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260 · Dec 2018
A promise to a girl
kyle Shirley Dec 2018
Long time ago I broke a promise to a girl
The rain has reminded me ever since
Each drop is a memory shard
When we had our last dance
The old house with a deck of cards
Our kiss in the rain
The stacks of movies on the window pane
Years since I've seen that girl
Many years it's rained
Some say the old me has yet to change
kyle Shirley Aug 2017
Morose thoughts cloud my mind and judgment seems grim.
I lay in my bed sulking while I drink this gin,
Pedal dances of our shadows block my bleak mind.
I am stuck on fast forward without you, griping onto rewind.
The vulnerable drive in the dark abyss,
The drive is long and silent
Searching for my sunset happiness.
Won't let go
258 · Oct 2015
Letting go
kyle Shirley Oct 2015
Love lost is beauty found.

Her happiness is all I want.

My love for her is still profound.

My memories she will taunt.

Down the road ill finally be happy

I dream she still smiles,

Although the day has been ******

My poetry about her drives me miles.
258 · Jul 2015
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kyle Shirley Jul 2015
Thinking about writing a book, anybody want to see me do this? Repost or  share.. The more likes and views the more ill believe its a good idea.
257 · Jun 2017
A flash...
kyle Shirley Jun 2017
The things that we love the most  in this world are the things that are taken from us too soon
kyle Shirley Nov 2017
It pulled over me,
this rush of pure emotion.
Stronger then a roaring fire or a chilling breeze from a hurricane.
The feeling she brings me,
I thank God for my unanswered prayers.
She is this powerful gift.
I am grateful for her.
She found the ***** in my armor
She struck my heart
With furious speed,
And this elegant dance we share
I hope
Is endless...
255 · Sep 2017
Dead to me.
kyle Shirley Sep 2017
I saw you,
for the first time since we parted ways.
I saw you with him and I felt at peace.
You deserve him.
He can make you smile and give you that clean slate at happiness that all my broken promises couldn't deliver.
He makes you happy.
I should let go.
I need to finally be at rest myself,
just know I'll always love you,
and never stop.
Everything I am,
everything I have
will always be yours.
My love for you is endless, every night on a blue moon ill light a candle and put it in my window, for if you ever need to find your way home, ill show you the way.
254 · Mar 2018
Kalamazoo starlight
kyle Shirley Mar 2018
She must know how i feel when my time under the Kalamazoo sun has finally reached its purpose.
That when the end is in sight
the tears that fall are the last memories of my love for her.
With each drop comes happiness
cloaked in a blanket of melancholy
streaming down my face.
That when she looks up at the star lit sky searching for the awnsers in her life,
she sees my shooting star, finally making her wish come true.

This love never changes
         This love cannot be broken
                  This love is endless
.
Not a day goes by I'm not reminded of our time together, not a day goes by I don't shed at least one tear for lost love.
kyle Shirley Dec 2017
Soft jazz warms my cold heart as love begins to fill my vains.
Thick, bold, and beautiful love loosens these lips as i spill every notion, and flirtation she throws my way.
A pedal dance plays intertwining these two lost souls, it's been life times since they have gotten to dance.*
My eyes awake, i gasp for air for I have found life's calling. *Bathing in loves embrace soothes every wrong I ever did.
kyle Shirley Dec 2017
When my life goes amok your name drifts into my head. The what ifs rush to conclusions.
It's more than I miss you it's I'm lost without you.
Life has been going at my pace, but dull ever since you left.
I salvage a "relationship", it's more of a charity case at this point.
Trying to right a bit of the wrongs till karma catches up with me.
I see you with him and it brings joy into my life, it's true what they say, if you love them let them go... I just wish your freedom came from me.
It spend the next 50 years of my life making a time machine to right my wrongs but I know at the end of days... You will find him...
248 · Aug 2017
~Gods test~
kyle Shirley Aug 2017
She must have been God's perfect gift to me.
Too young and ******* it up.
She was that kind of woman that you meet too early in your life.
testing, if you are willing to give up your illusion of happiness for what is truly bliss.
I failed.
She is this Majestic, esoteric, breeze that enters your life in a blur.*
She would make you learn how to feel and give life meaning,
but can swiftly exit without warning if you choose to ***** it up.
Not a day goes by  i dont think about you dana.
kyle Shirley Jun 2019
Her voice is all I heard
our outlook for us is blurred
It's the road to travel and meet you is far
Yet this connection we have is bizzare
Your cute, funny and so smart
Knocked me off my feet from the start

