I lied
In all of my time
In every painful moment
I cried wolf inside my mind

I swore that the pain was
unbearable
I was sure that I had felt it all
and me being me

So utterly selfish
So undeniably vain
So wrapped up in myself
I was positive

That I had felt it all

I never thought I would feel
What I felt
On that hazy night
When you told me that

My pain
was shared
and oh god
Oh god

If I spent various nights
With hot tears and nauseating guilt
If I spent days wondering if my mother
would still love me

If I wasting years of my life
brooding
over something that I had every right to mourn about
oh dear

That means
That you did too
And how on this forsaken planet

How
how could any god let you
******* YOU

feel the pain
That only terrible people like
I
Should feel?

If that's the God
That eveyone worships
I want
no part

I don't understand
How a pair
so Utopian
so astounding
so overwhelmingly faultless
could be such a

distant miss