Today the chill of the wind
Spoke your name
I mourn.
The breeze gentle and swift
carried your scent.
I mourn.
Spring butterflies dance
to our song
I mourn.
The grief for your lost love
Is strong today, like a funeral,
Buried and forgotten.
I mourn.

I know your home alone
And your crying on the phone
Your left with so much hurt
And I only see you in spirts
And it kills
It's shrill
But just imagine the thrill
The cold chill of the night
Don't hate me out of spite
I gotta do what I think is right
No longer can we fight
It takes all of my might
To stop that beast that's inside
The one you choose to hide
From the world you chose to help
But instead you indulge yourself
We both can't sink in this ship
And I'm just tired of your ****.

After the last one we just kinda gave up, as a whole generation of people finding their one and only.
Both sides spilling poison into the water making each person hurt like we do inside.
Cheating on eachother because if it happened to us, why cant it happen to them.
Flirting with new people online because its harmless fun, I didnt make my significant other go to sleep this early and NOT give me any attention.
Sleeping with every person out there because self empowerment and being a ***** (both sides) merged into being the same thing instead of having decency and self respect.

She is but a memory now.
I see her in all her beauty
But she's different

My love for a girl
Is lost with age
Not even lust
But more of an idea

She will never be
And I will never be
What once was
Never again

Yet I'll run right back
At her beck and call
A slave to the known

Depression speaks in tongues only the weak and lonely can understand.
It's schizophrenic whispers in your ear when you know no one is there.
It's comforting when it's your only friend to talk to.
It's mumbling shadows on your wall
Telling you it's ok to end it all.
In the end I was there when no one could
No one understands why your so misunderstood...

I could walk through fire just to give her a drink, and she would turn her nose up at it.
I could be Odysseus and travel across the most rigorous sea and I wouldn't be enough.
When the dust settles, the mountains have been moved, when the moon brought to her feet.. You are simply not what she is looking for...

To be loved by you
Was greater than time
Reminiscing old photographs
And watching home movies
I am reminded of the love you gave
Hearing your voice
Seeing your smile
Makes time irrelevant
You gave me a home to hold on to
When I have nothing left

I did the unspeakable
I rushed to the lavatory
In desperate need to clean the sin off
Wash my filth over and over
"Come clean" I shrieked
Panicked, holding my head in my hands
Kneeling on the marbled floor
Only A towel drapped over me
Shivering not cold but frantic
I breath in. Stand up. Exhale.
I wipe the fogged mirror
Look into it with mournful eyes
I watch the figure stand before me
Not my reflection I see
Startled as it took shape
Regret formed into goose bumps.
Down my body as it traveled, multiplying.
I break as I see the picture in the mirror
I look up one last time
I marvel in disbelief...

She is but a lonely spellCaster
love sewn in her Linens
to touch is to fall in love.
With luscious silk
draped down her smooth curved body,
her hair fell like gentle rain on her robe.
I can feel the poison
coursing through my body
love has its grip on me.
A knight, turned a feeble old man
Wise to loves touch,
Yet never learns his lession,
for the Sorceress gets what she wants.
As my persistence dies trying to fight
so does her enjoyment
Making me jump through hoops
to get her to notice me..
and I'm released from her vicious spell.
I'm  left with nothing but emptiness and shame
for my love still lingers
for the treacherous spellcaster...

As the winged serpents descended
And the smog filed death machine,
marched Towards their last breath
He grabbed her
Kissed her with everything he had left
And walked graciously onto the inevitable.
Something so permanent
an absolute truth of separation.
Couldn't change what he felt about her
The test of time made sure their love existed.
As she begged him not to go
Her memory started to fade
And all that was left, was a black and white photo of two strangers on the nightstand of the nursing home...

Basic human kindness is a plague.
Only Society provides the Cure
It feeds off of graciousness
Effecting others in its wake
Every smile you take
Disrupting the work place
Human kindness is disease
Quick run and hide
As the internet bleeds
Soon as it starts
everyone is along for the ride
But who will be patient zero?

Standing under a lone street light
Not a sound Or motion in sight.
Darkness blankets the streets
Masking people I've yet to meet
Walking aimlessly, corner to corner
Mind is racing thinking of horror
Asking questions to myself
Wondering if I'll ever get help
Out of the hall they swarm to grab me
Tie me up and back they drag me
Once again I've escaped my room
Once again the orderlies Loom
That Through all the pain
They tell me I'm insane
That no man could possibly endure
Loves departure.

The love for a girl begins a new.
The sun breaks and the dawn strikes,
Shards of the sun Pierce the darkness
She is mine
The day is mine with her rays to blot out the dark recesses of my mind.
The heart bleeds to live, to love, to hurt and feel.
To embrace life undaunted with her smile lighting the way.  
Hands held close,
music of the wind sings the tune of death
Life goes on
The wrinkles of our love decay with time
Soon once more
She will light the fire in my heart
The day beings a new
          the love is passed on.

Like piranha, darkness eats away at the sky leaving pink and blood orange clouds in its wake.
Guilt eats away at me.
The sickness, the urge... every breath of lust
In my direction, I must have a taste.
Happiness is an illusion of the sick drivin, by what ales them.
Itching at their skin just for another taste. After the hit, the bump, the rush, clarity fills our mind. We start to make sense of why it's wrong why it ruins our lives... till the next time...