You make me smile it's all warm and fuzzy
Can't wait till some day you call me lovey
It's fast, this pace we have, I know
But like swimmers we brace for undertow

One chance is all I need
I'll be your shining knight on his steed
Rushing to your beck and call
I'll be there for when we both fall...
242 · Mar 2018
Red Roses to the door
kyle Shirley Mar 2018
I didn't just fall in love with you,
it wasn't as elegant as that.
I tripped,
stumbled and bumbed my head.
when I awoke I saw heaven staring at me.
I heard a voice of grace
whisper a loving melody.
You make my body ache and shake
Your the perfect cup of coffee to start my day
Your the bed I come to carry out my Sundays
Your the childhood memory of a tire swing
You are my super nova,
my rain drops bathing in a puddle
The sun to my moon.
There will also be me in the story of you.
The behind the scenes
No rewind button
Just a fast forword screen.
239 · Jan 2018
Burned tears
kyle Shirley Jan 2018
I want you to notice when I'm not around.
Would it take for me to **** myself
Or to scream till you can't hear sound?
I'm lost,
inching closer to the edge of the abyss,
where insanity lingers,
escaping this crisis.
My loyatly to love has been betrayed
Emotions set aside,
feelings have been frayed.
Torched agony
With sinful tears
These winged serpents carry me though life
Alone I'll be for many years.
237 · May 2017
Broken love
kyle Shirley May 2017
I can let go, but I will never forget.
237 · Mar 2017
Note to self
kyle Shirley Mar 2017
I'm sorry* you loved the wrong person growing up.
I'm sorry you didn't realize what love was when it was too late.
I'm sorry that your younger self ****** things up for you now.
I'm sorry you couldn't get out of your own way.
I'm sorry for all the wrongs you did in the past and how hard you must be on yourself to correct them.
I'm sorry for all the tears.
I'm sorry for the sleepless nights.
And most of all...
I'm sorry for your insecurities
236 · Jun 2017
Attention whore.
kyle Shirley Jun 2017
I don't want to wait for all these hoes ******* around with these certain type of men getting their own heart broken, getting knocked up and expecting us good men to pick up these broken pieces, shattered self-esteem, trust issues and dealing with your baby daddy because you allowed him to beat you without saying anything because you loved him and it was your "fault". Listen ladies if you'd pick the good man, the one that may have not been the most muscular, or had the perfect tan. The guy that no one looked at instead of the guy all the women flock to and do anything for just so he could look at you, you wouldn't be so ****** in your life right now, but it's ok because us good men are still single, jumping over bridges for girls who wouldn't step over a puddle for us. Now we make the most money and grew into our looks that's when you want us? No. I won't be a step dad at 24. I won't be settling down with a girl whose ****** had the whole football teams **** in it plus the ones 2 towns over in every direction.
We don't mind that you want to be wild and free, but your choices are for life and the one you finally settle down with.
228 · Feb 2019
Defeated and misleaded
kyle Shirley Feb 2019
Darken skies
cloud my mind
Leave me with tearful eyes
We fought through the lies
Her and I
But forgotten I haven't tried
For on my end
Love hasn't died.
kyle Shirley Mar 2018
Everywhere I turned
I saw her.
She became death.
Hunted me with visions
Hidden within bladed objects
The sweet release of steel on skin
Brought me that much closer with her.
Her voice begged me to pick up the bottle
It's the only way I could feel her pain
And numb my own.
Soon death with take me
I already feel the cold chills pour from my vains.
I'll be Hand and hand with my love again soon enough.
223 · Nov 2017
Happiness
kyle Shirley Nov 2017
This elusive term is like
A bright red balloon at the park.  
You have to hold tight,
because if you loosen your grip just alittle... it's gone.

