it felt like to have boys behind me, many boys.
I was also the heartbroken one once, but only one time. I didn't know what I was getting myself into, but I dived right in, blindfolded.
Why would I not?
It's not every day that you meet a boy with stars in his eyes and honey dripping off his words.
He seemed perfect to me. Seemed.
Perfect because he was the one boy who saw me for who I was. Was.
I was scared because all this was new to me. I didn't trust myself not to trust him. He was a charming boy. Boy.
All my life I'd been taught to save myself for a man, but instead, I let go of myself and loved a boy. Loved.
And that led to my demise.
Does anyone ever really forget their first heartbreak?
Sep 2020 · 160
Help me
d Sep 2020
Some days I wake up confused. And lost.
Sometimes I feel like I'd just been crying. And I feel so because I know so. I know because I feel, the dried-up tear tracks running down the side of my face that hits the pillow.
Why was I crying? Why am I crying? What do I want?
I think I want meaning. I know I want a distraction. I think I know I want to let it all out.
Everything's a distraction, I'll admit. You're lifting me up mentally but I can also feel you dragging me down.
But I'm used to this and it's all way too familiar to me. Not a warm-and-cozy kinda familiar, an I've-been-cold-for-so-long-that-my-heart-is-frozen kinda familiar.
Can you figure me out? Because I can't.
Tell me, am I pretending, or trying to hide, or pretending to try and hide?
These songs I hear in my head, do you hear them too? You know, I can't help but sing along.
Inhabiting my body, possessing my mind, flowing forth from my mouth, and the mouth of those without an identity of their own.
At the end of the day,
I know who I am, I know what I am.
I am afraid.
I am afraid of myself.
I am afraid of the power I may possess and I am afraid of the power that may possess me.
Poetry was always like a means of escape to me. I used to pour my heart out to pages and pages at a time. Now, in a place where I simply cannot bring myself to write, or feel, anything anymore, I revisit times when my most raw thoughts were taken off my mind and placed on crumpled paper instead.
Sep 2020 · 686
Countdown
d Sep 2020
They say that in the final 30 seconds of your life, you see either the  best moments, or the entire thing flash before your eyes. I couldn't really differentiate between the two;
Thirty. One of the most memorable performances of my life, the day you caught my eye from amongst the crowd. Twenty-seven. That day my friends and I hung out at the pool and laughed so much that I nearly died. Twenty-three. When we were at your place and I cut and colored my hair, all in your bathroom sink. Fifteen. All of us, sleep deprived, but lazily singing and dancing on the pavement nonetheless because school was out. Eleven. My hands hold yours. Your lips hold mine. Six. The final sunset I'd ever witness. Three. Your eyes. Zero.
Aug 2018 · 636
Façade
d Aug 2018
Why is it that even if someone breaks my heart I'll take them back? You could hurt me over and over but I'll be holding the door wide open the next time, no matter how much I cry or how angry I am, I'll forgive it all for a chance at the good times. People call me strong but actually I am so weak I cannot support myself, I act so fake like nothing hurts me at all but inside I struggle to breathe as I am drowning in my own hatred, I cry and try to stop but everyone thinks it's a joke since I'm happy the rest of the time, I write down my feelings which are true in the form of poetry but everyone thinks it is just an expression so they don't worry.

That is both an advantage and disadvantage of being a writer, I could write all my deepest and most sincere thoughts, and everyone will think it's merely a beautiful poem.

