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Barker Sep 2018
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Darling, my love, my everything.

I love you,
But I desperately need to be alone right now.
I know that you are here for me.
I know that you care,
But I can't be with you right now.

I hope you can understand.

-Barker
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
One finished work
Over a thousand unfinished

One true love
Over a thousand wasted

One true passion
Over a thousand opportunities

One Masterpiece
Over a thousand failours

One true life
Over a thousand fake
(c)ibarker
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Barker Apr 2022
20
Writing has not come easy to me lately,
Maybe it’s because I’m older now and the routines of life has gotten me in a constant looping state of mind,
Maybe it’s because I no longer feel comfortable talking about my troubles,
I’ve become more reserved,
More cautious,
Afraid of being too transparent
And having my heart broken
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
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Barker Jun 2018
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(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Imagine the unimaginable
Dream the unachievable
Think beyond the realm of this world

Obtain the unobtainable
Create the impossible
For there are no boundaries
(c)Ibarker
Barker May 2021
In a world full of black and white
She’s the only colour I need
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
I'm afraid that one day
I'm going to forget to say
I love you
And that will be the day
They die...


And I forgot to tell them I love you...
(c)Ibarker
Barker Aug 2019
Walking and thinking about too much of everything.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2017
As a lover of words.
I've never resented them more,
Because there is no word,
In the realm of language,
That adequately describes,
My love for you.
Barker Jun 2018
I'm lost
Lost in the moments where I'm fighting to stay alive
Lost in the oceans of my thoughts
Lost in the fire of my feelings
Lost in the world
Without you
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
You say that you’ll always be there for me,
But how can you say that when you haven’t even seen the glimpse of my mind?
You say that you care for me,
But I’ve heard those words before
By many different people
Who are now long gone.
So, I ask you
How can you say these things without knowing if you mean them?
And more importantly,
How do you expect me to believe you when everyone else who has ever said that to me, left?
(C)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Most Demons
Hide in an
Angel's body
(c)ibarker
Barker Feb 2018
Broken hearts
And
Empty feelings

You brought me
In
With meaning

You mended
My broken heart

And chased away
The dark

Now all I see
Is your light

Shinning so ever
Bright
(ibarker)
Barker Oct 2017
There are words scribbled across a torn page.
There is a stain of red on it.

A mother reads it as she falls slowly onto her knees.
A father who never cared screams and slams the door.

He kneels down to hug her.
She opens her mouth, but no words are spoken.

She is in shock.
She looks at him.

The dad screams at her begging her to say something.

She doesn't.

She just stares at him.
Mouth open and tears dripping down the side of her cheeks.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
Be kind to yourself,
And if you ever feel like you're going to hurt yourself
Just remember that I'm here
And I care about you
And what you're doing.
Listen to these words before you put
That blade to your wrist,
Or before you take those pills.
Every time you hurt yourself,
You hurt me.
Let me help you heal.
Let me kyss your wounds better.
You don't have to be embarrassed around me.
I know that you have scars on your wrist from previous hardships.
I'm here to help you.
Not to make you worse.
I'll listen to you
Please just give me a chance.
(c)ibarker
Art
Barker Oct 2017
Art
A blade is my tool
And my body is my canvas
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
We fell in love,
Despite our differences
And once we did,
Something rare,
And beautiful was
Created
(c)ibarker
Barker Nov 2021
"Hey, how are you?"

Typing...
Typing...
Typing...

"I'm not doing too well to be honest. I feel like a cold dark blanket has been wrapped around me, slowly suffocating me. I want the world to just stop for a second so I can catch my breath, instead of feeling like I am hanging on by a single thread. I want to run far away from here and go somewhere, where I am a stranger… I — I want to be free."

Deleting...
Deleting...
Deleting...

"I'm alright, you?"
Barker Aug 2018
No, I'm not calling you crazy
I'm just calling out

Sometimes you amaze me
When you bring me down.

The world comes to a standstill
When you come around.

But I'm just screaming in silence
Can you hear me now?

If you stick to your guns
While they are against my head.

This time around
Aim for my chest instead.

So take me down,
I see your bluff.

I'm calling out,
Because I've had enough.

We aren't falling in love here,
We are just falling out.

I'd love to say I love you,
But I have to doubt it.
Walking On Cars
Barker May 2018
I am warm while you are cold.
I am rough while you are smooth.
That's our balance.
(c)ibarker
Barker Apr 2018
I built walls around my broken heart.
So no one can break it again.

I made barriers around my mind.
So no one can use my memories against me.