Happiness is a sail boat
Keeping a float
In a vicious sea
Carelessly free

*Basicly happiness is
in the eye of the storm of life.
In order to keep it,
you must change with it.
221 · Jul 2017
Lost boy
kyle Shirley Jul 2017
The only medicine that could numb this pain is death,
and even then I'm not sure it's enough...
220 · Jul 2019
Endure
kyle Shirley Jul 2019
Endure to become strong
Dear traveller the path is long
Taking beatings from friends and foe
All are required for you to grow
Don't be sad your darkness is gone
I'll carry it for you no matter how long
The nights when you visit me in my dreams
Are the nights I lay awake scream
I'm troubled, dumbfounded and lost
You left me empty with such great cost
Cold and selfish I learned it from you
My love, I endure this new breakthrough
218 · May 2017
Dream of me, o'dreamer
kyle Shirley May 2017
Every night it blows my mind
Because your the most hideous thing in sight.
Not on the outside because your beauty is so bright,
but on the inside I fight the beast with all my might.
218 · Jun 2017
This poem is for you
kyle Shirley Jun 2017
You got me thinking about you
so excited I can't wait to dream about you.
Those deep blue eyes
Make me wanna cry
That phat *** and short hair
Been chasing you for nearly a year
Are time in the sun is coming up soon
I'll sing with you all day and night
We will kiss under the full moon
Oh my, this girl is just right.
kyle Shirley Jul 2017
I woke up today
much like everyday.
I looked in the mirror and i saw it.
The pitty, this abyss of self loathing
Cold dead eyes looking at a broken man.
Heavily glazed over by sin and betrayal.

I'm not used to seeing me without you
With out anyone.
Burned every bridge I ever walked across
Lonely hurt love lost blah
211 · Sep 2017
Chilling relapse.
kyle Shirley Sep 2017
Due to my Venomous tongue and countless manipulation towards women,
At the end of the night Im
poisoning myself with the bottle.
Struck with pain
sick with guilt,
driven by grief,
hiding all emotion of life.
Death looms over me smiling
Watching me spin my life in disaster.
God looks down and shakes his head in defeat for the vision I've become.

The insanity grows as i repeat the next day.
206 · Oct 2019
Blue eyes and fall skys
kyle Shirley Oct 2019
The pain creeps on, till I can't sleep
It lingers inside of me deep
Watching and waiting, anxiety builds steep.

Another one bites the dust, love or lust?
Broken friendship and mistrust
Anger builds and fills me with disgust.

Falling for you, nothing I could do
It's going to be slow, letting you go
You planting that kiss, I dreamt it pure bliss
Hope you can wise up, but till then good luck.
205 · Jan 2018
Self titled. You.
kyle Shirley Jan 2018
Breathing.
The one thing we take for granted.
Life's choices make it unbearable to breath.
Drowing in debt.
Time moves so fast the wind gets knocked out of you.
choking on regret.

Loving you was like breathing, I took it for granted.
Now all I want is to breath again,
this plague of loneliness has slept over me and your the only cure.
One hello, One look in the eyes One kiss
I breath again.
204 · Aug 2018
Please send sunshine
kyle Shirley Aug 2018
As the random rain drops fall, and seep into the eroded cracks of the earth
Depression falls into my already crippled body withering away my judgement.
My compassion for love.
Yet I hold onto the rain
Unable to move.
Judgement slipping
Please send sunshine.
199 · Oct 2019
The curse of YOU
kyle Shirley Oct 2019
Since you, I have had no one.
The girls have yet to come close to the fire you left smoldering in your wake.