Is it not?
d Aug 2018
My heart hurts and everything seems wrong.
Tears stream down my face right as time is frozen.
And you're the cause, I hate you for that.
The years I've spent hating you for letting our love die is now something I deeply regret.
I finally get that you sacrificed yourself just so I could be happy.
You let your heart break and shatter completely just so mine could heal.
But you also made me suffer something worse than death.
And that makes me hate you.
You let me cry and cry and cry for so long just so I wouldn't suffer, but that was my suffering.
I hate you for that too.
You didn't stop me when I yelled names and profanities at your face repeatedly as I in the hallway for 'cheating' on me, and people thought I was crazy.
I hated you a lot for that.
But mostly I hate you because no matter how much I try to forget you or our love, I can't.
You did everything just so I'd forget or hate you, but now you realize that all that suffering was for nothing.
I love you,
And I always will.
But we both don't deserve this.
Aug 2018 · 189
poetess
d Aug 2018
Write sad poems that'll make people regret the aftermath of the choices they never made. Write heartbreak poems that'll make people reminisce about the fast-paced relationships they never had. Write joyous poems that'll make people rejoice in winning the tournament they never took part in. Write love poems that'll make people want to go profess their love to a person they've never met. Write inspirational poems that'll make people want to go fight for a cause they were never a part of.
Write poems that'll make the reader feel what you felt when you wrote them. As a writer, that will be your biggest achievement- making people feel emotions they've never felt before, except for when they read your works.
Aug 2018 · 280
Heartbreak
d Aug 2018
People used to call me heartless, you know? I never really understood why.
When I punched that girl across her face for trying to pick a fight with me, what was I? Heartless?
When I broke up with my boyfriend at the time because I fell out of love with him, what was I? Heartless?
When I kissed the guy I knew my best friend liked because she stole my first love, what was I? Heartless?
I was so confused.
I myself started to doubt whether I had a heart or not, because of how often I'd hear people call me names like those.
Although, when I saw the two of you together, I knew for sure that I had a heart.
Because I could feel it breaking.
Jul 2017 · 357
where are you?
d Jul 2017
even though you were bad for me, i couldn't help it.
you were the cigarette between my teeth.
the alcohol that burnt my throat.
the gamer that played my heart.
and the snake that tempted my hunger.
but, you were also
the rainbow after my storm.
the moonlight during my night.
my angel in heaven.
and my pill when i was in pain.
you were my one addiction.
and then, you were gone.
even though it was good for me, it also brought me down.
and i found myself
whispering your name over and over again
like a prayer that would be heard by a god
i knew was there somewhere.
and like my favorite song
that i'd sang all day and all night
a million times
but i'd somehow forgotten the lyrics of.
and it drove me up the wall
until I was deemed nothing but crazy.
and they'd dismissed you
as a mere figment of my imagination
you as someone
and our love as something
i'd made up.
i was to be alone for once.
and as i sat thinking in the darkness of midnight,
i knew,
i missed you,
i loved you,
i loved you,
i missed you.
and i still miss you.
and i still love you.
d Jun 2017
we were laying on the grass during a chilly night, you staring at the sky where millions of stars shone in a way too beautiful to describe, and me thinking about what we were.
i'd been heartbroken many times before but this time, i kept convincing myself that you were different.
and as you intertwined your fingers with mine, gazing into my eyes with love, i knew that like the million stars which we used to wish on that were dashing and dividing in the night sky, i'd gladly let my heart be broken by you
d May 2017
waking up at around 3 am with only some alcohol to keep us awake as we go on bike rides on the highway, my hair was flying but it somehow didn’t bother me. i used to be a perfectionist but after meeting you i realized that life was too small to worry about whether a single strand of hair was misplaced or not. my arms were outstretched like a bird whose wings were trapped for so long and longed to find freedom. no one was supposed to drive while drunk or while sleepy but here we were, both, and breaking possibly every law known to mankind. but we didn’t care, we never did. the same way how we didn’t care that our love would end in heartbreak. ‘we’ were just supposed to be a pass time but in between, somewhere, somehow, we fell in love.
and just how we broke the rules that night, we broke our rule that we’d never fall in love.
for every love story would end in heartbreak, and so did ours.
May 2017 · 420
love & lust
d May 2017
even before the 2 minutes that their lips came crashing down on each others they know it's meant to be
because even though she tasted like ***** and vanilla
and he tasted like cigarettes and cherry cola
they feel right at home with each other
and that's different for both of them because they're not perfect
and that's okay
but this feels like blissful oblivion
and they're both bad for each other and make the other person vulnerable
and they know it
but there's nothing they want to change
because this is better than any moment of their lives
and nothing was more perfect
even though it was almost 4 am
and they were strangers to each other who only met hours before at the club
but they don’t care
because their eyes locked
and they couldn’t take it off each other
and everyone said that they’d never last because they were the same, all leather jackets and rebellious and that alike repelled
but they’d disagreed
because they were too much in what seemed like love;
but he left her
and was soon behind someone else
and her heart broke and shattered
like how an intricate vase which used to be beautiful would
and she promised herself she’d never be vulnerable
and that’s why she’s got no identity now
but she doesn’t mind
and she prays,
oh she prays every night
that when she dies and goes to heaven,
she’ll meet him there
because she admits that she’ll gladly suffer heartbreak and hell in the afterlife
just for those 2 minutes of love like she’d never known back.

— The End —