I can't decide if I will let you save me,
Or if ill drown.

So I guess I'll trust you sister.
Someone I've never trusted before.
I leave you as Emma's mentor I guess you can say.
Emma is little sweet.
I'm leaving town though.
Getting out of this pathetic place.
Don't worry I'll call.
Just be there for Emma.
She needs a womanly role model in her life.
She needs you.
Believe me I'm not gonna be responsible for kidnap so take care of our sister.
Keep her safe.
Don't let her stay out too late.
Bye.

Diner was calm.
The tv off not on.
We sat there like statues.
Pretending everything was fine.
Yes pretending was something you've always been good at dad.

I knew you lost your job.
I knew your car capped out.
Never once did I speak.

You knew I had relationship problems.
You knew I was becoming sicker.
Yet never once did you speak.

You were a homophobe.
You didn't want to believe half of it.
I didn't want to see your life go downhill.
Especially now.

So to ease the tension, I picked up the baby and got in the Prius and drove to my girlfriends house.
Just for you I kissed her like there was no tomorrow.
I'm sorry.
Me too.

The baby cooed.
She smiled gently.
Yes everything was okay.
But at the same time it wasn't.
I guess that's alright.
At least I have her and I'm still alive.
The tiny life will keep her company when I'm gone.
The tiny life will need her when I'm gone.
I can't be sad.
Looking back on the life I had.
A happy, for the most part, family.
Beautiful baby girl.
Beautiful significant other.
Beautiful childhood.
Surrounded by beauty.
Yeah life was good.

You are gone.
I was so little.
You left me on the streets.
You taught me to never trust humans.
I am a stray dog.
Wandering aimlessly.
My mom abandoned me as a puppy.
Thought pitbulls were ugly.
To everyone who ever abandoned their dog...
A big old duck you!

Stop your screaming child.
The angel said I have to.
Do you want to go to the promised land?
If you want to enter his kingdom you must be cleansed of sin.
Stop moving.
It will only hurt a second.
You are a sin!
The angel said I must cleanse you!

Outside my window the night bangs.
Bangs against my walls.
Screams to let it in.
Come open your window.
Let the voices in to play.
After all we are just the screams of the rain.
The aim banged even more.
It wanted in and was becoming angry.
Let me in before I flood your house.
The rain in powerful and if you don't give it what it wants when it wants it will find a way to get it.
The rain is getting angrier.
It begins to shout in loud busts of thunder.
Let me in!
The thunder bashes against the house.
The rain gets what it wants.
Let me in!
The whole night it screamed.
Little sleep for myself.
The rain was happy about this.
I told you you'd pay if you didn't let me in.
The rain has been screaming for weeks.
More than likely will continue screaming.
Let me in!