Her voice is all I heard
our outlook for us is blurred
It's the road to travel and meet you is far
Yet this connection we have is bizzare
Your cute, funny and so smart
Knocked me off my feet from the start

You make me smile it's all warm and fuzzy
Can't wait till some day you call me lovey
It's fast, this pace we have, I know
But like swimmers we brace for undertow

One chance is all I need
I'll be your shining knight on his steed
Rushing to your beck and call
I'll be there for when we both fall...

It shouldnt be this way, a connection lost.
I burned down every bridge that I found and your the last one.
This site was the last small piece of you I had. When I look, its just an empty space.
My poems were for you, a direct line to my creativity.
The woman that throw themselves at me, worthless
The offers I get to move on, useless.
You want what you cant have and I have the worst case of it.
I think I write about you, so later on I can tell the story of a true heros tale.
How I walk through this hell fire of my sins to reach you, because your worth it.
How I battle myself each and every heart ache, because your worth it.
I knew this would be a waste of my time, you wont see it. But your still worth it

My insecurities is an infinite wall that will keep us separated.

Read more.** Reading has expanded my mind to new heights and opened doors in conversation topics beyond anything you can see on television.
Meditation. has helped me see my goals clearly with distractions of everyday life.
NO FEAR fear has always been a concept of my own mind, nothing on the outside has made me this way, Once I took away small things I was afraid of I could grow out of my shell.
love yourself you are the only there will ever be. Once you realize that you are special, it will be easy to find great minded people like yourself.

I'm looking for that fresh start. I deleted her number the other day, among others. It was the final step in getting over you. I'm proud of myself and the changes iv done.

You never gave me the chance after a whole year. Well I'm glad you moved on and have him by you're side, but iv I must walk this path alone, know that you no longer drag me down.

Soft jazz warms my cold heart as love begins to fill my vains.
Thick, bold, and beautiful love loosens these lips as i spill every notion, and flirtation she throws my way.
A pedal dance plays intertwining these two lost souls, it's been life times since they have gotten to dance.*
My eyes awake, i gasp for air for I have found life's calling. *Bathing in loves embrace soothes every wrong I ever did.

The things that we love the most  in this world are the things that are taken from us too soon

I don't want to wait for all these hoes ******* around with these certain type of men getting their own heart broken, getting knocked up and expecting us good men to pick up these broken pieces, shattered self-esteem, trust issues and dealing with your baby daddy because you allowed him to beat you without saying anything because you loved him and it was your "fault". Listen ladies if you'd pick the good man, the one that may have not been the most muscular, or had the perfect tan. The guy that no one looked at instead of the guy all the women flock to and do anything for just so he could look at you, you wouldn't be so ****** in your life right now, but it's ok because us good men are still single, jumping over bridges for girls who wouldn't step over a puddle for us. Now we make the most money and grew into our looks that's when you want us? No. I won't be a step dad at 24. I won't be settling down with a girl whose ****** had the whole football teams **** in it plus the ones 2 towns over in every direction.
We don't mind that you want to be wild and free, but your choices are for life and the one you finally settle down with.

Thinking about writing a book, anybody want to see me do this? Repost or  share.. The more likes and views the more ill believe its a good idea.

Endure to become strong
Dear traveller the path is long
Taking beatings from friends and foe
All are required for you to grow
Don't be sad your darkness is gone
I'll carry it for you no matter how long
The nights when you visit me in my dreams
Are the nights I lay awake scream
I'm troubled, dumbfounded and lost
You left me empty with such great cost
Cold and selfish I learned it from you
My love, I endure this new breakthrough

When my life goes amok your name drifts into my head. The what ifs rush to conclusions.
It's more than I miss you it's I'm lost without you.
Life has been going at my pace, but dull ever since you left.
I salvage a "relationship", it's more of a charity case at this point.
Trying to right a bit of the wrongs till karma catches up with me.
I see you with him and it brings joy into my life, it's true what they say, if you love them let them go... I just wish your freedom came from me.
It spend the next 50 years of my life making a time machine to right my wrongs but I know at the end of days... You will find him...

