adriana: Poems

i made myself vulnerable so i could be close to you
and if i could i would burn away every inch of skin that you touched.
i'm so ashamed of loving you

i hate you so much. i hate you i hate you i hate you. and i still love you so much.

Jan 2021 · 305

if this is love then why do i hurt like this

adriana Jan 2021

if this is love then why do i hurt like this

let me go.
i want to hold you close.

Dec 2020 · 317

the night we met

adriana Dec 2020

the night we met

i love you now and i'll love you forever
i just hope that i'll have the chance to love you again.

pain enough to make me write again for the first time since july.

Jul 2020 · 235

how to lay back and watch the world burn

adriana Jul 2020

how to lay back and watch the world burn

i would give anything to feel okay just one more time.

Apr 2020 · 160

hood angels

adriana Apr 2020

hood angels

i only wonder if you had been raised a little different
would you love a little different now

but i like your love just how it is

Mar 2020 · 152

floor four

adriana Mar 2020

floor four

i dreamt of you last night
but it turned nightmare by the morning.

Feb 2020 · 208

love long lost

adriana Feb 2020

love long lost

now you and i are nothing,
which is at least something,
because they say nothing lasts forever.

and all i ever wanted was forever with you.

i gave you everything that i was but somehow i always seem to come up just a little too short every time. jml

Feb 2020 · 115

swan dive

adriana Feb 2020

swan dive

head rush, you were my drug
then i fell in love and it killed me

right off of the mf overpass

Feb 2020 · 127

summer love in january.

adriana Feb 2020

summer love in january.

you were my world and i spent my days
spinning circles around you.
i just wish i could've prepared for the cold
before i remembered that seasons change.

Feb 2020 · 118

dandelion wishes in winter

adriana Feb 2020

dandelion wishes in winter

i always wanted to die in the summer
when only three of my friends still knew my name
hit by a car or lightning, something or other
and not by this *****, self-induced shame

Feb 2020 · 133

deep south

adriana Feb 2020

deep south

my clothes on the floor, sitting here in your bed
trying to find a way to disappear.
and i'm trying to run and i'm trying to leave
but somehow you just keep me stuck here.

Feb 2020 · 135

drops for the ocean

adriana Feb 2020

drops for the ocean

sometimes i cry.
i cry until i have no tears left and my voice has long left me.
i sob until it feels like my lungs collapse.

(similarly to the world that i built with you in my head)

Feb 2020 · 131

wildflowers

adriana Feb 2020

wildflowers

the beautiful way in which you offer up the world to me
makes me want to take it simply so i can give it back to you.

everything always

Jan 2020 · 125

forever and seven minutes

adriana Jan 2020

forever and seven minutes

you spill an ocean of secrets
hoping that i can keep it for you
hold me down
and hope i won't drown

fire and the **** flood

Dec 2019 · 161

love letters

adriana Dec 2019

love letters

my whole life i’ve been learning to write,
but no one ever taught me how to love you

so i guess it’s time to put it on paper

Dec 2019 · 217

ohio is for lovers

adriana Dec 2019

ohio is for lovers

you see my scars, but they see my lies
you see my stars, but they just see my skies

Dec 2019 · 233

i had everything

adriana Dec 2019

i had everything

except my heart because that belongs to you
but all of you is my everything,
so i guess it's really no difference.

Nov 2019 · 155

honeymoon phases

adriana Nov 2019

honeymoon phases

on october the 26, your lips on mine tasted like malibu
that's about the only thing i know for sure about us

Nov 2019 · 552

i'm jealous of your love

adriana Nov 2019

i'm jealous of your love

suddenly gravity isn't just a theory or a force,
but a friend that keeps me company,
keeps me grounded,
while i watch you, weightless

free

and prone to leaving me

the love i pray is mine.

Nov 2019 · 306

will you be the last

adriana Nov 2019

will you be the last

you taught me what it felt like to lose myself.
but now i'm bound to lose you too.

