Always Ally

Always Ally Sep 2018

You fake okay to ease the ones you love
If you don't you are the burden
You fake good health to forget you're in pain
If you don't you remember the medicine destroying your body

Remembering the happiness you had and the lack thereof
The gift of life was never a guerdon
To feel nothing and to feel it all the same
Nobody nobody nobody
You

#lonely #sick #burden #medicine

Always Ally Sep 2018

Distant Love

I wish you were here
Near is such a luxury
To kiss you and hold your hand
Understand it means so much to me

My desire is a fire's flame
Blame it on how beautiful you are
You're so tender and forgiving
Having you in my life is like a dream

You are distant, My Love
Love you ever as much still
Think of you often
Soften my heart's will

To see you soon
Moonlight on your face
I will embrace you
Blue when you leave again

You are distant, My Love
In my heart you are always near
You are distant, My Love
I wish you were here

#long #distance #relationships #heartache #sweet #bittersweet #surrender

Always Ally Jul 2018

Fake Love

You love me
The me you think of
The one you think I could be
You love me
Who doesn’t exist
Who doesn’t become a reality
You can’t love me
I’m real

#love #reality #fake #me

Always Ally Jun 2018

Heartbreak Dream

Where is it
The hand to hold
Why is it
That it has gone cold

You are gone
From your place next to me
You chose it this way
You made it to be

Am I not enough
Feed my anxiety
Is she more for you
Are you less for me

Let’s put an end to this
Before I put an end to me
Wake up
Wake up
From this bad dream

#dream #space #anxiety #relationship #problems #warning #signs

Always Ally Nov 2017

Wonder When I Wake

I wonder how much people can change
And how through all these years
I've stayed the same

The only thing that passes me by is time
And I'm trying to my best all the time
But I have to wake up and realize
I'm not fine doing fine

I'm such a simple girl
With complex emotions
So simple isn't my world
Too many situations

"Help me" I wish I could say
But I'm silently wasting away

Always Ally Jul 2017

Real Love

I want it to be love
Oh desparate heart
I want it to be you
But what you is real

If you hold my hand
What a great start
If you be closer
I know you would feel

For me, a thousand kisses
For you, a golden throne
I want it to be real
But I'm really
All
Alone.

Do I only love the you in my head or you as you truly are

#love #is #confusing #i #want #nothing #to #do #with #it

Always Ally Jan 2017

Zero One

It haunts me.
It haunts me.
The way you breathe my name.
Your touch still lingers on my, and oh my I can't believe you stayed sane.
I grow old with the cold, but at least that I know I can find you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I see you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I can win.

#poem #i #lyrical #this #one #*** #song #is #also #zero