i
have
lost
you
to the world of darkness
and the broken

i
have
lost
you
in a whirlwind
of pain and misery

i
have
lost
you
to reality
we tried so hard to escape

i
have
lost
you
and
*you have left me
in this pit hole of agony

dear little girl,
you have a purpose.

you are to bloom like flower,
you are to shine bright,
and you will become something great
for you are special.

i know you have heard this,
over
and over
and over again.

but i am telling you this again,  
because maybe this time around,
it will sink in.
maybe this time around,
your mind will finally grasp the idea.
and maybe this time around,
it will be etched in that delicate heart of yours.

In this world you're
either the writer
or the reader;
the creator or
the receiver.

And school never worked
out too-well
for me.

I know your talking about me
I can hear it..
I don't like it
but you do it anyway
you judge
yes I was wrong at times
but who are you to say
..oh she was wrong..

I know what you have done ..
but I never judged you
I never told anyone
and you know that
I did that because you asked
now that I have asked you
you stab me in the back

who are you and why are you doing this
I thought I knew you...
but now
I know I don't

this is why I don't let people in

She cries late
                  every night
     Turns off all the
                           lights
         Sits in bed
bawls
             her eyes out
      in the dark
Cutting out pieces
      of her heart
No one can see
                          the scars
           of her sewing
back up her chest
       Soon she will be
             an empty shell
        Hopefully
                    putting her soul to rest
If her heart
                    is no longer there
It can't get broken,
              right?
If no one can see
                          the tears
Then she never cried,
                     right?

His love
is the winter  
solstice, mounting  
the top of her world
where  
her love  
is the summer  
equinox, embracing  
the basis  
of his

We are expected to do great things
To save the world
Even when our own lungs
Heave though each breath
Like they're ******* in water
Instead of air

Know this
Sometimes it is enough
To close your eyes each night
And simply say
You made it through the day
Alive again.

Too many times
I fall in love
With things
I cannot
Call
Mine