This elusive term is like
A bright red balloon at the park.  
You have to hold tight,
because if you loosen your grip just alittle... it's gone.

Happiness is a sail boat
Keeping a float
In a vicious sea
Carelessly free

*Basicly happiness is
in the eye of the storm of life.
In order to keep it,
you must change with it.

The distractions of my life are comforting
Till the music stops
The fountain of youth dries up
And all the good woman are gone.
When the life I've built is all in one room
Surrounding my wooden palace
Sitting in silence with their folding chairs
With nothing to look back on but money
I stare at a room full of strangers.
Hoping this final chapter brings her through the door.
Dasiy meeting Gatsby one.. last.. time...

Everywhere I turned
I saw her.
She became death.
Hunted me with visions
Hidden within bladed objects
The sweet release of steel on skin
Brought me that much closer with her.
Her voice begged me to pick up the bottle
It's the only way I could feel her pain
And numb my own.
Soon death with take me
I already feel the cold chills pour from my vains.
I'll be Hand and hand with my love again soon enough.

I woke up today
much like everyday.
I looked in the mirror and i saw it.
The pitty, this abyss of self loathing
Cold dead eyes looking at a broken man.
Heavily glazed over by sin and betrayal.

I'm not used to seeing me without you
With out anyone.
Burned every bridge I ever walked across

As the random rain drops fall, and seep into the eroded cracks of the earth
Depression falls into my already crippled body withering away my judgement.
My compassion for love.
Yet I hold onto the rain
Unable to move.
Judgement slipping
Please send sunshine.

Every night it blows my mind
Because your the most hideous thing in sight.
Not on the outside because your beauty is so bright,
but on the inside I fight the beast with all my might.

I ain't ever gonna have that cash and June love
That love that no matter how much you endure,
at the end of days that woman says yes.
I ain't ever gonna die of a broken heart, because you gotta have one to break first.
Lost doesn't fit to the feeling I have,
It's more like disappeared.
Lost implys you will be found...
My love is at the bottom of a bottle
It's white residue left on a table
It's anything to numb my numb
To get my mind off you
To forget what life was when I had love
When everything else won't do..

I have a suitcase full of stars
My body full of scars
Lavish life of fancy cars
only women i seek is in filthy bars
The end of my love life is chard
Alas nerves are brain dead
My Skin is all faded
Busted and used this life is jaded
Catfished women got me all baited
For my actions I'm hated
Assaulted and arrested
Tried, convicted and sentenced
Freed for my patience and penance
Now I'm full of revenge and vengeance
Can't stop till I get it.

You don't get it, but you will
I'm breaking your heart
So you won't dare touch me again
I'm not only bad for you
But if you let me
I'll corrupt you
I'll twist your thoughts
I'm bad for you
I'll drive you insane with insecurity
Breaking your heart is necessary
Breaking you down is my gift to you
So you can move on
Just remember
This one time
I did it for you

You don't think I have all this anger and aggression
As a kid I've only been taught suppression
You wonder why I speak with a stutter, guessin
They tell me to sit down shut up and learn my lesson.
I have anger in my sneakers metal music fills my speakers I have more rhyme and Rhythm than the rest of these tweakers, they wouldn't know the classroom from football bleachers.
So I sit with my time I write down and rhyme while the rest of my classmates are getting caught with crime I go home and have to deal with my parents doing chores lifting up grime but I'm awake the next day back at that grind,
I suffer all day and all night it ain't right I say these Rhymes out of spite at home no dinner no good night one of these days imma take off in flight.

I write to you still
But you give no call
I'm worried girl
I started to fall
Left me in the dust
I left you in disgust
Not a month went by
Your with another guy
Hit me like a brick wall
My mind has gone awol
Can't believe you ghosted me
Seems you practiced treachery
I'm still writing to you
If you read them I have no clue...