Brandi R Lowry

Jul 16

I'll be your loudest cheerleader
Even when the stands are empty
Be it with or without merit
I love you unconditionally

My life, I would gladly lay to rest
If doing so would preserve your own
To pull you from the depths of Hell
Without regret, I would sell my soul

Yet as my armour begins to rust
Exposing my open wounds
I realize I'm no longer strong enough
To carry us both through

Have courage to climb higher each day
Than you did the day before
Remember how to use your wings
When you're finally ready to soar

Your feet will never leave the ground
If you haven't the faith to leap
But you can bounce from star to star
If you're not afraid to dream

Be not defeated by trials you'll face
Silence the rhetoric of loathing and grief
Realize that through the ugliest of pain
We become our greatest masterpiece

I pray you find your way back home
With the map I made for you
My only wish for you, sweet child
Is that you find joy in all you do

A poem for my children

#children #kids #son #daughter #love #unconditional #lead #fly #soar #nest

Aug 2018

The Visitor

I rest in the belly of rage
Overwhelmed and a bit dismayed

Unable to speak
Without spewing venom
I seek shelter
From my mental asylum

This torture is but my own
Come one
Come all
Then be gone

Let me rest
Until I return again

This beast is not my friend.

These are just a few of my emotions during ***... Sorry guys...needed to vent

#venting #rage #*** #emotions #torture #psychological #female

May 2018

Happy Heavenly Birthday

Happy belated birthday
My dearly missed friend.
I'm sure you had a heavenly party
That I regretfully didn't attend.

I couldn't think of you yesterday
It still hurts to say your name.
They say time will heal the ache
But it lingers yet the same.

I say a silent prayer for your soul
And push the thought away.
Time is only a theif.
It isn't any easier today.

Dedicated to my late best friend, Amanda Gresser

#loss #pain #goodbye #birthday #heaven #suicidesucks

Jan 2018

Prayer for the Somber Soul

I lie awake each night
Long after you're asleep
I envy your restful slumber
Through salty eyes I weep

As the air thickens
I struggle just to breathe
Bowing my head in sorrow
I pray so desperately

Grant my mind solace
If my thoughts go astray
Allow my soul to carry on through grief courageously

Protect me from the pain
That haunts my every thought
Awaken my restless spirit
If my dreams become too dark

Make my heart resilient
If it shatters painfully
Teach me about patience
While I gather it piece by piece

Allow me the courage
To assemble it again
As I try not to crush
The fragile pieces in my hand

If my strength grows weary
And I tremble at the knees
Hold my hand and steady me
So I stumble gracefully

Writing this poem helped me through one of the darkest hours of my life. Out of pain, we can create much beauty. We just need to listen to the soul. I hope it helps you see the beauty through your pain.

#memories #pain #feelings #love #falling #grace #pray #prayers #spirit #courage

Aug 2017

The Calm

As echoes and whispers
Begin to change
And sound and silence
Become the same
I look back
From where I came
And find solice
In everything

#calm #peace #love #introspect #pride #being #patient #chaos

Sep 2016

If You Were a Dream

If you were the moon
I'd lie awake with you each night
And help you battle the sun
For your place in the sky.

If you were a soft breeze
I would chase the wind
Just to feel your breath
As the air caressed my skin.

If you were a dream
I would never want to awaken again.

#love #dream #moon #breath #relationship #longing #wind

Apr 2016

Sleep

Dear me,
Why can't you sleep?
Does the darkness trouble thee?

As your mind chases grief
Do you struggle just to breathe?

Dear me,
You must go to sleep
Life won't stop for you to weep

Dry your tears gracefully
And smile for the whole world to see

Dear Me,
Are you asleep?
Did you fall to your knees in agony?

Hide the nightmares that you keep
Tomorrow will come peacefully

Dear Me,
You must stay asleep
Quiet the chaos and stifle the screams

Silence the demons
That invade your dreams

Dear me,
You must not sleep
Or life may pass too quickly.

Rouse from your clouded lucidity
And awaken now...

It was only a dream

Dear Me,
Don't fall asleep

#love #depression #life #regret #pain #sleep #insomnia #guilt #lostlove #trouble