I sealed my emotions.
So no one can use my feelings as a weapon.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2021
And as blood dripped down her battered face,
The sun shone through the clouds;
Ending her long suffering night.
A new day emerges and as she prepares for her next battle,
She stops and looks around,
For the demons that once haunted her had vanished,
And there stood in shinning armour,
Were those whom she now calls
Friends
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
The heart longs to feel that desire to fall in love
And that the pain is replace by something
Beautiful
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
You don't have to lower yourself
To fit into the worlds specifications
Don't change
Show people your
definition of beauty
(c)Ibarker
Barker Aug 2019
You asked me why I never talk to you about me. At that time I didn't say anything, I just shook my head. What I wanted to say was "I'm afraid that if I do I will lose you."
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
The constant fight for equality
Black vs White
White vs Black
Religion vs Religion
Women vs Men
Men vs Women
Human vs Human
Why can't we see that we are all equal
(c)Ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
Family is family.
We are tied together by a bond.
You can treat me however you want,
But at the end of the day.
I will still save you
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2016
Her heart was full of bookmarks
From those who had once loved her pages,
But not enough to finish what they had started.
Barker Sep 2017
I don't belong in a box
I don't need a label to define
Who I am
(c)Ibarker
Barker Apr 2018
I'm standing here,
Gun in my hand.
The pain,
Is unbearable.
I need to take a break,
But that's the thing,
Life doesn't give breaks.
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Everyone has a breaking
                                             point.                                        
Even the most good hearted people  
break.
(c)ibarker
Barker Dec 2022
It's so peaceful and quiet at night,
It's as if the world just kind of fades away,
I'm laying on the pavement in the middle of the road,
No cars are around,
I can hear the wind flowing through,
The trees rustle in response,
And the sound of the river flowing.
It's peaceful and for once it seems as if all the worries and  responsibilities are lifted off of my shoulders.
I look up at the sky, but no stars can be seen tonight,
The clouds are pink from reflecting the city lights,
I watch as they slowly roll by.
I am not necessarily happy, nor sad, but rather alive.
All I know is that I never want this feeling to end,
I don't want to feel that weight on me,
Not when I finally know what it feels like to breathe.
(c)barker
Barker Sep 2017
We often forget to stop and just breathe.
Look around.
Reflect on your life and you will come to realize
That life isn't just stress and darkness.
There's those small wonderful moments in life
Which makes life worth living.
(c)ibarker
Barker Apr 2020
I have a different kind of trust issue.
I love and accept everyone.
I welcome everyone in with open arms.
I go out of my way to make people feel both happy and comfortable,
But I don't trust anyone to be there for me when I need them the most
I don't even reach out, because there's just no point
Barker Jun 2017
Broken hearts do the most writing.
Barker Jun 2017
I spent most my life trying to fix you.
It wasn't until recently that I realized I was broken too.
Barker Sep 2017
I hate how my problems
Are a burden
To other people
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2016
Can't you see
From where you
Sit
That I have scars
To kiss?
Can't you hear
From where you
Rest
That I just may be
Crazy?
Can't you feel
From where you
Sleep,
That it's always
You
That I
Miss?
Barker Jul 2018
Every car ride I end up going on
I'm always in a state of panic
Because I know what cars can do.
I know that they've killed more people than the number of digits on my phone.
I know that they have taken away the people I have cared the most about.
And so I sit wondering "Who's next? When is it going to happen."
Praying that I will be next so someone else doesn't have to take the hit.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jul 2018
You can’t be falling
I got you
(C)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
I sit on my bed
Wondering
How on earth
I got you
For you have
No idea
What is
Hidden
In my mind
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Things change,
You get to
Decide
How you want
To remember them
(c)ibarker
Barker Apr 2022
Don’t be so foolish as to mistake who I am,
With who I was
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
Are you mine?
No, you're not
I lost you quite a while ago

Am I yours?
No, I'm not
You lost me quite a while ago
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
People are like clay.
We can mold to adapt.
We can change how we look,
But not what we are made of;
And if we are left uncared for
We become as hard as rocks,
And that's the tragedy of living.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock

I listen to the steady beat of the clock
I’m sitting on my bed
Starring into empty space

I never thought I would be the one
To hurt you

I keep listening to the clock
The sound soothes me

Until I hear them
Creeping under the door
They are surrounding me

I become paralyzed
They whisper words to me

I see them
They are haunting me

I can’t do this
I can’t live with this
What have I done?
(C)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
I sit on my bed,
Strumming aimlessly at my guitar.
My mind is clouded,
Clouded by thoughts of you
And only you
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
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(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Life is black and white
With a bit of grey.
This world which I see is very dull.
I try to see
The in-between
But I can't
Seem to free
Myself from the
Black, white and grey
That I see
(c)ibarker
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