Immortal
was his love for her
She was his Oasis
Without her his travels
It pure chaos
Everlasting hope and promise
The vows they made for each other
Death couldn't stand in the way
Even when it ceases to pulse
Love knows no bounds
When souls finally find each other
And beauty begins to decay
Love is immortal.

For 20 days
you called me ******
While you were calling him on the phone.
20 days
I was there for you
While in the back of your mind he was why you asked me to leave you alone.
For 20 days
you told me you were working on us
But you were with him talking about trust
For 20 days
I was giving you space to think
For 20 days
He was why we didn't speak
For 20 days
I begged and bled for you to notice me again
But all along it was a waste of my time thinking we would begin again.

Alone in his kindom he wept
Moon lit nights he barely slept
Pacing the halls he never dreamt
His bride, his queen an untimely death

Trapped in the kindom with a ghost
Madly looking at the ivory coast
Cruel intentions set into our host
The outcome of cancer Diagnosed

Her memory to others was jaded
Even the tombstone was faded
This wasn't the life he thought he created
Depression quickly invaded

Up at the castles tallest tower
was our kings final hour
Without his queen he had lost all power
The rope tightens quickly as the last tombstone reads "to my beloved wildflower".

I never said I was an easy man to love.
Most days I don't even like the skin I live in let alone love myself for it.
When I see you, you make the days bearable,
You make the face looking back in the mirror smile at all the flaws, the insecurities.
But you left...
You left me worse off than when you found me.
you were my home, not just four walls.
I had a full heart and a empty mind
Your touch was silk, hugs wrapped me like warm Linen, gentle and caring.
Now it's restless fighting with myself,
It's banging my hands on the table to stop from crying at 3am
Its Wondering what flaws did i have that you couldnt accept.
What did I do to push you away, what did my love do?
Was it too forthcoming with my anxiety? Was it waking up at 6am checking all the doors and windows to make sure you were safe?
Or..
Was it simply me loving you when you only liked the idea of not being alone...

When it comes to poetry,
You were the center of my writing.
My inspiration was your strength.
When you left,
It was like learning to write all over again.
This time I learned to think for myself
And when to close the door on us.

The distance between us is farther than miles
Frustration brings us on the verge of exile
One touch, one look brings us close
Two many days apart and we begin to choke
First comes fighting then comes silence
A little communication would bring guidance
One date, one kiss is all it would take
love from you, would end my heartbreak...

Nothing like being ignored
When your bored
And they are out there being adored
Like some social media *****
Take a step out of the light and explore
It's always a battle waging war
Mind racing till it's sore
Screaming aloud to shore
No vocal cords
You won't hear from me no more

I just have no will to fight.
Whatever is missing
It's gone for good.
It's left me in my bed
Alone
No tv or radio
No pictures or books
There is no light.
Why when it's missing is darkness related?

A lonesome traveler notices
the break in the sky,
The tear form in the eye.
The dance of joy flutter
Between two lovers
Many travels have taken place
Yet none was more beautiful than her face
He kept her close
in a pocket book
One look
To find home
Saddness creeps
His arms felt weak
Chin held high
He whispered
True love never dies...

The feeling is fuzzy,
everywhere but the pit of my stomach.
It aches, more or less moans at me.
Yells so loud the guilt must be herd by my head and the heart nurtures such sympathy.

It rings in my head when it's quiet,
when I'm alone its louder,
like multiple gun shots to the tune of a symphony.
It's sleepless nights,
fighting back hunger
and worse of all
its lying to a loved one.

Don't dream of me when I'm gone,
I wanted nothing but to stay.
Yet here I am passing
You have nothing left to say.
Looking back through the glass
Of where my picture lay
My memories before they pass
Showed happiness portrayed.
Broken, useless, covered in dust
For all the gifts I payed
Your the one I trusted
This poem is what I have to say
You lied, you cheat, took me for a fool
You sought out lust.
Used me as a tool
Heartless beauty with skin so divine
I'm sorry loving you was my gulity crime...

This wrinkle in time has given me lapse of judgment in this esoteric, illusion of love.
This glimpse of the unknown is tragic
Like a void shooting up ******
Filling it with anything It can to feel whole again.

The time left is only a fraction of the time spent chasing fancy cars and stardom.
With gravity beating down on my back
Crawling to break the shackles of my past...

You don't understand how unpredictably unstable I can be
I'm more than just a body, for hire
If I chose not to work im fired
I lay awake at at night waiting for a fright that might wanna take a bite
Of poor old lonely me,
tiny,
knee high to a tree,
whom can barely read
let alone feed a family creed.

I'm poor, I'm a joke.
That's why I can't stop taking the last ****
Before I stoke, these
Heavier drugs like coke
I'll bloat if I don't diet
It's pretty silent, it's quiet
Until the riot breaks out
And traps the sun
Ain't it fun?
We are all just believing we are number one
But isn't that the loneliest sum?
I feel lost
But at what cost?
The coin I had to toss
In a well
To get swell
For better or for worst
This love is a hell...

Just then, i watched as the angel who perched on my right shoulder began to change. Gradually, the wise and all knowing expression faded from its face and horns began to appear.
It whispered in my ear and began to lead me into the darkness,
for the devil was right here all along.