There was this one girl tho,
blonde, bombshell and out of my league.
Reminded me of Annabelle Lee
and her kingdom by the sea.
She just happened to be
The best friend of the girl I was dating.
Oh the misery, the jealousy and debating.
Two worlds torn, friendship and loving.
Here I sit silent and suffering
She could be what lifts the curse
But I fear now, I've made everything much worse...
197 · Mar 2018
Goodnight my fear
kyle Shirley Mar 2018
Many moons have past since you and I.
When the twilight of the dark noon hits
I daydream of you when the world is asleep.

Stars at night twinkle, everlasting reels of our time together.
many moons will pass, before i relight the sky with you my love.
Till then, say goodmorning to the stars for me.
The cusp of the new day is swift.
197 · Oct 2017
Work to be done.
kyle Shirley Oct 2017
Some people are not meant to find happiness.
they're not meant to have joy every day of their lives.
Some are meant to be built up with pain and anger, to finally rise up from depression on their own, and seek what truly is their bliss in life.
*I am not one of these people... But I'm working on it.
kyle Shirley Feb 2018
I believe there is some solidarity
in loneliness.
Like a shadow.
Lurking,
watching,
lingering....
Bonded to you.
Loneliness grips a soul so tight
Madness begins to spread.
Clawing new voices in my head.
Now I'm never alone.
I believe there's solidarity in loneliness.
kyle Shirley Mar 2018
I ain't ever gonna have that cash and June love
That love that no matter how much you endure,
at the end of days that woman says yes.
I ain't ever gonna die of a broken heart, because you gotta have one to break first.
Lost doesn't fit to the feeling I have,
It's more like disappeared.
Lost implys you will be found...
My love is at the bottom of a bottle
It's white residue left on a table
It's anything to numb my numb
To get my mind off you
To forget what life was when I had love
When everything else won't do..
190 · Feb 2019
Drunk and god
kyle Shirley Feb 2019
Hello god
It's me again
Drunk and alone
At Home
And wonderin
I need help rememberin
It's hard trying
To write again
I'm sufferin
The walls are closing in
She's gone and smilin
I'm left in denial
Again...
190 · Jan 2018
Tears of a clown
kyle Shirley Jan 2018
I'm laughing on the outside.
I'm crying on the inside.
Screaming in aging agony.
Clawing at my mind ripping away depression
Tearing down what makes me human.
Like a clown always pleasing others,
filling up with happiness
but never wanted or touched.
Emotionless
189 · Jun 2018
The way you made me
kyle Shirley Jun 2018
I have a suitcase full of stars
My body full of scars
Lavish life of fancy cars
only women i seek is in filthy bars
The end of my love life is chard
Alas nerves are brain dead
My Skin is all faded
Busted and used this life is jaded
Catfished women got me all baited
For my actions I'm hated
Assaulted and arrested
Tried, convicted and sentenced
Freed for my patience and penance
Now I'm full of revenge and vengeance
Can't stop till I get it.
188 · Nov 2019
I miss your face like hell
kyle Shirley Nov 2019
I've had a lot of first kisses since you
None have shot stars to the moon
Fireworks when I close my eyes
Shivers walking down my spine
None other than you.
Too much time has passed
I miss your face like hell
I guess we are going to better places
Move on, we might as well.
I see your eyes in other faces
I miss your face like hell.

