I want to call you, I do
But I have so little time alone
I have shreds here, an hour there
Never any unbroken by needs
I just want to sit here a little longer
A time of quarantine, a house to hold us
We are lucky, I know this, I feel it, yet
I grow smaller, I feel eaten alive
Am I even my self still?
Do I still have a name of my own?
I might find one if I can summon the energy to
Drive, walk, run away from this house so full
For a day or an afternoon, and don't
Lecture me right now because I've tried
And failed fifty times this month alone
I know how selfish I am, but it's innate
I can't abandon the qualities I don't like
This is my life, a prix fixe menu
You have to take me as I am, and so do I,
It's just life