i hope that our stars will align again soon, sweet boy
i miss you and you haven't even left
than feel this way inside.
i miss it when you loved only me.
i made myself vulnerable so i could be close to you
and if i could i would burn away every inch of skin that you touched.
i'm so ashamed of loving you
i hate you so much. i hate you i hate you i hate you. and i still love you so much.
let me go.
i want to hold you close.
i love you now and i'll love you forever
i just hope that i'll have the chance to love you again.
pain enough to make me write again for the first time since july.
i would give anything to feel okay just one more time.
i only wonder if you had been raised a little different
would you love a little different now
but i like your love just how it is
i dreamt of you last night
but it turned nightmare by the morning.
now you and i are nothing,
which is at least something,
because they say nothing lasts forever.
and all i ever wanted was forever with you.
i gave you everything that i was but somehow i always seem to come up just a little too short every time. jml
head rush, you were my drug
then i fell in love and it killed me
right off of the mf overpass
you were my world and i spent my days
spinning circles around you.
i just wish i could've prepared for the cold
before i remembered that seasons change.
i always wanted to die in the summer
when only three of my friends still knew my name
hit by a car or lightning, something or other
and not by this *****, self-induced shame
my clothes on the floor, sitting here in your bed
trying to find a way to disappear.
and i'm trying to run and i'm trying to leave
but somehow you just keep me stuck here.
sometimes i cry.
i cry until i have no tears left and my voice has long left me.
i sob until it feels like my lungs collapse.
(similarly to the world that i built with you in my head)
the beautiful way in which you offer up the world to me
makes me want to take it simply so i can give it back to you.
you spill an ocean of secrets
hoping that i can keep it for you
hold me down
and hope i won't drown
fire and the **** flood
my whole life i’ve been learning to write,
but no one ever taught me how to love you
so i guess it’s time to put it on paper
you see my scars, but they see my lies
you see my stars, but they just see my skies
except my heart because that belongs to you
but all of you is my everything,
so i guess it's really no difference.
on october the 26, your lips on mine tasted like malibu
that's about the only thing i know for sure about us
suddenly gravity isn't just a theory or a force,
but a friend that keeps me company,
keeps me grounded,
while i watch you, weightless
and prone to leaving me
the love i pray is mine.
you taught me what it felt like to lose myself.
but now i'm bound to lose you too.
how can i reach for the stars
when you’re the only thing that lights up my life
in your arms with my head on your chest
i put out the lights, but somehow i forgot to close the blinds
so now i've got to see your face when it turns morning time
you said you wanted to be next,
but you'll never be unless you learn to put me first
you say that you could replace me,
and i would believe you if,
when you said it,
you could look me in the eyes.
the waves are over my head
but i don't even want to hold my breath
you're not the only one trying to be the only one
even though i'm lonely, i've never got to be alone.
you're walking on the edge even though you can't really walk.
i'm walking the line but i know we can't talk.
i just wish we could bury this before your casket.
here for one night only
and only for you
i'm not looking for god,
but i'm down on my knees.
are you somebody's late night?
are you somebody's hold on tight?
are you the 3am, at my window,
throwing rocks because you've got no other place to go?
are you the where it starts?
are you the where it ends?
the getting back together just to fall apart again?
just something i heard somewhere. thought maybe you needed to hear it too
i'm trying to change for the better,
but you were my better half
because you're the whole reason that i'm not around
but now all i can do is send up a prayer
that you won't leave me
when i leave him there
i drink cause i keep it bottled up
and another. and another.
saw you facing God in spite,
saw your face and got inspired
much less walking on water
lately, it seems like all i want to do
is get high enough to fall for you.
i put in overtime
stayed all night
just to leave with you
feelings fade and seasons change but
the question is did you
you've got me wasted
they never really last...
fake chains and pretty boys, that is.
i like to keep them both wrapped around my fingers regardless
she was looking for love in all the right places
but her mother said the devil can take many faces
she ruined herself but still loved him the same
choosing him over her own family name
she pleaded her innocence to no avail
so she sat and just watched her whole life derail
she lost her way in trying to find "the one"
she loved the thrill but chasing all of them is done
and then there were six.
lately, i've been hearing that you wrote
someone else's name on your heart
but lord knows that all the sharpie in the world
couldn't cover up what i carved there
i want to roll my eyes so hard
that someone who likes to gamble
as much as you could
use them as game dice.
i hope you like snake eyes
i wish the child-locks on medicine bottles
worked on people that don't have that childlike innocence
i wonder how long it'll be until i'm finally okay
with everything never being able to be okay again
wherever i go
heavy is the crown, but only for the weak.
i suppose that i'm weak, then,
because without you i can't keep my head up.
the fire never goes out.
i wanna ask you to stay up with me
so you don't have to wake up and
find my brain matter painting the ceiling
i don't wanna do this anymore