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  May 2017 Cloudy Heart
Shiloh
I had a moment yesterday
where I had something to say
to you.

But you can never know.

So I came up with this concept
to keep in mind, keep to yourself
if you want to get to know me
not gonna mention date me, love me
I have a list of don't you dares.

Don't bother telling me
your favorite bands
  I can't even learn of
new music from you
I need to be able to listen to
good music
after you're gone.
We won't have our song.

Don't tell me what you like to eat
in fact, tell me what you can't stand
it will be hard enough
eating at all
when you leave
I'll need to enjoy something
I know would be
Wasted on you
Like I do

I don't need to know what you smell like
You don't need to come to my place
Because then when you leave
I won't have to upheave
All my stuff that you left with your trace

Let's never go to the same spots
We don't need our own special place
It's hard enough to get out on my own
Without memories tied to your claims

Please don't ever give me anything
Material items at least
Because I only have myself to give away
And I've already been picking up the pieces

For hours, and ours.
Cloudy Heart May 2017
My void is talking to me again
my stupid, miserable old friend
"he doesn't love you"
"he finds you unattractive"
"he will lose interest"
Why?
Why would you tell me such mean things?
It hurts and I am cold now
I cannot sleep
If I do, I have nightmares
I crave reassurance I cannot have
I crave comfort I will never get
It hurts and I am cold now
My smile is so fake
It is so hard not to cry
I'm tired of being hurt
I'm tired of trying to get by
I think my problem is
That I am empty inside
I cannot move
I cannot get by
I haven't written in so long
because Void told me not to
I haven't felt happiness all week
because Void told me I'm not happy
How do you silence such hate?
How do you make Void shut up?
I'm spiraling downward
I want to feel warmth, happiness, love
I want to feel important
I want to matter
but Void says no.
-M.W.
Cloudy Heart Aug 2016
I feel you in the season changing
I feel the fall air surround me like your warm embrace
I feel you in the night lights
How they twinkle at me like your eyes
I feel you in the sun and moon
How they warm me and cool me in the most satisfying way
I feel you in the music
How each beat takes me to a different place with you
I feel you in everything I do
And I hope you always feel me too**
-m.w.
Cloudy Heart Aug 2016
was it the way your eyes were glued to mine at first sight
was it the way your sweet scent got a hold of me that night
i think it was the way you were so gentle
the way you were so pure
the way your voice soothed my heart
the way you were my cure
the way you made me feel safe
even at my most vulnerable state
the way your embrace lit my heart on fire
and silenced my mind
the way that being with you
ends up stopping time
i believe it lies in the way you simply exist
your perfect soul lies with mine
in ever-longing bliss

*-m.w.
Cloudy Heart Aug 2016
you
are
the very fire in my soul
you
are
the one who filled that hole
you
are
the one who holds me tight
you
are
the one who protects me at night
you
are
the one with a perfect smile
you
are
the one for whom i'll go the extra mile
you
are
the sweetest soul to exist
you
are
the very key to my everything
Cloudy Heart Oct 2014
My heart is a haunted house
filled with dead souls of lovers and friends
who told me they'd be with me
until the very end
but what they didn't know
is that I've cut the ties
because I have no more time for them
or their lies
I wish I could say you healed me
but that's not guaranteed
because your favorite thing to do
is make me bleed
it's not exactly fair
that I have to try and compare
to some "perfect girl"
but hey, I'll give it a whirl
because my heart may be a haunted house
but I'm a lively flower
however
I am dying slowly by the hour.
{m.w}
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