SeaChel

SeaChel Feb 2018

I want to smother your lips

with my own,

to kiss you so hard

your lungs beg for air,

and spots dance in your vision

like fireworks on the Fourth.

I want you to forget.

Forget your name

and where you came from

because in that moment

it will only be

us.

#romance #kiss #love #lust #valentine #valentinesday

SeaChel Feb 2018

Untitled

When I care,

I care too much;

smothering the flame

before it can even think

of becoming a fire.

Yet once out,

those feelings vanish

along with the smoke.

#love #flame #fire #smoke #apathetic #infatuation

SeaChel Feb 2018

The Two Most Common, Three-Worded Lies

I am fine.

I love you.

#love #depression #anxiety #lies

SeaChel Feb 2018

Why?

I've had people ask before,
"What was that scar from?"
then a,
"Why did you do it?"

Why,
why,
why,
why,
why?

That question mulls itself
over and over
in my mind like a mantra,
until my brain becomes dizzy.

Why did I?
Why am I?

To feel?
To distract?
To numb?

I have no direct answer,
only a question for their question.

Then, I realize
this might be the only thing
I am completely unsure of
about myself.

#hurt #pain #selfharm #scars #why #questions #answers

SeaChel Feb 2018

Untitled

There's something

s t r a n g e

hiding deep within my soul.

It hums with an otherworldly vibration,

a foreign frequency,

and if you listen closely,

you can hear it whisper,

"Come home."

After a reading I was given, I was told that my soul is a very young one (contradicting previous belief). The bruja, explained to me that I came from another realm; sent to learn about humans and their behavior. Everything she explained and different things - personal things I never have told another soul - she explained about myself, resonated so deeply that it shook me. I always felt there was something off, some part of the picture of my life that I did't understand, but now it's clear.

#soul #alien #otherworldly #foreign #reincarnation

SeaChel Feb 2018

Somedays

even the things I love most

cannot give me the will

to pick myself up

and that is okay.

#depression #anxiety #dark #itsokay #trigger

SeaChel Feb 2018

Venus in Aquarius

I have this
increasingly annoying
affliction with affection.

I'm sorry if my
insularity doesn't comprehend your sincerity,
I've just had the actions of others be
catalytic to the inner cynic
in me.

I try to push myself to feel
an inclination, but it ends in agitation
instead.

I've realized it's
unfortunately an idiosyncrasy
of mine, though I hope to someday come across a
carrefour in life where I'll find my paramour
who will understand.

Testing out rhyming/near rhymes/play on words. Feedback is always appreciated, especially since I'm out of my regular style with this. I actually took some time on this.. and by that I mean more than the usually 5-10 minutes I'll spend writing something. (So, probably 13 minutes for this ;] )

#rhyme #affection #aloof #aquarius #venus #amateur