Sep 2019 · 459

say my name

adriana Sep 2019

say my name

how can i reach for the stars
when you’re the only thing that lights up my life

Sep 2019 · 448

my favorite way to fall apart

adriana Sep 2019

my favorite way to fall apart

in your arms with my head on your chest

Sep 2019 · 557

darkness always finds a way to shine.

adriana Sep 2019

darkness always finds a way to shine.

i put out the lights, but somehow i forgot to close the blinds
so now i've got to see your face when it turns morning time

Sep 2019 · 269

compared to you, my one is like none.

adriana Sep 2019

compared to you, my one is like none.

you said you wanted to be next,
but you'll never be unless you learn to put me first

#yours #and #mine

Sep 2019 · 861

heart$

adriana Sep 2019

heart$

you say that you could replace me,
and i would believe you if,
when you said it,
you could look me in the eyes.

#bedroom #tour

Sep 2019 · 292

don't lie to me

adriana Sep 2019

don't lie to me

the waves are over my head
but i don't even want to hold my breath

#upside #down

Aug 2019 · 825

the upside of the in between

adriana Aug 2019

the upside of the in between

you're not the only one trying to be the only one

even though i'm lonely, i've never got to be alone.

#in #between

Aug 2019 · 277

you've got a little while if you take the meds.

adriana Aug 2019

you've got a little while if you take the meds.

you're walking on the edge even though you can't really walk.
i'm walking the line but i know we can't talk.
i just wish we could bury this before your casket.

#bury #this

Aug 2019 · 183

freak show

adriana Aug 2019

freak show

here for one night only

and only for you

#one #night #only

Aug 2019 · 722

love me

adriana Aug 2019

love me

i'm not looking for god,
but i'm down on my knees.

#knees

Aug 2019 · 272

what i need to know

adriana Aug 2019

what i need to know

are you somebody's late night?
are you somebody's hold on tight?
are you the 3am, at my window,
throwing rocks because you've got no other place to go?
are you the where it starts?
are you the where it ends?
the getting back together just to fall apart again?

just something i heard somewhere. thought maybe you needed to hear it too

#backstage

Aug 2019 · 207

coronary

adriana Aug 2019

coronary

i'm trying to change for the better,
but you were my better half

#better

Aug 2019 · 245

do you miss me when i'm gone?

adriana Aug 2019

do you miss me when i'm gone?

because you're the whole reason that i'm not around

#stay #asleep

Aug 2019 · 207

october the twenty sixth

adriana Aug 2019

october the twenty sixth

but now all i can do is send up a prayer
that you won't leave me
when i leave him there

#leaving

Aug 2019 · 377

one round good

adriana Aug 2019

one round good

i drink cause i keep it bottled up

and another. and another.

#bottles

Aug 2019 · 387

barely staying afloat

adriana Aug 2019

barely staying afloat

saw you facing God in spite,
saw your face and got inspired

much less walking on water

#god #in #spite

Aug 2019 · 178

hopefully, this time you won't let me down.

adriana Aug 2019

hopefully, this time you won't let me down.

lately, it seems like all i want to do
is get high enough to fall for you.

#let #me #down

Aug 2019 · 698

time and a half

adriana Aug 2019

time and a half

i put in overtime
stayed all night
just to leave with you

#overtime

Aug 2019 · 209

burnt asf

adriana Aug 2019

burnt asf

feelings fade and seasons change but
the question is did you

you've got me wasted

Jul 2019 · 244

cover your eyes, or just go turn the lights out

adriana Jul 2019

cover your eyes, or just go turn the lights out

they never really last...
fake chains and pretty boys, that is.
i like to keep them both wrapped around my fingers regardless

#gold

Jun 2019 · 252

the gallery of broken girls: the traitor

adriana Jun 2019

the gallery of broken girls: the traitor

she was looking for love in all the right places
but her mother said the devil can take many faces

she ruined herself but still loved him the same
choosing him over her own family name

she pleaded her innocence to no avail
so she sat and just watched her whole life derail

she lost her way in trying to find "the one"
she loved the thrill but chasing all of them is done

and then there were six.

#galleryofbrokengirls #conformity

Jun 2019 · 282

rlly real

adriana Jun 2019

rlly real

lately, i've been hearing that you wrote
someone else's name on your heart
but lord knows that all the sharpie in the world
couldn't cover up what i carved there

#just #like #that

Jun 2019 · 224

a midnight kind of venom

adriana Jun 2019

a midnight kind of venom

i want to roll my eyes so hard
that someone who likes to gamble
as much as you could
use them as game dice.
i hope you like snake eyes

#venom

Jun 2019 · 467

sugar pills and candy stores

adriana Jun 2019