I've never known
how to end these poems
when you're the subject..
because to me it isn't over.
188 · Feb 2019
Depressant mask
kyle Shirley Feb 2019
She looked at me and spoke with vicious words
"Back to the hole I found you in,
into that mask you hate
The life you couldnt bare
This will always be your fate
i want you to wear that mask
Till you love it!
Till you die in it.
You are unfit to look at me.
You are unfit to love me."
And just like that,  
the mask fit...
Like I had never...
Taken...
It...
Off.
187 · Feb 2019
Forbidden sanctuary
kyle Shirley Feb 2019
We chase this Paradise
We chase misprinted lies
I wait till the tears fall
And yet I fight
And yet I cry
When I hear that call
This house is not a home
I'm torn apart and all alone
Sometimes I repeat it in my head
Other times I wonder
I wonder
if I should be dead.
185 · Aug 2018
Blunt truth
kyle Shirley Aug 2018
Women are more attracted to loyalty and compassion, than looks or objects.
That's why they fall in love with cats and dogs not men.
185 · Apr 2020
"Its Time"
kyle Shirley Apr 2020
And then he walked Graciously into the inevitable
no white light
No pain
just peace
as he ascended
he watched those below
gather around with love sorrow.
He Turned to say one last thing,
"I gotta go" with a smile
He stepped out of sight
Calm with heavy hearts
Until we meet again.
178 · Jul 2019
Gone madd
kyle Shirley Jul 2019
I write to you still
But you give no call
I'm worried girl
I started to fall
Left me in the dust
I left you in disgust
Not a month went by
Your with another guy
Hit me like a brick wall
My mind has gone awol
Can't believe you ghosted me
Seems you practiced treachery
I'm still writing to you
If you read them I have no clue...
kyle Shirley Dec 2018
The distractions of my life are comforting
Till the music stops
The fountain of youth dries up
And all the good woman are gone.
When the life I've built is all in one room
Surrounding my wooden palace
Sitting in silence with their folding chairs
With nothing to look back on but money
I stare at a room full of strangers.
Hoping this final chapter brings her through the door.
Dasiy meeting Gatsby one.. last.. time...
177 · May 2018
Tales from the deep
kyle Shirley May 2018
Depression speaks in tongues only the weak and lonely can understand.
It's schizophrenic whispers in your ear when you know no one is there.
It's comforting when it's your only friend to talk to.
It's mumbling shadows on your wall
Telling you it's ok to end it all.
In the end I was there when no one could
No one understands why your so misunderstood...
176 · Apr 2018
All the songs are sad
kyle Shirley Apr 2018
Today the chill of the wind
Spoke your name
I mourn.
The breeze gentle and swift
carried your scent.
I mourn.
Spring butterflies dance
to our song
I mourn.
The grief for your lost love
Is strong today, like a funeral,
Buried and forgotten.
I mourn.
172 · Jun 2018
Suppresion rap
kyle Shirley Jun 2018
You don't think I have all this anger and aggression
As a kid I've only been taught suppression
You wonder why I speak with a stutter, guessin
They tell me to sit down shut up and learn my lesson.
I have anger in my sneakers metal music fills my speakers I have more rhyme and Rhythm than the rest of these tweakers, they wouldn't know the classroom from football bleachers.
So I sit with my time I write down and rhyme while the rest of my classmates are getting caught with crime I go home and have to deal with my parents doing chores lifting up grime but I'm awake the next day back at that grind,
I suffer all day and all night it ain't right I say these Rhymes out of spite at home no dinner no good night one of these days imma take off in flight.
171 · Jun 2019
In a nutshell
kyle Shirley Jun 2019
All the laughter aside,
you looked me in the eye.
Told me all your feelings subside,
That last night you cried
that everything was a lie.

And yet I find,
repeating in my head,
without you I'm better off dead,
alone and suffering laying in bed
writting you a love song filled with dread. Leaving me wasn't the worst thing you did,
it was leading me on before you ran and hid..
kyle Shirley Jun 2018
Off in the distance there is a faint howl in the wind.
The smell of the new dawn and lilac is fresh in the air.
Dew resting on the lips of the grass blades and cardinal song is beginning.
Yet,
I weep.
I sit in silence
I pleed for hope
Beg for a new beginning
But it's already here
And I feel nothing
Just pain
Loneliness
While the world still turns
My world crumbles around me.
169 · Jul 2018
A break in narcissism
kyle Shirley Jul 2018
You don't get it, but you will
I'm breaking your heart
So you won't dare touch me again
I'm not only bad for you
But if you let me
I'll corrupt you
I'll twist your thoughts
I'm bad for you
I'll drive you insane with insecurity
Breaking your heart is necessary
Breaking you down is my gift to you
So you can move on
Just remember
This one time
I did it for you
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